Why does everyone turn to drugs and alcohol. I don't believe that BS that it's an escape. Everyone needs to escape from something at one point or another, but don't create a horrible habbit while you're at it. Fight through everything just like the rest of us that struggle. I am so tired of watching these weak willed people let drugs and alcohol take their problems away. What about the people that are acutally suffering? All these people that do smoke pot and get addicted, have no strength what so ever. So when times become difficult, they give up and let their sorrows drown in those riduculous illegal substances. Yea, maybe it takes away the pain, but not completely. The pain and/or difficulties will always be burried underneath until you confront them, without the assistance of drugs and alcohol. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself, and work for something in your life for once. Everybody has a bad day, sometimes even a bad year, but that doesn't mean tilt your head back and down as many shots as you can, pick your ass up, and fight your last battle even harder than the first. This quote is applicable to everybody's life "you only live once" so dont' fuck it up by giving up.

This wasn't directed towards anybody on here, I'm just sick of watching people at school and other various friends turn to drugs and alcohol, we're 18, if life is too difficult for you now, how do you expect to keep going in the long run?

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Well for starters...

I'm so sick of school. I'm falling so far behind, I'm almost to the point wherreee i just wanna forget it. It's always one thing right after another, and I just can't catch a break. Kids my age always hold down steady jobs, well kinda, and manage school at the same time, why is it so damn difficult for me? Probably becuase I sit here and rant about this stupid crap when I should be studying for my civics and math test, buuut I can't even focus.

I hate that, I wake up at 5am every morning, go to school until 2:05, eat lunch at home and take my siter home after school, then I get in the car and drive to work at 3:30, then push little kids around all day, or granting david (my boss) his every wish. I purposely try to get my stuff done by seven so I can go home at a somewhat-decent hour and finish my stupid homework, but then David, tracks me down as I'm trying ot leave and asks me to take his night class, on a daily freaking basis. He always puts me in those positions where I can't really say no. He asks me about two seconds before the class starts so I have no other damn choice. Then, I deal with his nightclass, which sometimes I love because I love the kids in that class, but I can't manage my own life, let alone, his damn gym. I never get out of there before 830, and I get home at like 9, then eat "dinner" then I do my homework til the crack of dawn, then I wake up four hours later to start the same, stupid, vicious cycle. It would be different if I didnt have to start work until lilke 5 or 6 and have some downtime BEFORE work to finish homework, but I can't even do that.

I need to take a break from life. Only three weeks until we move, and only three weeks until spring break. Maybe that'll be what I need. Either way, I know I need to accomplish everything on mY HUGE list of priorities. I am so looking forward to quitting this job and getting out of high shcool.

On a lighter note, I get to sleep in. Thank you jesus.

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Ahhh the world is so amazing!!

So after about seven months of trying to sell our house in the midst of the slowest market, we have finallllly sold the house. We got two offers in one day, when we couldn't even get one offer in seven months haha, oh well i'm not complaining! I am so excited!

On an even better note, I asked my amazing boyfriend to tolo, and he said "he'd love to go :) " Then again, if he said no i'd probably slap him :)

My plan was quite ridiculous. The theme revolved around the matrix of course. It was in short, a scavenger hunt, that eventually led him to my house, and I was dressed up at trinity. Made an ass out of myself, but you do crazy things for people :)

Anyways, hope everyone's doing well annnnd life is soooo good :)

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Home sweet home. I spent three days in Bellevue, which is about thirty minutes away from my house haha. We did however, stay in the nicest hotel i've ever been in. It was called the Westin, and it was goooooorgeous!

The tournament went alright. I didn't make nationals, which I wasnt expecting to considering my partner is a little on the slow side. Not all his fault though, we're a team, annnd we have to help eachother i guess. We had to take a test on Business Law and Ethics, and then conduct two roleplays for a couple judges, they determine whether or not you're suitable to compete nationally, clearly, we weren't. I'm just happy we competed in the state conference and I met a lot of new people. It was nice getting away for a while, but I'm glad it's over wiht and now i'm home. Although, now it's back to reality, and homework, and work :(

I went to lunch with an old friend of mine from elementary school. I haven't seen him for sooooo long, and he just got back from basic training, so he found my number and asked me if I wanted to do something. He leaves again on Tuesday, so when I got back from my trip today, I met him at Red Robin. It was nice seeing him again, kinda sad though. He's changed alot...then again...alot has changed since elementary school. Well I guess he's able to stay in touch now, so he said he'll do that.

Well I suppose I have a lot to get done between now and tomorrow, so I better get to it :) I missed nutang...but i'lllll be back sooon.

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I actually went to school today!! It felt so amazing to be around people again!

I judged today for three junior highs at a varsity gymnastics meet. Normally i would be very uneasy about judging by myself, buuut today wasn't so bad. I judged beam, the event I despised throughout my season. I guess you don't always have to be amazing with the event in order to teach/judge it. An upside to judging younger girls, is they always tend to be extra giving with flattery haha. The only time I gave out a perfect score, this girl came up to me and told me I was the prettiest person she's ever seen, and then today some girl told me I had sexy shoes lol. She was only in 6th grade too! Kids these days...always trying to kiss some ass to make it far haha.

Tomorrow I'm off to Bellevue until Saturday. I am going to compete in the state DECA tournament. Granted it's bound to turn out horribly because I have a partner that doesn't know how to do anything but agree with everything I say, but i'm still looking forward to getting away for a few days! I'll miss my boo though :(

Today was a good day :)

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Sleep. There jsut isn't enough time in the day to sleep. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE to prolong my amount of beauty sleep every chance I get, but I dont' seem to get those opportunities very often.

I am watching a report on the news and how average American's don't get the recommeneded amount of sleep. I think on average, I doze off for about 5 hours a night. The sleep deprivation finally catches up and kicks my ass by friday, but then I know the next day I can sleep in a little bit, but then...friday night I end up staying up til 3 am because it's a weekend.

I guess if i balanced my priorities a little more I would be able to get more sleep, but I jsut feel like sleeping more means more wasted time. AHH Who need's sleep anyways? Well, apparently I do hehe.

Annnyways I have more to write, but I have the sudden urge to halt my fat ass ways and stop being a couch potato and play me some piano :)

GO SLEEP EVERYONE! Even though it's...6:30 haha

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