I guess it's time for a new entry. Before Dilated starts complain' again - lol j/k

Nothing too exciting has happened. I ended up not attending my best friend's wedding. It's a shame and I wish I could have gone but the way that things worked out I just wasn't able to go. I have alot of pictures though and she looked really really pretty. My guess is either Priscilla or Kelly will be next in line to walk down the aisle. Of course we always figured Kelly would be the first to do so.

Instead I went with Elessar257 and a few of the youth to Dallas to attend YEC. We got there late. Due to many many obstacles and traffic. Not cool. So, the youth outbid me and instead we went to eat. Pretty expensive lunch if I do say so myself but I had the BEST food. Steak and mashed potatoes ^_^ not much can beat that. The youth ended up spending the night at my apartment and THANKFULLY I had cleaned up before I left so it wasn't a mess when they got here lol. It was pretty fun. Of course, I got smacked in the face with a beaded pillow - but whatever.

I've had better 4th of July's. It wasn't bad though. I tried to make it down to Fort Worth so that I could buy my Harry Potter ticket (which, about to attempt again in a few minuets) but the Omni was closed so instead I found a nice park to watch the fireworks from. I read for my final in Philosophy and waited patiently. At first I was disappointed with the fireworks but in the end they pulled through. I waited about a half hour for traffic to die down and clearly I needed to wait more and know where the heck I was going. I got a little lost and caught in traffic and of course by this time I was starving. So, I went to sonic and then ended up hanging out with Aldo at Wal-Mart for a little bit. I got a bandana out of the deal. I heart Bandanas, they make my hair behave.

I have finals this week. Today is my final in Linguistics, but it's online so I'll do that tonight when no one else is on the internet so my connection will be steady. On friday I have my final for Philosophy at 6 o'clock. Then I'm done with Summer Session I and will start getting ready for SSII. It won't be too bad World History pt I and Sex Roles. I hope it's intresting.

This upcoming week should be pretty awesome. Harry Potter comes out on the 11th, and the youth are going to Six Flags on the 13th. This will be my first attempt (EVER) at going on a rollercoaster. I'm gonna try and get over this fear - let's hope it works. If my parents knew they would blow a gasket. lol, they've tried everything to get me to go on rollercoasters. I've remained firm in my resolve to never get on one until now. We'll see how this goes.

I will also be going home in August to visit the fam and see everyone. Dad wants to take a 'mini vacation' to Corpus. I haven't been in ages upon ages so that doesn't sound like too bad of a deal. The last time I saw a coast of any sort was a little over 2 years ago. I love the beach. Though, I prefer it at night - is that weird? Eh, maybe not so much once you see the Corpus Crisiti coastline. I remember this one beach in California called Sealion beach or something like that - but there were a whole bunch of wild sea lions you could swim with. Of course, out of my family I was the first one in. I also tried to touch a baby seal but when one of the bigger seals started to growl at me I quickly gave up on that attempt. The water was incredibly clear and a fantastic shade of blue. All coast lines should be like that.

So, yea.
that's my life.
boring.

I'm sure there will be more intresting things sooner or later.

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I've been slightly vague in a few of my other entries.

My life. hmmm....where to start...I know!

Once upon a time....
lol, i'd like my life to start like that. In any case, things have been going well. Classes are where they should be for the most part. Linguistics i'm ashamed to say is starting to entice me, but this also means that i'm doing pretty dang well in it. Philosophy is still has my intrest in a death grip, but it's starting to hold on so tightly that i'm losing concioiusness. In other words, the class is starting to give me a headache. It's all very intresting and the points of discussion are incredibly thought provoking, but I'm just not that quick on my feet. I always think up things to say long after the fact, and thusly my participation in that class is usually limited to me frantically scurrying around my brain trying to put emotions into feelings and passionately taking notes. Astronomy is - as always - great. I have my first lab at the observatory tomorrow. I love stars. I always have, but through certain experiences and situations i've grown to really appreciate and love them even more.

Family is doing well. Not much to report there. My mom thought she was going to have to have surgery again (this time on her lower back) the MRI came back and they said it looks like they don't have to. My brother is still working and my dad is nearly fully recovered.

One of my best friends is supposed to be getting married this Saturday. But, I recieved a text message yesterday that said "My wedding is off until further notice". AND, this is the second time. They've only been engaged for a month. I don't know what happened. I don't blame her for growing distant, she's got other things on her mind, and i'm not in the place of importance I once was - it's as it should be. But, i'd at least like to know what's going on in the woman's life! When I told my mom about it she said that if the wedding is cancled, or something like that that I should just stay up here. We can't afford a trip down 'just because' right now. I'll be back probably before the start of Fall though.

Well, that seems to be most if not all of my life at the current moment - besides random facts (i.e. I have to take my car into the shop, I need to go get my contacts) that no one really cares that much about. So....yea.

Do you ever wonder what things would have been like? Or....we're like? For instance: I think in another life I was an explorere. An Adventuer. Someone who had people at their command and who took charge. Do you think dormant feelings are really dormant? Can they burst forth at any given moment? What causes them to be dormant? Is there some point in our life where we choose what feelings will be dominant? How do you know which is right or better? Is there even such a thing? If it's just different...well, then what's the point in wondering any of this? Do you ever wonder who you would have been had you choosen those other feelings? Does anyone else even know what i'm talking about? lol. I wonder where I would be if I hadn't changed. Who I would be and what my life would be like. Do you think there's purpose to it? Like those old RL Stein books that had 1,000 outcomes? One decision after another will affect the whole story. Decisons, situations, circumstances, logic, emotion....what's the point of all that stuff if it doesn't MEAN anything? Then again...nothing can mean nothing. So, it has to mean SOMETHING....but what? Will we ever know? Will I?
meh, this probably doesn't even make any sense. I'm being weird and ramble-y

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you'll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in

you'll complete me right? then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am?

but this won't work now the way it once did
and I won't keep it up even though I would love to
once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless
and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

this ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor
this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water

but this won't work as well as the way it once did
cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
and though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

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It was mine. I owned it.

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