yah!! i finally passed my driving test! 16/20!!

wahahaha....

it was scary! i thought i would fail. i thought the stressful part was the part where i have to drive through the obstacles myself, but i was wrong. it was the part where the examiner sits beside me and start giving those groaning sounds when he was not happy with me.

haha

but i was so glad everything is over right now. all i have to do now was to wait for my P license and then start practicing around the place. it's gonna be another scary journey i think, because i won't be using the car i usually use anymore, but my mum's car.

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haha...these are the photos of my cute little puppies born on 3rd of June.

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i was feeling rather suffocated and sad yesterday, and i don't know who to talk to. and then i talked to a friend about it and i ended the day feeling touched.

this is part of the conversation:

him: you very pretty, cute and smart

me: i don't know which brand but a dictionary says cute is ugly but adorable. how am i pretty and ugly at the same time?

him: no no no. cute means adorable only. the dictionary bluff you

me: i thought dic always have the most accurate answer to what things means??

him: no no no. some can't trust de. only (his name) dictionary is the most reliable

me: ya...n only (his name) dictionary will change the meanings of some words just for me right?

him: no lor. its the truth

me: ya.... ( )brand. i will check that brand out soon

him: yah.very rare, only got one book. so you can't find it at stores.

me: ya...must find the creator to find out the meanings of words. i wonder what does hatred means in that dic.

him: hate arh...wait arh...hate don't exist leh. that word is undefined.

me: wow...its also a brand that provides meaning for only positive words.ha

him: no no no. negative words is against ( ) dictionary's nature so the dictionary dun recognize it as a word.

me: haha. what a sweet beautiful world (his name) is living in

him: yah...that's the world he is hoping for

me: and that's the world that is losing its existence inside me

him: so its up to me to find that world back for u. that's why i am here right?


of course, everything is chatted in a more broken English.
but it's so touching to know that there's someone who will still stay by me and walk with me. and somehow, he was able to portray himself like an angel in the last sentence.

maybe good friends are just angels.

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i felt suffocation as i watch it drip drop by drop onto the floor.
i wanted to laugh, but fatigue filled me instead.
time's leaving me, but pain's not.
the knife of reality just keep cutting deeper into me
who was the one that says
'time heals all wounds?'

if this is one of the challenges present in my life
oh please, let it end soon.
it has been dragging on and on
it's a damage that'll lose its cure
time is slipping off my fingers
as though things are getting out of my control

but then
i asked myself again
was that really within my control
or was it
just a matter
i thought i could control?

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if there is any police looking for a police dog, i will be the first one to nominate my first puppy. hahahaha

i haven't really give him a very name, just a temporary name named 'teddy'. his fur is the a little more brownish compared to others, and he is just too smart to just stay here.

i usually clap twice and shout bb to get the attention of the puppies and they will run towards me. for quite some times already, i always shout their names when i am in front of the cage after feeding them, and soon, they will know that that means going home. without much time, they learned to go into the cages by themselves, but it was always 4 in 1 missing. when i looked around, i realised it was teddy lying flat on the floor some distance away from me watching me. it was quite easy to coax him in the first few times, but soon, things get hard.

each time i walk that path towards their home, the rest will follow me except teddy, he was playing somewhere else. then i will have to look for him, and then coax him a small distance by distance to make him follow me. but as soon as he steps onto the path that i always take to bring them back to cage, he will either stay a distance away from me or straight away run back and continue with what he was playing earlier.

i tried and tried and tried and it was always on the same spot that he start turning back and run to somewhere else to find his fun.i tried till i was fed up and i just carry him back to the cage. and when i was about to carry him, he was lying flat again and really really hope that there is no way i could carry him, so that he can continue playing.

see!!how cunning and smart he is. he is always so alert. what a pity if he did not become a police dog.

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i seriously dislike my lecturer very much now. i am not going to accept his style of teaching!!!

during class today, my friends as usual will chat in between his lessons and all, i also do chat with my friends during class. but today, he said something :'those who failed are useless, you know, empty vessels make the most noise, because they are empty so they make a lot of noise. and those who failed are empty vessels.' (or something similar to this).

when he said this, i felt like i want to stand up and tell him that nothing good will come out his mouth. i mean,where on Earth are you going to find a lecturer that looks down on his or her students?? even when a student is poor in results, he should at least try to help that student rather than to look down on that student and tell them straight in the face that they are stupid.

what does he even think he is?? man!! he should have gone through this 'stupid' stage of his life. we all are humans! all will go through a stage named 'learning'. but what give him the right to step onto those students with weaker results just because he has overcome his 'learning stage'?

DOESN'T HE KNOW THAT STUDENTS REFLECT HIM?? IF MOST OF HIS STUDENTS HAVE POOR RESULTS, DOESN'T IT MEANS THAT HIS WAY OF TEACHING IS OUTDATED? OR DID HE JUST THINK THAT NO MATTER HOW BAD OUR SCORES ARE, HE IS JUST ONE 'GREAT' TEACHER? *#@%^&*$@^**@

i dislike him a lot a lot. i was staring hard at him when he made that sentence! WHY CAN'T HE HELP HIS OWN STUDENTS RATHER THAN TO BE SARCASTIC TO THEM!!!URGH!!!

he is stupidly arrogant and man!! the college keep saying he is a good lecturer. but i will tell you this is what i observed: he was sarcastic and fierce and lose his temper easily on us. but when someone else came along, he will play nice. there was one incident that he was losing temper on us again, but somehow, he saw the vice principal coming, and he suddenly was smiling and was pretending to be patience, asking us time and again in different ways if we understand the question. and another time when a female lecturer when into the class, wanting to announce something, and his sarcasms a moment ago became humor. as though he wanted to show that teacher that he was humorous, rather than the bad lecturer in the rumors.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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