Saturday. 5.15.04 5:01 pm Its gonna bother me if i dont know. What is a Poser Artist? I dunno... i guess i'd need to know from Olivera... since she's the person who called me one o.o...
Yea... i dont know. I shouldnt get started with that. Its been on my mind the past 24 hours, and i'm trying to get it out of my head. 
So anyways! Cant wait for this thursday... cant wait... cant wait... lol. Two reasons. At 11:30, i'm going swimming, then sadly i have to go to the evil student led conferrence, but after that i get to go to YG! woohoo! lol... and then we have a looong weekend...
I FINALLY drew Arucard... 3 times... lol. They took sooooo long to ink.... 6-7 hours drawing and inking >.<
Well... ttyl for now.
Love you. Comment! (2) | Recommend! Monday. 5.10.04 11:35 pm
The random thoughts
Inside my head
Free me from
This life of dread.
Well... i wont drive you insane with the rest of that poem... hahaha, that was so funny. I think i proved my insanity to the world... hehe... "HEY! THE SKY IS BLUE!"
Right now, i'm just sitting around... waiting. Karen is at Dance, Kevin is at church, Lora is... offline... Leif is... ONLINE! WOOHOO! SOMEONE TO TALK TO! But not the someone im thinking about...
All i can really do right now is think about *****. So what if i've been thinking about him for... uhh... as long as i can remember? lol. That is sad. But good. Im happy. Good thoughts... lol. *****, My anti-depressant  *nod nod*
mood: Extremely happy
listening to: Despite the fact im listening to Evanescence...
watching: The lovely... nothing. But i'm thinking of ***** as i've already made clear... lol
Weellllll.. Better carry on with my thoughts 
TTYL,
Love you, Comment! (1) | Recommend! Monday. 5.3.04 5:31 pm Really. I think thats all i need to say. I'm an idiot.
I just dont know what to think anymore. I still feel one sided, whether that makes sense or not. Right now, i dont understand a lot of things, nor are people willing to tell me. Or sometimes im just too shy to even ask...
***** I see your point.. but you just totally lost me...
Im not even worth to be found... or atleast thats how i feel...
I'm sorry... Comment! (0) | Recommend! In my field of paper flowers... Sunday. 5.2.04 12:56 am WOW IM SO HAPPY TODAY!!! And yesterday as well. I talked to God last night... havent ever really done that. Ive prayed... but this was different. Something big is going to happen... i dont know what, or when... or with who, but that is what i was told. Maybe it was those lovely voices inside my head....
ANYWAYS! I am bored to death right about now... though im extremely happy! Wish i could be with someone right now o.o... i think i was supposed to call em. Then again, its getting a little late... so i'll do it tomorrow. Sorry bout that x.x
OMG!!!! JASON!!! HE... HE... ouchies my nose still hurts...
Well. TTYL for now.
Love you... Comment! (1) | Recommend! I wish that lightening struck me today... Tuesday. 4.27.04 11:49 pm It struck a bush instead <.<...
I feel really REALLY bad now. Lets not go into detail with that, but im really sorry about a lot of things. I'm sorry for being depressed, I'm sorry for talking about my problems, and making everyone else pissed, I'm sorry ***** for what a bitch i was... all the time. I'm so incredibly stressed right now... its not even funny.
I've bottled everything for the past week. Now everything is really catching up on me, and dragging me down. Usually the rain washes away all of my problems (tis complicated... i think only one person really knows what im talking about *cough cough* ----- *cough*). Today, i imagined the rain on purpose... while someone sitting right next to me seemed really depressed. Then when he went over to watch his brother play... something, they were there. Or maybe they werent. It felt like 3 of them were right next to me. Then a few minutes later, the person who seemed really depressed filled one of those... things spots. It was really strange. ANYWAYS.
Bottling... bottling... sad... depressed... ouch.  Comment! (1) | Recommend! Saturday. 4.24.04 9:26 pm i've said this before... i still mean it.
No matter how far,
How far you may fall,
Someone will be there
To answer your call.
There he will wait,
With his arms open wide.
Dont give up now,
For you have not died.
You are the bird
With the featherless wings,
But he will send
The angel that sings.
Dont give up now,
We all still care.
You will get through this.
You are in my prayer...
i'm sorry for what i have said... i really do still care. you know who you are... Comment! (0) | Recommend! | 
