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You All See Me Once In A While... Tuesday All alone, Ifall to pieces.. Everytime, I fallin' down All alone, I fall to pieces... All the years Ive tried More to go With a memories tied I'm waitin' Will I find you? Can I find you? While falling down I'm falling... This morning was great. I woke up at 7:55, got out of bed, got dressed, went downstairs and ate breakfast with my dad. School sucked. Very bad suckage to. First period was Ms. Turner, GT Sci. We took a test, so I didn't really talked to her (Talking to her brightens any day) and she passed ou snickers. That was, collectively, it. Second period was Mrs. Cunningham. I hate that woman so much. "Maybe you should concentrate on your school work." and I said I did it. "Maybe you should try and keep pace with the rest of the group." THE REST OF MY CLASS IS A BUNCH OF SHITHEADS! Third period. Gym. Boring. Enough said. Fourth Period. No Michael, no fun. Got really down and miserable because I wasn't understanding and Shawn and Ariel refused to help. Assholes. Then I went to Mr. Moores room to finish a test. And got laughed at by two girls I don't even know, asking why he had a 'slow girl' taking a test that took them 10 minutes. I WAS ABSENT, YOU FUCKING BITCHES, I CANT DO SHIT WHEN I'M NOT HERE. Mr. Moore just told them to get out, and had me keep working. TT___TT I get home to talk to Siro and she's just left me an offline message. Then TWO people IM me with their problems. I really don't mind helping them but everyone expects to be able to absorb happyness points from me, and I haven't got any to spare. Happiness Points = -18 -curls up slightly and draws a bit, singing softly- Standing by the window Eyes upon the moon Hoping the memory Will the leave the spirit soon She shuts the doors and lightsAnd lays a body on the bed Images and words are running deep She has too much pride to pull the sheets above her head So quietly she lies and waits for sleep She stares at the cieling and tries not to think And pictures the change she's been trying to link again But the feeling is gone And water cant cover her memories And ashes can't answer her pain For give me the power to take the breathe from our breeze Like a corner from the corner, so afraid In with the ashes Or up with the smoke from the fire Things up in Heaven Or here lying in bed Follow her hand to my head And now for ever good My heart in my hand, I give up . . . bye bye for today My heart in my hand.. I give up. Comment! (2) | Recommend! AHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! It\'s Mmmmmmooooonnnnnnnnnndddddaaaayyyyy AHAHAH! YES! LIFE IS WONDERFUL! :-D! ...what's with this pussy music? -changes radio station- Anyway, back to reality: AHAHAHAHAhAHAH! I AM SO DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF! It is possible, not once, but TWICE to get detention for the same offense, and still not get a phone home! This is the shitest justice in the world. But I love it none the less! Yes, my faithful, if faithless (OXY MORON) readers. I got detention for acting lesbian-y again! Aha! How do straight girls act lesbian? It's called playboy. Just playing. Anyway, I was being a 'lesbian' by walking next to DD and giggling, and holding hands. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, lesbians, it SCREAMS! I mean, A) DD's taken (I call her DD cuz she's double D's and I'm an obscene fuck) B) I'm not a lesbian C) ... i'm bleeding.. ...why am I bleeding? O.o I didn't know I was bleeding. Ew... ANYWAY, BACK TO LESBIANS! -coughs- For all you cock-hard little fucktards, there will be no intimate discussions of lesbian sex (Lara's not on, I have no one to get them from :-D) -dies slowly- oh geez.. my mother and sister is planning my wedding. why? I gotta get out of middle school first, and they're planning on who is gonna make me their breeding bitch. awesome. my entire family disturbs me. that's fabulous. Do not disturb. I can't get much worse. Comment! (5) | Recommend! The Only Way To Solve That Is A Threesome Suunnnddaaay Nnniigghhhttt watching: Anna type listening to: Dunno - Codiene And Cambrea mood: A little bit of everything I have stupid friends. Tony- Tries to steal a giant spoll. Yes. A Giant Spoll. >_< Siro- Can not spell her own name. 'Sirp' Liz- Prefers to fold clothing then listen to my problems. >_ Tori- Watchs gay porn while talking to me about my 'pathetic single life' And myself.. I walk into poles, I nearly get arrested (Not telling about THAT one....), I drew a picture that's really sad and shit and it's ruined cuz I accidently gave the person 5 fingers and a thumb... >.> eh heh? and I sorta kinda just shot Robert. WHOOPS! :-D! Muscle spasm? o:-). yeah.. that's me, the angel. ah well... Anywhat now.... PAGE IS A LOVELY LADY! n.n Had to get that out there. She gave me the Mrs. Cunningham work (That woman is sooooooooo stupid it hurts!) and now I shan't fail! yay! Be happy for me... and if you want to laugh at me, imagine the following. Imagine me. No fo hawk Hair messy White tee-shirt White short-shorts cigarette dangling on of mouth barefoot holding a bottle of water looking angry cursing ...pregnant. :-D! Oh yeah, that nearly made me pee myself! :-D I'm gonna be a bad pregnant lady, thus I never intend to be one. n.n I'm happy single, lonley, but I dont have the pressure of all my friends continually saying "He's so hot" and all that shit. That's why online guys are best. You get what you want, the comfort of someone who tries to truly cares about you, even though they barely know you, and someone to talk to, without the embarassing need of voicing things. 'sides, I don't need sex, so it's perfect. n.~ Plus, guys my age are stupid, annoying and addicted to blowjobs and stupid things like that, and I don't like to touch guys really (if you don't know why, then you will never know, dont waste your breath/time asking) so... that's just me. ^.^ Anna- You'll appreciate him later. Meh- True.. He can buy me things! Anna- ..i was talking more about companionship..when your boobies are sagging Meh- Yep, when me only redeeming feature falls to my knees I gotta pierce my lip soon. but first, I gotta find two silver hoops to put through it, which means the Mall (of doom). -shudders- I dont see the happiness people derive from going around a large building filled with mostly crappy, expensive shops and wasting their money. Not my sort of thing... 'sides, I like Salvation Army and stuff like that, cuz then I can find the most odd and random things in the world without paying much. HEY, my clothing allowance IS 125$ but I dont want to have to waste it on about 5 pairs of pants! Meh- UGH! I have to go to the mallllll! Dad- ... I swear, there is no way in hell you are a girl. Meh- What? Because I dont like to abuse my feet wandering around over priced shops looking at crappy strips of cloth that are skintight and barely cover me as it is!??! Dad- Yep, not a girl. Meh- ITAE!!!!!!!!! Dad- Not my fault. >_O!!!!!!!!!! Fine, I'm not a girl then! my breasts are just implants, LET me tell you. Gackers! Guys are lucky they dont have stupid little fights like most of the dumb girls at my school do, they dont really care about popularity.. They're kinda dumb and brute strenght assholes though.. mmm... Dad- What kind of girl are you? You're more interested in cars, you listen to heavy metal, you wear loose fitting clothing and have more fistfights then dates! You make boys twice your size cry! You need to work on this, or I'll never get you married off. And that would be bad >< I'm starting my own gender! Comment! (1) | Recommend! my daddy's my hero! ...dunno... my own mind is fucking me over. maybe i should take my medications? Mm, that'd be a good idea! Be dependant on a pill to provide my happiness. I'm a very upbeat person and stuff.. but just recently my life has SUCKED! WHICH CELESTRIAL ASSHOLE DID I PISS OFF!?! WELL? Answer me damnit! SATAN DAMNIT! Just.. My God, why is life a spiral*?? * Spiral theory. Everyone has a place in life, and fortune is a spiral, spinning around so the phrase 'what comes around goes around' is correct. sometimes it's bigger and sometimes it's smaller, depending on the part of the spiral. It's Karma, with shapes. myeh.. demonickyujin: You're fucking wallowing in your own self pity verbal slaps in the face hurt like shit. demonickyujin: But it is a cry for help..or even just attention twice in one night. fabulous. WHY ARE YOU NEVER ON WHEN I NEED YOU TO BE!?! WHY ARE YOU NEVER HERE WHEN I CUT IT, BUT ONLY WHEN I COVER IT AND FAKE MY SMILES!?!!?!?!?!?!? tonight sucked, but i smiled anyway. every night is starting to suck. I'm looking forward to church tomorrow though... Pastor Ann Gordon.. she's hysterically funny and a great preacher. Plus a lesbian, so she's cool about everything. You can just go up to her and say "MY WEEK SUCKED!" and burst into tears... she hands you a cookie, sits you down and talks to you. Four wisest ladies in my life: Mom- Liz's mother. I can run to Liz's house when ever I hurt and even when Liz isn't there, she makes me tea and just talks to me, holds me when I cry, smiles when I laugh, tells me when I'm being stupid and applauds me when I fight for something I believe in. Song that she's like... Um... 9 days - When She Smiles Mrs. P- Originally, Ms. Peterson, now Mrs. Polawsi. :-D! She's meh guidance counselor and she's great. I just skipped periods sometimes and hang out with her. Probably not the greatest role model ('I'm not going to tell you NOT to have sex.. Just use a condom. I have them in cherry or grape if you ever need one' or 'Well, FUCK YOU!') but definately the funniest. Miss Gordon- Reverand Ann Gordon. Great sermons, good advice and someone who actually makes me enjoy going to church! :o! whoa dude. :-D She's the type who'd think Communion Poker is funny (which you bums don't think it is!) Siro- Probably one of the more bitchy, cynical, piss-me-off-i'll-castrate-you-with-a-screwdriver peoples I know... But she's good when i'm having a (my dad calls them 'girl moments) a need to chat about guys ( >_< it's rare, but it happens.. WHAT?!?! Dont look at me like that! For your fucktard info, I like 2 people right now... even though I hate men... yeah, it burns.). Also the only person who will bitchslap someone holding a knife against their wrist and tell them they complain too much. Also a good sewer. A terrible cook* though :-p Siro- Here! -hands a steaming dish- Meh- -looks at it- What is it? Siro- Lunch Meh- ...is it supposed to be brown and crunchy and oily? Siro- Shut up and eat it. Meh- .........what WAS it? Siro- >_< carrots! Meh- ..i refuse to believe this was once orange. or that it ever came from the ground.... Siro- Shut up and eat it! well.. with all that said and done and ranted and vented over, and my keyboard sticky from tears, and my head aching from when I walked into the pole on Friday. I'm serious. I walked into a pole. I was listening to Megan Capano talk and then Ms. Staley was like "Look out!" and I turn my head to look at her (She was diagonal behind me) and I walked into the pole. It really hurts! and it's cut! And it's kinda bruised... >o aannyywwaaayyyy.... random thing of the day- my daddy's my hero! ~At 3:20 in the morning BluBerryEyeLiner: -prod- RunToTheTrenches: my rc [opurttytt me to bed RunToTheTrenches: cecausie m dso drunk RunToTheTrenches: whattt? RunToTheTrenches: namec [pawel RunToTheTrenches: drunk RunToTheTrenches: very RunToTheTrenches: very RunToTheTrenches: drunk BluBerryEyeLiner: BED BluBerryEyeLiner: GO RunToTheTrenches: what? 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RunToTheTrenches: yeah RunToTheTrenches: that RunToTheTrenches: too RunToTheTrenches: drunk BluBerryEyeLiner: how old are you, Pawel? RunToTheTrenches: iiiiiiiiii wish i could stand up RunToTheTrenches: but i cant RunToTheTrenches: itw s funny BluBerryEyeLiner: hold onto the earth so you don't fall off BluBerryEyeLiner: not that you'll be missed in your current state RunToTheTrenches: l,.nhjg RunToTheTrenches: yeah that BluBerryEyeLiner: go to sleep RunToTheTrenches: oi said something important RunToTheTrenches: o swear BluBerryEyeLiner: you are an idiot RunToTheTrenches: am a dot BluBerryEyeLiner: oh goodness BluBerryEyeLiner: I pity any one with in 6 feet of you BluBerryEyeLiner: PAWEL BluBerryEyeLiner: let's try again BluBerryEyeLiner: how OLD are you? RunToTheTrenches: `111118 BluBerryEyeLiner: HOORAH BluBerryEyeLiner: where are you? RunToTheTrenches: in my errrroooom BluBerryEyeLiner: what state are you in? RunToTheTrenches: drunk BluBerryEyeLiner: not in denial though BluBerryEyeLiner: when was the last time you had an alcohol test? because you're gonna fail the next one RunToTheTrenches: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu]\ RunToTheTrenches: \ RunToTheTrenches: \ RunToTheTrenches: nevermnd BluBerryEyeLiner: do you hate your liver? BluBerryEyeLiner: really, WHY do you hate your liver? RunToTheTrenches: because;wedont get aLON RunToTheTrenches: G BluBerryEyeLiner: oh celetrial being in the sky, why do you hate me BluBerryEyeLiner: anyway BluBerryEyeLiner: WHY are you not getting your sorry old ass into bed? RunToTheTrenches: i dpnt hate RunToTheTrenches: you RunToTheTrenches: i just drunk RunToTheTrenches: and be RunToTheTrenches: d RunToTheTrenches: n \bed now RunToTheTrenches: bed now RunToTheTrenches: night BluBerryEyeLiner: good boy ^ Why Old People Shouldn't Get Drunk ^ drunks aren't cool. ^_~<3 and lemme a comment!!! Comment! (1) | Recommend! Tainted Love -dances- Saturday I have decided to do something utterly stupid. again. n.n Wanna know what it is? Do ya, do ya, do ya? :-D! I have decided to piece my lip twice. My actual lip this time. Two rings over the bottom lip. I know, it's dumb shit. But HEY, it'll make my family twitch.. Also, I know my children, if I have any, will most definately hate me. :-D I have 3 names I really like and they're completely disturbing and random! Charon - Think, HELL Raphael - The (lost maybe? I dunno, I ain't Catholic) angel of mystery and fortune Sodako - Sodako And The Thousand Paper Cranes yep, i've fucked them for life, and they're not even born yet! But, on the other hand, I doubt I'm actually gonna be the one giving birth to them. -noddles- Meh believe in adoption (I only got into it originally because my mother said it was a horrible act that denies the will of God. :-D) >.> <.< -rambles about something- -witty comment- -laughter from you ensues- u.u I'm so hopeless.. -unscrews water bottle top and drops cap- ^(#@*%) piece of crap. -grumbles and picks it up.- Anyway.. I'm bored, and I should be doing my homework ... should being the operative word. I'll probably wind up doing it 1st period on Monday... WHEE! I LOVE THIS SONG Momma, this surely is a dream Yeah Momma this surely is a dream Hanging round Downtown by my self Ive had too much caffeine I was thinking about my self And there she was in plantonom suede Yeah there she was Like disco lemonade I smell sexing Candy hair Who's that lounging In my chair Whos that casting deep thought out stares In my direction -dances- So random!! n.n -switchs radio station and hums to Breaking Benjamin- Crowded streets all cleared away One by one People seperate As they run You're so cold keep So held in line Young boys wonder While strong men cry... -head bangs and mumbles lyrics- That's alright Let's give this another try! If you find a family Dont you cry In this land of make believe Dead and dry You're so cold But you're feeling right Lay your hand on me One last time Show me how is injures alright Show me how defenseless, you really are Satisfy an empty inside That's alright, lets give this another try Show me how is injures alright Show me how defenseless, you really are Satisfy an empty inside That's alright, lets give this another try It's all right... It's all right.. It's all right.. It's all right.. It's all right.. It's all right. It's all right. It's all right. It's all..right.. >_< Funky song.. vvveerrryyy funky... now they're playing AC/DC, after the man bitched about 9/11. People, look. You say "We're over it, we're stronger now".. NO! You're not! You keep BITCHING about it.. People want to make it a day we get off school. Then it becomes something like Labor Day or Memorial Day. I know people my age well enough, we lose the memory, we just give a shit about that whoo hoo, we're off, and all the stores have sales and it just becomes a shopping trip! What the hell, we LOSE the meaning of what happened! I might seem insensitive, but it's the fucking truth. It's horrible, it's scary and it's cruel, but you HAVE to keep going! What? I'm not being heartless! And what is with the media's obsession with showing how many KIDS died?! Why are we so geared to say "Oh, well he was 40, he'd die soon anyway" and "Oh no, a 13 year old boy was shot because he stole something? That horrible killer!" What the fuck!? Age doesn't matter, someone DIED! And women are more sympathized with then men. So if I burst into flames right now, people'd be like "She was a bitch, but a girl and a young girl too! -sob sob-!" -rolls her eyes- give me a break, fucktards. . . . angry mood is gone.. random humor quotes time! RunToTheTrenches: im an interesting man when ntoxicated BluBerryEyeLiner: Oh dear BluBerryEyeLiner: what did you do? RunToTheTrenches: ive been said to have attempted to scale the side of my dormitory building wearing only boxers and yelling "I AM THE SPLINTER CELL"........i deny it of course (i really dont remmber that night ^_^) but if ts true, it means i play wayyyyyyyyyy too many video games SerenitysMyBoat: chain of command? what's dat? BluBerryEyeLiner: It's the chain I BEAT YOU WITH until you know whose in command SerenitysMyBoat: :-D Firefly! SerenitysMyBoat: so anyways ms.murder BluBerryEyeLiner: Ms.murder? BluBerryEyeLiner: i like it BluBerryEyeLiner: you can call me that BluBerryEyeLiner: "One hasn't lived until one has heard Yellow Submarine sung by drunk Germans.. IN german." - My father BluBerryEyeLiner: This was in Germany, in a beer hall where the floor was sticky at noon RunToTheTrenches: HAHAHAHA RunToTheTrenches: beautiful RunToTheTrenches: our floor is carpetted RunToTheTrenches: and needs febreeze....bad RunToTheTrenches: a tour came by while the health dept was putting on skits for us, and all the parents watched in horrorfrom behind the "stage" as a id ran up wearing only whitey tighties and screamed "im a virgin and im proud" in front of the entire freshman class, then proceeded to distribute free condoms while a condom volleyball game was begun RunToTheTrenches: amherst college :-D Comment! (2) | Recommend! Tombstone-RapePoem-TheSuicide-CertianChoices Pierre Tambale / Tombstone Pit Pat le pluie sur la pierre tambale Mes yeux fixes sur les fleurs Elles sont mortes Comme la personne sur le qu'elle elle reposent Mes yeux yeux qui ne peuvent pas retenir les larmes Sur le blance pierre tambale qui cache une personne Plus que moi. J'ai allume une cigarrette et je l'ai fume quand J'etait assise sur la belle pierre tambale blanche. Et j'ai lui parle Avec elle, sans aucun sujet Apres ca Je suis rentree chez moi, la cigarette morte sur les fleurs. ------------------------------------- Pit pat the rain on the tombstone My eyes fixed upon the flowers They are dead like the person they lay upon My eyes eyes that can not hold tears, fixed On the white tomb stone that hides a person Who is more then me I light A cigarette and I smoke while I sit upon that beautiful white tomb stone And I talk To her, without a single subject But then... I walk home silently, my cigarette dead among the flowers -Meh ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Rape Poem There is no difference between being raped and being pushed down a flight of cement steps except the wounds also bleed inside This is no difference between being raped and being run over by a truck except afterwards men ask you if you've enjoyed it This is no difference between being raped and being bit on the ankle by a rattle snake except that people ask if your skirt was short and why you were out alone anyway This is no difference between being raped and going head first through a windsheild except that afterwards you are afraid not of cars but of half the human race The rapist is your boyfriend's brother He sits besides you in the movies eatting popcorn Rape fattens on the fantasies of the nromal male like a maggot in garbage Fear of rape is a cold wind blowing all of the time on a woman's hunched back Never to stroll alone on a sand road through pine woods never to climb a trail across a bald with that aluminum in the mouth when I see a man climbing towards me Never to open the door to a knock Without that razor just grazing the throat The fear of the dark side of hedges the back seat of the car, the empty house rattling keys like a snakes warning The fear of the smiling man in whose pocket is a knife The fear of the serious man in whose fist is locked hatred All it takes to cast a rapist is seeing your body as jackhammar, as blowtorch, as adding-machine-gun All it takes is hating that body your own, your self, your muscle that softens to flab All it takes is to push what you hate What you fear onto the soft alien flesh To bucket out invincible as a tank armored with threads without senses to possess and punish, in one act to rip up pleasure to murder those who dare live in the leafy flesh open to love. -Marge Piercy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Suicide didn't acknowledge receipt didn't wave goodbye didn't flutter the air with kisses a mound of tinsel gifts unwrapped air mail letters unopened bedclothes rumpled no thank you always elsewhere though it was raining elsewhere though strange-speaking persons peopled the streets the minarets might have been dangerous the drinking water suspect though we at h ome slaved and baked and wept and dialed the phone and hung tinsel ornaments did he marvel did he thank was he grateful did he know was he considerate was he human was he there Always elsewhere! didn't thank didn't kiss toothbrush stiffened cat scratching at the screen car battery dead was that human? went where? -Joyce Carol Oates ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Certain Choices My friend, who was a heroin addict is dead and buried beneath the trash and broken bottles in a prison field He died, of course, because of the way he lived. It wasn't a very good way but it kept him alive. When it couldn't keep him alive any long, it killed him Thoroughly and with great suffering After he made certain choices there were no others availible. That's the way it is with certain choices, and we are faced with them so young. I have few friends and none of them are replacable. That's the way it is with freidns. We make certian choices. -Richard Shelton ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Comment! (0) | Recommend! |
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