i feel like crying and i don't even know why.

i push everyone i love away from me.

i feel lonely all the time when i'm surrounded by the best friends ever.

i don't want to do anything anymore.

i feel bored and sad when im doing my favorite things.

i feel unloved.

i hate myself. or at least my mind. why does my mind do this. why do i always feel this way. what is wrong with me?

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hello all im bored as usual

so i was watching someone like you today its like one of my favorite movies besides harry potter of course. and theres this part where they wake up in each others arms. (no sex happened or anything) they just wake up holding each other and i love it. i love all the romantic stuff i don't know why but i do.

i really should start working on my homework but i don't know what to do and i'm a procrastinator so oh well. this sucks though i just really want the school year to end. i love being with all my friends and stuff but i like summer. just getting to chill out for a few months in the sun with no stress. the end of the school year always goes by so slowly. i can't wait to farewell. its funny cuz i already have my dress and so many people are like searching for theirs. i just need a damn little jacket thing that won't cover my bow. oh well i love my dress i just hope i can still breath in it. i hope the farewell thing doesn't go on forever though. i have an image of mr. victor and going on forever and ever and ever. oh well i can't wait to see what my friends are wearing.

i'm done for now don't know what else to write. i wanna go lay out in my yard so i can get semi tan but i really should do my homework. poop.

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damn feeling lonely. damn feeling sad. damn feeling made fun of. damn feeling pain. damn feeling left out.

i feel like running. from what, i dont know everything? grrr i hate feeling sad. i always wanna tell somebody but i dont wanna drag anybody into my sadness. its like contageous.why does this always happen? why won't depression just leave my brain alone? i've seen what its done to my mom and i've seen what it's done to my brother. i dont want it to happen to me but it keeps coming back. grrr. damn the sadness. damn it to hell.

Song Time

Here. A little sympathy for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

Here. A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of use take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us

I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

yay for yellowcard and their words.

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knows business. You have fun in the sun and
know how to have a good laugh.


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awesomeness.

and i figured out the viridian room yay!

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im sleepy. and i just sneezed again. very weird.

my brother is watching cast away. YAY FOR WILSON.

can't wait till harry potter comes out. im a total nerd but i dont care hes awesome. nobody dis on harry potter!

i need to clean the living room and my room in 33 minutes. nearly impossible.

dont know if i'm doing something today. hope so cuz im bored. newho like i said gotta clean and now i only have 32 minutes. lucky me.

over and out

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