i woke up at 9:20 this morning, but ended up laying in bed till 10...so i was a little late to graduation practice..but it was okay...man i'm really excited to be graduating..i'm gonna go to the baccalaureate on thursday night..i figure why not go to all of my graduation...plus my family will go..idk who all from my family will go to graduation..hopefulyy some...i know jackie, mom, jenn, darene, dad, and jim are all gonna be there, but hopefully some other family will come...idk...anyway..i might go to bed now, since i took a nap earlier....i wasn't even planning on it..i just like, laid on my dad's bed for a second while jackie was on the computer and the next thing i know it's like almost 7...it wasn't cool...but it felt good to nap...but i'm really tired, so i think i'll go to bed...night all

happy anniversary hunnie..i love you to death

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graduation practice was pretty good, except we had a bad ass thunderstorm during it..i got my cap and gown...i feel so old and grown up now..but i'm off for a few minutes...be back soon

i love you babe

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it's 3 fricken 15 in the morning and i'm sitting in the hotel lobby bored as fuck with jackie...oh god..we haven't slept a wink since what, last night..haha...

let's see....thursday i got back from jim's and he took me to jackie's..i spent the night there, and then we got up on friday morning and got ready and stuff...then we got lost on the way to Hershey park....good times..haha...and then we finally found it...so we get our hotel room checked into, i change to go to dinner, adn we go to this chinese restaurant for dinner/lunch...well it was pretty bad....the food sucked, and the price was UNBELIEVEABLE!! so i ripped off a blue china cup to add to my collection...haha...we had some funny ass conversations that night...one memorable one is about crabs, b/c they had crablegs there, and peanuts.....''don't get crabs from the nuts''.....god it was funny...

we went to the park friday night...it was raining..i got soaked...and it wasn't fun...i rode a few rides....i played this game where a guy had to guess my weight..man..he was way off..i won a prize..i picked this pink blow up dolphin that squeeks...it's hilarious..that made everyone want one, so we had all of us playing the game to get a pink or blue dolphin...

we got lost on the way back, suprise suprise.....we get back, i talk to jim on the phone for a little bit, and then tiffany, jackie and i realize we want wendy's..forgetting they close at like 10, but the drive thru is open till 1...so we tried to walk thru the drivethru...they wouldn't let us, so we just took jackie's mom's car...it was funny..they kept screwing up our order, so we decided to rip them off....we drove around again and told them they forgot one of our frenchfries....and they gave us another one..haha..it was funny...so we get back and we just fuck around for awhile..that was fun...then we finally fell asleep...

we got up this , well, saturday morning and got showers and stuff, ate breakfast, and then headed to hershey park...we rode so many rides..the canyon river rapids rock..but the roller soaker sucks ass..i didn't like it...your feet dangle, i almost passed out b/c i couldn't breathe...i was so scared...but the lightning racer rocks....it's the two roller coasters that race each other..it's so much fun..we rode it 3 times in a row...but after all that 12 hours in the park, we came home...well..to the hotel...and we're not tired, so we go to wendy's again and i'm driving this time in jackie's mom's van....it was fun...so we sat in the lobby here and ate our food..and the guy that's working the night shift here at the hotel ...we bugged him last night, and he remembered..and we like..asked if he could open the pool for us..and he did :) so we were swimming from about 1:30 am to about 3....and then we're not tired still, b/c if we sleep for only 4 hours b/c we're gonna get woken up at 7am....then we'll be major bitches...i can go a day without sleep..i've done it before......i got so burned today....it hurts..badly...but god this has been a great weekend...i really enjoyed spending time with tiffany, jack, jennifer, bre, and mom...just us six women..it's fun..well..girls and women...it's fun to just be a kid again, since i gradaute soon..

i graduate in under a week! i'm so excited...tomorrow is my graduation practice....yippie!!! well my fingers are going numb..and i'm gettin tired...time for more coffee!!! jackie and i are gonna go exploring for awhile.....maybe i'll write more later!!!


i love you my perfect wonderful fiance

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well that was romantic...jim and i just got in from laying under the stars...we saw a total of 5 shooting stars..well i saw 5 all together, he only saw 2 of them...they're so beautiful and amazing..just like him...nothing is more romantic than ........under the stars....fill in that blank with whatever you want ::wink wink::

i just had to write about my night so far...

i love my sweet wonderful amazing fiance

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okay..this format is disturbing..i don't like the girl on it, but i love the pink and the hearts and stuff...so yea...anyhoo..

happy memorial day...

i started cleaning jim's room this morning, i figure i'll finish it after i write this..

it's pretty hot already...plus my allergies are acting up, so it's pretty uncomfortable...which sucks *sighs*

i'm gonna get in the shower after i clean jim's room...i probably stink...

jim and i took a walk last night...at like dusk..it was really nice..the sun was setting and the sky was all pink and orange and stuff..we walked around the housing development near his house...i fell in love with this 2 story yellow with blue shutters house with a wide porch.....i think i want it...haha....i'll save every one of my paychecks for a down payment...screw the apartment, let's go right to the house :P but seriously, there's just something about that house that makes me go 'ooooo' and want to spend my life in it...idk..maybe it's the house i'm destined to be in...puh....riiight...

jim's been amazing as usual...::wink wink:: haha...he really is a great guy..

but i'm out for now..i wanna get his room done and then get in the shower...

i love you my sweet wonderful amazing fiance

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wow..i'm out of school..i just can't believe that it's all over...i mean, yeah, i haven't graduated yet..but i'm just so close to the end that it's kinda scary...i mean, all i've known the past 13 years is getting up and going to school...seeing my friends everyday..comming home and doing homework....groaning b/c i hate getting up every morning....getting excited on friday's b/c the next 2 mornings i can sleep in....it's just really sad..i'm really gonna miss being in school....i'm not gonna miss THE school i'm in, but i'm gonna miss the idea of seeing friends every day and complaining about the little shit...i guess the little things in life aren't so bad anymore...realizing that i'm going out and facing the big world of jobs and college and adults...i mean i'm an adult now, but i was still in school...but now i have to go out there with my head held high and take what's in store for me...what if i die? what if i don't make it in life...what if i become a bum on the streets? i really don't see that happening to me, but it could happen and you never know what's gonna happen in the future..i'm just really emotional about the fact of leaving high school..maybe it wouldn't be so bad if i had my mom with me...but there i go again, being spoiled and whining about my mom...but i really don't care..i miss her so much and i'm so sick and tired of people hating their moms...like at school...i hear people saying " i wish my mom would just die" and i'm thinking, yeah, i thought that once too, and guess what..it happened....so be careful what you fucking wish for, b/c sooner or later it'll fucking come true... i just get so sick and tired of being alone...well not alone, but without a family..my dad could care less, except i think he's finally realizing that i'm not his little girl anymore...b/c last night when i came out to jim's..i brought some of my stuff i packed...and i think it made my dad realize that i'm gone soon..b/c when i called him to let him know i got out here fine, he was all sad sounding, like he had been crying...makes me sad to leave him alone, but i need to move on with my life and make something of myself, if not for me, then for my mom..b/c i know it's what she would have wanted me to do..she wouldn't want me to cry, she'd want me to be happy and live my life, but it's just so hard at times like these that i can't take it and i break down and cry and almost join her, but if i did try to join her, i wouldn't be going to heaven with her...so i have to stand strong and hold off untilt that one day when i'm finally granted the permission to spend eternity with my mom....that's the day i'm waiting for...that's the day i'll be truely happy...but enough of that....it's makin me really depressed now..

jim and i figured on a ballpark wedding date...meaning not sure of the date, but something along the lines of June 16, 2007....8 days after my parents got married...no details yet, just a date b/c i'm sick of saying " oh we haven't discussed it yet" when people ask me the date...so now i have a figurative date to give them.

i think jim's a little ''miffed'' because i kinda girled up his room...i packed my dvds and a ton of my stuffed animals to bring with me....only the animals that meant something to me thou, like the duck my mom crocheted me when i was a baby and the elephant she got me and the numerous things that mean something to me, plus my care bears..can't go anywhere without them :P i ended up taking over his dresser too, b/c from here i leave for hershey...so i needed clothes for sunday thru next sunday...so i had a huge duffel bag filled to the brim with clothes, and then a suitcase stuffed with clothes and shoes..i brought 7 pairs of shoes with me..haha..i think i need help...but you never know what you're gonna wanna wear!!!

but i'm off...i wanna get a shower before it gets too late!!!

i love you my prince charming

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