Everyone! My dad's results came in early. And they're good! Eeep!

So, I'm 15 now. I don't feel any different. Honestly, I think getting a haircut is more of a big deal than turning 15. I actually change when I get a haircut. My birthday? Not really. I actually don't like my birthday, because it's just another usual day only I'm forced to make smalltalk with people I haven't talked to since my last birthday and won't talk to again until my next birthday.

I especially hate it when people ask me, "How do you feel now that you're 15?" Honestly, I feel the same I did when I was 14. Nothing changes in that one minute between 11:59 and 12:00. I promise.

Daphne is sleeping over. She passed out a while ago. I don't know how long I laid there trying to fall asleep, but I do know it never happened. I don't know why, considering it's 5:30am. There's not really a lot on my mind, nothing to be worried about, nothing at all.

Maybe that's why I'm worrying. It's the calm before the storm. When things aren't extremely shitty, that means that they can only get worse. I hate it when things get worse.

I think I'm going to try to see Zander today. He has convinced me to take a chance and give him a chance. Although there are many things about him that I dislike, so I'm not so confident anything will actually work out.

Who knows what can happen.

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My dad gets his results on Thursday. There's nothing I can do to make this wait any easier or shorter so I'm not even going to dignify it by talking about it any longer.

Instead I'll tell you guys about Zander. I'm not even kidding. He's obsessed with me. He calls me every five seconds, he always wants to hang, he can't go an hour without trying to make some sort of contact. Everywhere I go, he wants to come.

It doesn't matter how malicious I am towards him, he doesn't give up.

I like talking to him, he's pretty awesome, but he's just so clingly. Like, incredibly. If there's anything anyone knows about me, it's that I can't stand clingy people. I really can't. They drive me crazy. He drives me crazy.

I'm hoping once we spend enough time together he'll chill with the clinginess. Otherwise he honestly doesn't stand a chance. He would drive me mad within a week. Possibly less.

See, this further proves how perfect Kyle was. He's just a detached person. He'll want to be with me, but he won't die if it doesn't happen. Plus he doesn't like talking on the phone, so I wouldn't have to surgically attach my phone to my ear. Which is always good.

By the way, Nicole Kidman is in a lot of movies.

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My dad's immune system isn't working. His red and white blood cells are too low.

Tomorrow he's going for blood work. If the results aren't good, he'll be hospitalized.

We can't afford hospital bills, especially if he's going to be out of work.

I don't know what will happen to me and my sister.

Happy birthday to me.

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Well, I didn't get my braces off. But I am getting them off before school starts, so whatever. My plans can still be a success.

The doctor's, however, wasn't as great. I got my finger pricked, new prescriptions, all that usual physical jazz, except a little something extra.

Apparently, I never got my tetanus shot. How I got into the 7th grade, I don't know.

So It was basically something like, "Okay, that was your physical. Oh, we need to stab you in the arm with a massive needle, by the way!"

Well that was fun. Now my arm hurts. Ech.

On a different note, I got home and Heather IMed me. Heather is Michael's sister. Her birthday was yesterday, so I asked how that went. She told me that Michael took her out with his friends and that it was either go and be ignored the whole time or sit home alone on her birthday. So she went. She also said Michael told her to shut up or something of that relative nature that really offended her.

Okay, I can get him treating me like supreme shit -- but his own sister? On her birthday, nonetheless! He's hit a new lame. He couldn't spend one day on his sister, when she loves him so incredibly much and he is completely unworthy of one ounce of it.

She's going to be in ninth grade this coming year, but she's got the innocence of a fourth grader. She hasn't done -- or even know about, for that matter -- absolutely anything sexual. She's completely oblivious to anything bad that goes on around her. She can't lie, or even talk badly about anyone. She's very simple. Admittedly she can get very annoying, but she has such a big heart and, despite everything Michael has done to her, she refuses to think or speak badly of him.

I don't understand how she and Michael come from the same family. I really don't.

Anyways, because Michael only thinks about himself and their mom works all day, she sits home pretty much all day everyday. I feel so bad for her, so I talk to her often despite her being my ex's sister. Michael won't take care of her because he doesn't care about anyone but himself, their mom is so swamped and already deals with a lot of shit, and I don't care how badly I dislike her brother -- I'd never leave her to deal with that shit by herself.

As sad as it is, she doesn't really have that many friends at all. Most people find her innocence annoying, plus she talks a lot. So I try to be there for her, mainly because I just can't leave people to be lonely... I can't. Feeling utterly alone is the worst.

Michael doesn't deserve his mom and sister. At all. All he does is abuse them. His mom is always so stressed and tired, so how he repays her? Does shit behind her back and comes home hours after she asks him to then lies about it.

But of course, he doesn't care. I don't think I can exaggerate enough that he literally only cares about himself.

Hahah, I'm so glad I'm 1,000,000% over him. The way he is now, I could never date him again, ever. Unless I wanted to date someone who would do nothing but abuse me... which I don't see ever happening.

I just feel bad for the people actively involved with him.

OH! I forgot to tell you all! They weighed me at the doctor's today, and I was 93 lbs. I've never been anywhere above the 80s in my life. This is amazing. I'm excited.

I'm also 5'5". Which, apparently, is tall for my age. I think malnutrition is shrinking people as the generations go on. Sucks for them. Heheh, aren't I lovely?

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