. . . a sniveling mess.

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Sooo sleepy.........

I don't wanna go back to school on Monday. I abhor Mondays. (Wow, look @ me use a word I learned last year in English. So I guess I really did learn something in that class.)

Last Nite:

We filmed the first few minutes of the movie @ Panda. Everything didn't necessarily go over too well.

First we couldn't film inside cuz Jan never told his manager about the movie. We had to improvise, we decided to film outside. But, of course, it just had to get cold and start raining. Plus, we had to endure strange looks from that girl who works @ the Tan Factory and middle school skater kids. Eventually, the manager let us inside when he learned the movie was for school.

Jan was hiliarious, he danced like he was in love w/ the broom. After we were done filming inside, we had to wait for Marites. Jan and I stood on a street corner freezing to death waiting for her. Recovering from a wrong turn, she arrived w/ a friend.

By now, it was very windy, and the rain became more noticeable. During one of the takes, the ballons flew away! But finally, everything all came together. I think it'll turn out well, we'll just wait and see.

Today:

Not much happened except that me and the fam went to the Rainforest Cafe. There were a bunch of cops all around, I wonder why.

My sis is going back to NY tonite, I hope I can go with the 'rents to the airport, I hate staying @ home, plus I don't want to do my homework. (I'm such a bad kid. I dunno, I used to do my homework every nite, but now I don't care, which sucks cuz I already have Bs. Maybe I have senioritis already.)

Truthfully, I wanna ditch school again, I just can't go back yet, I'm not ready. I hope my 'rents won't be too upset w/ me, I feel like I'll always be a disappointment to them. I really need to be a more honorable child. (Hmmmmm, I think I've been watching a little too much Mulan.) I also need to be more patient w/ my gram and lil' sis. I will try, I will try really hard to work on all my faults, but I hope people will be willing to help me work on them also.

Now where is my B-Day Resolution List? I will make the needed changes in my life, so I can become a better person. Cross my heart and hope to die, stick a needle in my eye. There, I swore it, now I can't go back on my word.

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Thanksgiving was cool, I just hung out with the fam. They made me forget all the stress I had from school. That is why I love them, they make all my troubles go away. I have a very old pic on my binder of my mom's side of the family, and whenever I feel sad or angry, I look at it and I feel better.

Basically, we sat down and talked about my sis's movie project. It was funny when Jan and Reg read part of the script, then after, Em said, " That sucked." We started talking about making a trailer or preview for the movie cuz my sis said the 1st 5 minutes are for a grade. So, if we don't make the whole movie, at least we'll get a few minutes in.

We went upstairs to my room to watch movie trailers, to get inspired. And I also put on the movie soundtrack, to find a good song to use in the preview. The soundtrack reached a song that everyone knew, and suddenly we all started singing. Reg told me to grab my guitar, and soon enough, he was strumming along. The song was " Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional.

After that moment, we all agreed that the movie needed a sing-a-long at the end, kinda like Almost Famous. 'Cept we're all gonna be on a Cat Bus singing. That impromptu singing made everyone wanna do karaoke.

So we all went down stairs and sang various songs together. We acted silly and danced the nite away.

But, the nite wasn't totally carefree. Jan wanted to go over to his gf's house (we were gunna try to convince her to be in the movie) but when he called her she said that she was in a crappy mood. He told me that his gf was hanging out w/ sum random dude she met @ Wal-Mart.

Now, I'm not gunna jump to conclusions, by that does sound strange. I mean, she's spending Turkey Day w/ a dude she just met, a guy she barely knows-not w/ her bf. Jan was so upset. My sis and other cuz called it "Baby Mama Drama"-whatever that means.

The party was pretty much dead @ that point. So soon enough everybody left.

Today was pretty cool too. Went shopping w/ my sis and mom, it was kinda scary, there were so many people. I bought jeans @ Pac Sun, I used the gift card Kat gave me on my B-day to lower the price. I'm glad my mom only had to pay half the price instead of full.

We bought the Sims 2, and it's still adicting as ever. Well, I gotta wrap this up, I don't wanna miss a new ep of Degrassi! It's been awhile, I need to forget my baby mama drama and worry about others' fake baby mama drama.

*~UPDATE~*: Apparently, things are all better w/ his gf now. :)

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This is weird..............

I feel like I should be in school right now............

I skipped work last nite to work on my project at the last minute. My mom was mad but surprisingly, my dad was cool about it.

I overslept cuz last nite my sis came home from college. We arrived at the airport early and everyone but me got a chance to fall asleep. I just couldn't, I had so many things on my mind.

Finally, my sis came down to baggage claim and it felt like we were there forever. I was saying,"Is this it?" the whole time. On the ride home, my sis talked about NY life.

My cuz, my sis and I all hung out for a bit at our house. When we drove our cousin home, we listened to music on her laptop. We got back home, and I really wanted to do my homework, but I felt so stressed. I felt like homework wasn't that important.

I think I'll skip 1st-4th period today cuz I have tests in those classes. I wanna go to sixth cuz of that stupid history project. I guess I should go now, I gotta at least do my Spanish homework, if I decide to go to school.

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I wish I could be like Amélie.

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School + Work + Life In General = Mucho Mucho Stress , or MMS

That about sums up my life at this point.

Too many tests and projects are due on Wednesday, I don't wanna go to school next week. I don't even wanna go to work. I know my parents will get mad, if I tell them. They'll still make me go to school, but if I tell them I wanna miss work, I'm afraid that they'll make me quit. I don't wanna quit cuz I want money, I need money. I also don't want them to think I can't balance school and work.

The problem with me is that I always wait until the last minute to do things. I really need to stop. I mean the poetry project last year was a huge wake up call. I need to be on top of things, and not wait till the situation worsens.

Why does it seem like everyone is so down lately. I can understand cuz school is so freakin' stressful right now. But I can't help thinking there are other things on their minds. I wanna know what's up cuz I care about my friends and family, and worrying about them makes me sad. I want to be there for the people I care about.

In other less depressing news, I went with Jill to this church thingy. It was fun. Met some nice new people and watched them play a silly little game called Gestures.

Birthday Resolution List:
Stop being so lazy, no more procastinating
When I say I wanna to do something, I will do it
Try to be less introverted
Not care what other people think about me, so I can truly be myself
Give people the benefit of the doubt
Be nice to people, even when I'm mad at them
Respect my 'rents and gram, cuz they do so much for me
BE NICE TO MY LITTLE SISTER!(even when she annoys me like crazy!)
I wanna find a bf. . .as pathetic as it is, I want a guy who will be there for me, who's also not somehow related to me(preferably an older guy, HS guys are immature!)
Meet lots of new people

Whew...... I know there are more things I need to improve on, but this is good for now.

Oh, and check out my cat! I always wanted one when I was little. Click on it to hear it talk! Isn't cute!?! Her name is Peppermint.

I know, I know, I'm such a DORK!

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