mood: energetic....
listening to: the theme to Dying Young by James Newton-Howard
addicted to: Spider Solitaire is the shit.


So, I really haven't been kidnapped or disappeared off the face of the planet. I have just been pretty busy with school, a social life(or something with that basic idea), sleeping, and making money(in no specific order).

Academics:
I have recently realized my cumulative GPA is a 92.6 (if anyone can tell me what that is equivalent to in terms of 0.0 - 4.0, that would be greatly appreciated), and that makes me eligible to apply for induction into the National Honor Society. I just think that is a really incredible achivement for me, not to sound completely arrogant and stuck up. I am just known for being, how shall I put this,...somewhat of a slacker. I just got my act together, and I am happy for myself. Even if I don't get in, I will still be proud of myself for being eligible.


Love Life:
Nonexistent. I don't need to be in a relationship, but I want a guy that I can just hang out with whenever, and not make a big deal out of it. I want someone I can talk with for hours on end, and not get sick of. Someone to hold on to, someone I can run to when I am having even the slightest of a bad day. Moving on...


Other News:
There isn't much going on in my life besides the usual school and work. I have lost 5 pounds, and have 25lbs to go. I need to get my wisdom teeth out, which is going to suck alot of ass. Missing a week of school doesn't sound like my idea of a good time, but at least the pain will cease and I won't whine about it anymore. I am slowly preparing myself for college. I am taking my SATs on November 6. I am looking at colleges. Two inparticular - Culinary Institute of America, Hyde Park and
Johnson & Wales University, Rhode Island.Johnson & Wales is having an Open House on October 17, and I am contemplating seriously about attending. Two more postives about J&W are, it is about 2 hours from my dad's house, and is about 15 minutes from a enormous multi-level shopping center, which would be awesome for the whole needed a job because I don't want to be another college kid with no money.....


Well, I think that is enough of an update for ya'll....Goodnight!

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mood: fresh and revived
listening to: Switchfoot - This is Your Life


Yesterday was an strange day for me. I thought about a great many things, thing that I hadn't thought about before. Let me explain.

What if all we know is wrong? Who is to say what is right and wrong? Some might say that the government has that ability, but really who gave them that power? What if one day, far from now, we(as a population) realize that we are a bunch of dillusional, naive people, like someone figuring out 5 + 3 doesn't equal 8. Think about how many things would be affected by that! What if we aren't alone? What if there are infact other beings out there. There is a distinct possibility that they will be far more advanced intellecually than we are, and that would piss us off, becuase humans love to feel superior. If anyone ever feels inferior, they hold a grudge on the superior because of envy. So would we go to war with these other beings, just to feel better about our intelligence? What if there really isn't a God, or gods. What if it is just another dillusion someone constructed to make the thought of dying a bit easier. What if there are people, that are less fortunate, that use 10% + of their brain, but we don't know it because they live in some remote area of the jungle or something? They might have the cure for cancer, or the cure for AIDS and nobody will never know?

Those are pretty much the thoughts that I thought most of yesterday. Another good thing I did yesterday was quit my life. Well my old life that is. I was sick of it. It wasn't doing me or anyone else any good. Thanks to a good friend, whom just reunited her friendship with me, I realized that if I don't like the way something in my life is, I am the only one who can change it. Hence quitting my life. I weighed the good and then the bad, and realized that there was so much that I needed to change, I just up an quit it all. I can't change the way people think of me, but I can change the way I act, the way I handle situations, the way I see myself, and if I succeed, I will have found happiness. True happiness. Take for instance my constant battle with my weight. I have been constantly struggling with trying to obtain the "perfect" figure for me, for about 3 years now. It hasn't gone as far as eating disorders, or medication, so don't think that. All I would do is complain about not being the way I wanted to be, then a month ago, I decided I was going to start running, because not only is that a good way to burn off calories, it is healthy for you. So I can become less pudgy and more healthy all at the same time. It hurts while I am running, but I feel so much better knowing that I am helping my body out. I have also recruited my friend, Jay, to aid in my goal. He is writing up an exercise plan that will get me the toned body that I want, and a diet to coincide with that exercise plan. It will take determination and perserverance, but if I want it badly enough, I will succeed. I want it badly enough. Then there is my battle with always feeling inferior to those in my classes that are smarter than me. I am the only one that can push myself farther, study harder, and make an effort. You all get the point.

I missed my best friend's birthday party yesterday to think and make ammends with people in my life. I hope B understands.


I am going to leave you with a quote that I want you to think about. This is from the song "This is Your Life" by Switchfoot....

This is your life, are you who you want to be??

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mood: stoked for tonight
listening to: Journey - Remember Me


Well, it finally happened. One of us is now a legal adult. It's B's 18th birthday today and tonight all chaos will break loose in Canton and the surrounding towns. The party is going to be so incredibly rockin', no words could can even describe it. And we are going to get it on tape for the senior video!! WOO! So I am pumped up about that, although I still need to get a shower and money, but that is easily done. I think I am going to go for another run before I get my shower though, so I am fully ready for tonight! YAY! It's going to be off the fuckin hook! I'll give you updates on the party, and an actual update on me tomorrow, when I get back!

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mood: effervescent
listening to: Kanye West - Jesus Walks



Here is my weekly recap....

School is getting monotonous already. I took my last first Physics II test on Thursday. I got a 79, which isn't too bad. I could have failed. Wow I am boring, all I did this week was go to school, and do homework...Bleh. Well today was fun. Jay came over and we went to the my last first home football game of my high school years. It was so hot. I thought I would be ok in a long sleeved t-shirt, man oh man was I wrong. I sat there and roasted my ass off. Jay and I had fun. He taught be a bit about football. And we won, 34-0!! Yay CANTON!! But Jay and I got too bored and too hot to stay till the finish, so we left at the beginning of the 4th. We went to Landon's for ice cream. It was fun times. He found out that I am really ticklish, but there aren't too many people who don't know that. We split a hot fudge sundae. It was absolutely delectable. On the way back into Canton, we pointed out that Eric and Cody were at the Chatterbox, working. We waved, then Jay said he would be back down as soon as he dropped me off. Because now there is this iffy thing with cody and me, and I don't want to talk about it. Well, Jay dropped me off, and I realized he took my wallet, then he wouldn't give it back. He was just playing around. If you know me, you know what I did next. I gave him the puppy eyes face, and he gave the wallet back to me. I wasn't really worried if he didn't. Although it had my ss card, license, and $5 in it, it also had a victoria's secret card, to AE cards, and Aeropostale card....etc etc... I came inside, told mom about the game, then changed, and now I am here. If I can get ahold of Jay again befor like 6:30, we might go see the movie, Without a Paddle, which is the movie showing in Canton this weekend. Well, anyway, that was my day. Hope ya'll have a good one!

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mood: exhilarated
listening to: Kylie Minogue - Red Blooded Woman


I just got back from a very productive day of hitting up Labor Day sales!! My mom, little brother, and I went to Elmira to get me pants. :) First, we went to Wendy's and mom and I indulged ourselves in Mandarin Chicken Salads and lemonades and Charlie had a medium coke, because he wasn't hungry. Then, we went to Old Navy, because they had a MASSIVE sale, which I love. We shopped around for about an hour, I got one pair of pants for $20. They are so comfy. Charlie got this REALLY cute pair of high top sneaks, and a shirt. (Oh, if I didn't tell ya, the week of August 31 - September 6 was TAX FREE in New York, and they have the better stores so, with the Labor Day sales, and no tax, it was just perfect. Plus the weather was phenominal.) After we made our purchases, we headed down the strip to TJMaxx, one of my guilty pleasures. We did our browsing, and I was ultimately depressed at the size of their jean selection. Sorry, I really don't like Express jeans, thank you very much. Mom and I tried on pointy toed stiletos, which were so adorable that if I had an extra $25, I would have TOTALLY bought them. They were black leather mules, with cutastic silver buckles on them. I about died. I picked up a pair of Paper, Demin, and Cloth jeans, which (as I gloat) were originally over $80, and I got them for $10. That's right, folks, TEN DOLLARS. Does anybody not realize why I love this store??? Besides that awesome deal, I scored an awesome coral colored western type shirt, also for ten dollars, originally $40. I tried on a pair of the Editor's by Express, which Dave told me were the hottest pair of pants on the face of the earth, or something. And I checked em out online, and I don't care how great they are, I will not pay $70 for a pair of pants that won't fit me in 2 months, due to the fact that I am losing weight. I loved them, but I didn't get them, even though they were remarkably, reasonably priced to own at $14.99. So at the Maxx, I bought a pair of pants, $10, a shirt, $10, and a jump rope, $3.99. After that excursion was over, we headed on over to the Arnot mall, where I rushed myself to American Eagle, where I tried on what seemed like 48 different pairs of pants, just to buy one pair. The Favorite. Definitely my favorite, lemme tell ya what! By this time Charlie was getting really quite ansy so mom and he rode up and down the escilator like 6 times each. After my $29.50 purchase at AE, I ventured towards JCPenny, because B said they were having an uber big sale. I just had to check it out. I perused the selection of jeans, and I found my second favorite pair of pants on the planet. Levi's 519 superlows. Damn those are awesome pants. I think I might have a clinical problem, because I am getting WAY too excited about pants, but anywhoo, back to the story. The Levi's were originally $40, but I got them for $26.99. Mom, Charlie, and I stopped to laugh at a girl, who was obviously not a size 3, putting up a size 3 to her lower half seeing if they would fit, and a girl who looked like a long blonde haired, 5 foot 4 inch tall, oompa loompa. Yes people, there is a such thing as overtanning yourself in a tanning bed, and no you look like shit. It was amusing. After I was finished with my purchase, we loaded up in the car, and came home. I tried on all of my purchases again, just to make sure they are what I wanted. Now I am here, sharing my day with all of you. Don't you feel lucky? You should. I am going to have grilled salmon, broccoli, and wild rice for dinner tonight. Yummy. Today, I spent $100.48 of my hard earned cash, and boy do I feel awesome. I have hot new pants, and a jump rope, so I can get my ass back into shape for next year's awesome events. Speaking of which, I didn't mention that my chorus is almost definitely taking a cruise to the Bahama's in April!! How sweet is that!?!?! Then in May or early June, the senior class is taking a trip to Virginia Beach or something like that. After that, either in June or July, Stained Glass will be taking it's summer tour on the road, on The Beaches tour. Where we travel along the East Coast and hit a bunch of beaches. WOO. So yeah, that is alot to get in shape for, and I am just so happy. The next purchase I will probably gorge myself in, is a stability ball, so I can get back my rock hard abs, YAY! Anyway dinner is ready, and I am starving.


I will leave you with lyrics to this weeks musical obsession of mine....

You'll never get to Heaven if you're scared of getting high...
Boy, boy,
Let me keep freaking around.
I wanna get down, I'm a red blooded woman,
what's the point in hanging round?
Don't wanna keep turning her down,
when this girl wants to rock with you!"

Compliments of Kylie Minogue - Red Blooded Woman



Correction....I was talking to my Dad today, and he said that Paper, Denim, and Cloth jeans msrp for about $150. So, if that is the case, I own a pair of $150 pants for $10. That makes me VERY happy. God, my materialism makes me nauseous...

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mood: happy to be in school....odd....
listening to: Hilary Duff - Fly


So school started Monday. I actually woke up and made it there on time, I know it's a shock to all, but hey eat it. I have actually been up by 5:30 - 6 am every morning so far this week. I have also eaten breakfast everyday, which is a change for me. I have completed all the homework that has been assigned to me, and some that hasn't. I like most of my classes. I love Physics 2. It's going to be my toughest class this semester, by far. Then comes Composition 1, which isn't too bad, but definitely handleable (is that even a word??). Statistics comes in third place, because we don't do much. I kinda sit in class and zone out, then do all the homework for the week in one night, and I do the extra credit because it is easy. After that, P.E. - because the friends that I have had gym with for the past 5 years, aren't in it, and I am stuck with the people I don't normally talk to. I mean, they aren't bad, they just aren't my normal friends. Chorus has it's own category. I love Mrs. Boatman, she is just the most delightful, level headed person, and I am one of those people that will just go and hang out with her, because she is a fun person to hang out with. My friends and I are the people that can chew gum in chorus and not get yelled at, but will be asked to throw it out, because she doesn't want to play favorites, which is cool. And for some strange reason, whenever something needs done (like getting out of school to help with county and district chorus festivals and the like), we are the ones selected. Funny how that works.

I stopped in the guidance office today, to check on my needed Health credit. It was unusually uncrowded. I was shocked. There were only three people in there instead of the usual 15+. I had to wait a while to speak to the guidance counselor, but that was no biggie, because it gave me the opportunity to be nice and friendly to two new guys fromt the Evergreen House. They were named Steve and John. I walked Steve to his gym class, and he seemed like a most delightful person. I also helped John out with his schedule and told him that if he stops anyone in the halls and akses them where to go, they will most likely tell you. I broke the news to him that his first teacher, Mr. Kirby, wasn't mean if you did the homework, showed up on time, and payed attention, otherwise he tends to yell. I think I kinda freaked him out, but it is the honest truth. So yeah. That was the coolest part of the day.

I am going to apply at Doc's Irish Inn as a hostess/dishwasher, because I am in some serious need of money, and I don't seem why they wouldn't hire me. I am 17, and I know not to touch the alcohol. I didn't say I liked that fact, but I know not to handle it because it could get their asses sued. But anywho, definitely hoping to get a part time job by Thanksgiving. That would be swell ( man, am I a winner or what?). I need a car, my own car insurance, and pants.


Well, I guess that is the update for today. I will try to be more viewer friendly, and update more. :)

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