i dunno guiz...yi ish it soO hard 2 find ppl dat care?!?!...r even ppl wo appreciate u?!?!...i dunno..i jus dunt understand...it seemz lykk dha more u doOO...dha less ppl takke notice...well u knoe wat?! datz jus not gunna werk 4 meeh...i'm gettin reallee frustrated...

seriouslee...itz timmez lykk deze dat u knoe wo actuallee carez 4 u...lykk i waz crying 2dai..did n-e-1 oda dha reuben takke n-e notice?! NO! ((welps i guess u kan kount lisa 2..cuz she did notice sumthing waz rong...thanxz lisa))...but yeah...noe one even said n-e-thing..ooOk soO I shouldnt sai noe one...cuz reuben and lisa did...but dha ppl wo r possed 2 bee mah klose frewnz didnt even notice...goze 2 prove wo u kan reallee kount on wen u need it...

wateva guiz..i'm sooO tired ob dis...tired ob feelin lykk i dunt matta...tired ob cryin bi mahself cuz i feel lykk noe one carez...tired ob feelin lykk if i left CAMS dha next dai dat it woodnt makke n-e difference...i'm jus soo tired ob habbin 2 surround mahself wid ppl wo woodnt even notice if i stood in front ob dem crying and screamed @ dha top ob mah lungz : "I'M UPSET!!! BEE A FREWN AND TALK 2 MEEH!! I NEED HELP!!!"

...actuallee...datz not completelee tru...i guess dey wood notice...and ask meeh watz rong and afta i tell dem nuthingz rong..datz good enuff 4 dem and walk awai...now tell meeh..wat kind ob frewn ish dat?!!? NO frewn..datz wat...

i dunno wat 2 doo nowz...i guess i'm kinda hopin dat ppl wood read dis and understand wat dey're doin 2 meeh...i knoe...datz upsetting..datz takkin dha cowardz wai out..but i'm runnin out ob thingz 2 doOo...i've given dem sooO manee opportunities 2 show meeh dat dey care...but soo far..noe resultz...soOo i'm runnin out ob stuff 2 dOoOz...

watevaz..i guess i'll figure it out...i seriouslee wanna leave CAMS tho...and it pissez meeh off soo much dat dha reason iznt dha skewlwerk and itz dha ppl...ahhz!! *frustrated*..wateva...guess i'll hab 2 putt up wid it 4 anoda year and 2 monthz...i've werked 2 hard and kum 2 far 2 dropp it all now...regardless ob mah so-kalled "frewnz"...

itz 1:30 AM and i guess i should start portfolio..gosh..datz sooO badd...oOOH wellz...guess i'm not sleeping 2nitez...Oooh wellz...wateva...ppl knoe i'mm die in mah earlee 20's n-e-waiz..(i'm j/k guiz..though it doze seem VEREE lykklee...)..i jus wanna thank reuben 4 bein dere 4 meeh 2dai wen i reallee needed a frewn...i guess i knoe dat least one person karez (uhh...makke dat 2 (bryan)...luv u sweetie...)...thanxz soOOo much...ur a tru frewn...

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itz not dat i dunt hab a sense ob humor r n-e-thing..but i dink april foolz suxz...itz lykk mah least fave. holidai...seriouslee...

not necessarily dha concept but ppl takke it 2 far...itz stoOpid...april foolz ish jus an excuse 2 bee mean...itz lykk dha most retarded "holidai"...

i jus dink ppl r 2 mean wen it kumz 2 april foolz..lykk seriouslee...ppl takke it 2 far...i knoe dis one person wo told dis gurl dat reallee lykked himm dat he lykked her bacc and wen she gott her hopez up...he waz lykk APRIL'S FOOL..gosh..datz such bull shit......she waz soOO freakin hurt...and it hurtz oda ppl 2 cee such a good frewn hurt...damn dis holidai ish such bull shit...april's fool r no april's fool...dere ish noe excuse 4 messin wid oda pplz feelinz..and even tho ppl dunt dink dey r being mean r messin wid pplz feelinz...in sum wai..dey alwaiz r...

ppl may not understand until dey experience it first hand...r cee sum1 cryin cuz ob a soO kalled "prank"...but april's fool ish such a joke...u'll neva cee meeh play n-e april's fool joke...and dis ish yi i dunt lykk 2 gett pranked either...itz jus stoOpid...

*sorri 4 mah sum-wat inappropriate language...

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hey guiz...wow...long timme noe blog...guess i've been a lil buzee r sumthingz...yeahz...long kuple ob monthz now...

welps...i dunt even knoe yi i'm here...i guess i should bee asleep r sumthingz but dat dozent lokke lykk itz happening n-e-timme soon...i dunno watz rong...thingz r jus makkin meeh REALLEE upset...

i dunno guiz...i jus dunt feel luved...it suxz if u've eva felt dis wai...but itz sooO tru...itz not dat i'm hatin lyfe r n-e-thing...i jus am not lykkin dha ppl in mah lyfe rite now...i guess datz mostlee mah fault cuz i pushed soO manee ppl awai...but i kant help it...it jus kumz naturallee now...

itz timmez lykk dis dat i REALLEE REALLEE REALLEE x a bajillion + 1 miss sum ppl...@ least den i felt az if sum1 kared...i kould alwaiz kount on dem jus az much az dey coulda counted on meeh..but dat waz in dah past and will remain dere i guess...but i styll miss dem EVERY single dai...

and soOO much more recentlee...if u habnt noticed...i've been REALLEE upset 4 dha past kuple ob weekz..more lykk dha past kuple ob monthz but especiallee during dha last kuple ob weekz...itz cuz ob sooO manee reasonz...i dunt feel understood, i dunt feel luved..i dunt feel cared about...and i feel soOO alone...it suxz...

i dunt feel lykk derez n-e-one left in mah lyfe dat i kan talk 2...wich ish reallee dha onlee one thing i ask for...

i dunno..i've been takkin a LOT ob walkz l8ly...walkz r badd 4 doze wo dunno...walkz sux cuz all i eva dOo in doze walkz ish cri 4 lykk 20+ solid minutez depending on how long dha walk ish...soO yesh..walkz suxz!

i dunno...i guess i kan x-plain more...but i'd rather not 4 dha dai..soOo i guess i'll fill u in l8er...((dis ish probz not gunna end up happening...but i'll tri...))

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haha...its jennifer...and we're supposedly doing science fair right now :)...but...haha...i'm typing in julie's nutang!...yup...we're being productive :D...yes...but the smilies won't pop up :(...so...it'll be a smiley-less entry...:(

so yes...we're...working on sci fair...and "exploring the world of technology" according to julie...haha...

well...we'd better get back to doing sci fair...and what not...soOo...here's julie :)

oooK guiz..i'll speakin in bold...haha..iznt jenn funni?!? she reallee dink we're goin 2 werk on sci. fair..riite jenn..*wink wink*...sooO yeah guiz...hey!! yeah..i'm here @ jennz house...but heh..watz new?! i'm alwaiz here!! lolz!! oOOoK..soOoo...johnny said tony said frank said swordfish...haha..yesh..datz dha passwerd 2 our speakeasy...itz kalled dha purple monkey..lolz!! guess wo madde dat one up?! *lokking around*..welps..we should gett bacc 2 sci. fair...*sigh* noe smileleez..how upsetting...=(..Oook..ova it...bye guyz!!

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hey guiz..retokke dat quiz thingy and here r new resultz:

oOOH yeah guiz!! one mroe thing...

mah sis ish goin out wid mah ex...wowz!! kinda weird...but i'm soOOo happi 4 demz... ..itz soOOO kute..more l8erz

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