This day was just utterly depressing.

I went to work and that was all good, I guess...then I got off work and Brian was supposed to come over to my house. He calls me and asks if I want to go over to his house to have dinner (they were having roast beef...beef doesn't agree with me)...I decided not to eat dinner, but I went over there anyway because we were going to go to a movie or whatever.

We went to the movie and we get done at about 10:30 and we're driving back to his house and I had a gut feeling he wasn't going to come over anymore. He was like, "I'll let you decide if you want me to come over or not." Well, that's just like saying...well, you can guilt me into coming over but I don't really want to. That was depressing right there...

I eventually just told him to stay at his own house. I'm going to my house whether he's there or not. I left pretty much in a foul mood.

I just don't understand what the hell I'm doing wrong. I guess I'm just not good enough to live with while we're alone...and the only reason he's going to have to live with me now is because of the baby. It's like some big obligation...I guess this whole relationship is an obligation...I don't know. I don't think he feels that way, but come on...what the hell is wrong with me?

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So, our Christmas shopping adventure didn't quite go as planned, but that's fine.

We went to Best Buy (a different one than where Brian works) and we ended up buying Brian a set of headphones and his friend Jaysun a set of headphones. WELL, we get home and find out that Jaysun bought those same headphones today, so he doesn't need them. Brian's like "I hope you like your new headphones!" Hahah...I'll figure out something to do with them, but yeah...new headphones for me...yippee...(can you sense my excitement)

After that, we went to Wally World (Walmart for you folks that don't know) and got a couple of necessities. I needed some shampoo, so I got that. Brian needed a water bottle for work (he got one that carries a half gallon of water), I got a pitcher so I can make juice at home, we bought his dad a Dremel set (he wanted one...he's paying us back for that), we got his dad a universal remote (he's paying us back for that too) and then I had to get a Secret Santa gift for someone at work. I got a fountain for their desk or whatever. It has lights...I thought it was cool. I would have wanted one of those. We looked at strollers/car seats and we were going to get it, but then we decided that it wasn't going to fit in my car with my trunk full of shit...so we're going to get it tomorrow when we can use Brian's dad's truck and put it in there. It has Winnie the Pooh on it, but I don't care. I like Winnie the Pooh, I just didn't want to go all out on Winnie the Pooh. I'm not THAT much of a fan...ya know.

Anyway, other than that...I get to go buy Brian a terrabyte of hard drive space today at Best Buy (as it's on sale for $150.00 per hard drive at 500gb a piece). He says that if he gets it now, he shouldn't need to buy anything else for his computer after the baby's here, at least for a while. I guess he has close to 800gb now and it's almost all full. Whatever he puts on his computer, I'll never know...but it certainly isn't anything porn related, so it's 800gb of games, movies, etc. that he's download...INSANE!!!

I need to find a jumbo thing of eggrolls today too. If I can't find that, I'm going to go back to Safeway and just get the little ones that I saw and cook up twice as many. We're having a potluck at work tomorrow and our theme is Asian food, so I picked eggrolls. I'm still trying to think of how I'm going to keep all that stuff warm...ugh...it will come to me, eventually!!

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Even with the power being out at my mom's house, I was able to help her buy her plane ticket to come to Denver for the baby's birth! I called her this morning and the power was still out (I think this is going on 2 days now) and the crappy thing about not having any power...you can't really take a shower (as you need electricity to light the pilot light that lights the hot water heater)...so she was going to boil some water on the gas range (at least you can manually light the burners on that) and take a bath. My poor mommy :(

Anyway, back to the plane tickets. She's going to be here on January 10th (a Wednesday) at about 7pm. I'm so excited about that! I just hope that the baby doesn't get any ideas and decides that he wants to be born more than a week early! I think with my mom here, I can do anything! There's only so much Brian can do for me and I really could use my mom for support, so I'm hoping he holds in there at least until after my mom gets here.

Brian and I are going to go Christmas shopping after he gets off work tonight. He gets off at 5pm and we've got to go shopping for his mom, his best friend Jaysun, and then his uncles. I think while we're out, we're going to go get the stroller/car seat for the car because they won't let us take the baby home from the hospital without a car seat and we still don't have that (I KNOW...Brian and I are the King and Queen of procrastination). I have an idea of what we should get his uncles since one lives in Oregon and the other one lives here...I'm going to run by Brian the idea of gift cards or something along that line. At least with a gift card, they'll send light in the mail and then they can get what they want with them.

But yeah...other than that, today has been/is going to be a lazy day. I got up this morning and listened to VNV Nation while I played World of Warcraft for a little bit. Brian was right...the music does go well with the game. I got bored with that quick though, so now I just want to go somewhere.

We might go see Eragon tonight after we're done with all the shopping. Brian read the book in about 3 days and he loves it...so the movie looks pretty good too.

Okay...now that I've randomly jumped all over the day, I think I'll leave it at that.

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I don't have a good title, so you get untitled...okay

Just got home from the grocery store. Got lots of goodies like grapefruit, yogurt, apples, juice, etc. but then I splurged on chocolate covered pretzels. I figured, if I'm buying all this food that's good for me, I might as well get the one thing I like that's bad for me :)

I'm so exhausted at the moment. I called the doctor's office and told her what was going on with the pelvic pain and she calls me back and she goes "Well, I'm sorry to break this to you honey, but this is normal." I figured it was, but you never know. If it was something serious, I didn't want to dismiss it as regular pregnancy pain or anything.

My next appointment is Wednesday at lunch. I can voice my opinions then. Hopefully I'm not measuring big or anything and I'm just on time. I don't want him to be born before my mom is able to get out here.

Speaking of my mom, she was stuck in the big windstorm in the pacific northwest. They had hurricane force winds and she's one of the 1 million people in Washington that is without power (and she says that they probably won't have it back for a few days). Her work is so stupid! She was at work last night (she works in a factory) and the power went out there at about 12am or so (she works graveyards) and they made them stay and finish out the shift. The emergency lights were on for about 3 hours, however, they decided to go out at about 3am and they were in the pitch black for the remainder of the shift. They had flashlights and all that...and they would not send ANYONE home. My mom ended up going to the bathroom for the rest of her shift and sleeping because they could not go home...yet they could not work either because there was no power. HOW STUPID IS THAT!?!

Oh well...I'm gonna rest in the recliner and watch TV and maybe go lay down in my bed...go to bed early tonight...tired...

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I think the link will explain itself...sort of (the site's in Japanese...I can't understand Japanese...but you don't need to know Japanese to see the pictures...and, well, watch the video of it).

USB Puppies!!!

Check it out...when you plug them in, they hump your computer :)

OKAY, I'm bored...

The chameleon at the bottom of the page is pretty nifty too. I'd hook that up to my machine!

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I had to work until 7:30, so I was basically gone for 13 hours. I left at 7am and didn't get home until 8pm. I wanted to fall asleep in front of the computer screen at work...and I swear, I'm going to get carpal tunnel or something when I get older because I type so much at work, at home, everywhere...I'm just fucking my hands up!

Anyway, we have our Holiday Lunch tomorrow. It's from noon to two and I know I'm already having salmon. It should be yummy...but that's 2 hours I won't be in the office tomorrow afternoon. I've got a meeting at 10:30 am about my position and what I do (I'm assuming)...I don't know. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

But yeah...I'm done talking about work and all that. I desperately wish I had a DVD player or something so I could watch movies or whatnot on my TV. I'm tired of watching the same shitty shows over and over again. My two channels SUCK.

ugh...

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not to mention uneventful.

I tried laying down and it hurt like hell. I'm calling the doctor tomorrow morning to find out if they should see me earlier than the 20th or if I should wait until the 20th to come in. This acute pelvic pain is really getting on my nerves and I am really not enjoying being pregnant now :(

BUT YEAH, does anyone remember Mr. Men? I was messing around on the Internet and stumbled across this website where you can make your own Mr. Men character or Little Miss character...

so, I made myself my own Little Miss :)



It's not spectacular or anything, but still. As you can tell, I was bored...lol

Anyway, I'm going to try and go to bed and see if I can feel comfortable. We'll see if I can get any sleep tonight...

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I swear, it is getting harder and harder to want to wake up in the mornings now. It's bad enough I'm up all night going pee a bajillion times, but now it hurts to roll over and I have to roll over constantly because I can't get comfortable...and then it hurts to work, it hurts to sit...it hurts to do anything. I guess when I was joking with my doctor last week about how I was feeling fantastic, he would know exactly how I would feel come this time. MISERABLE!!!

I went to that breastfeeding class last night and it was very informative. It basically confirmed to me that I WILL be breastfeeding my baby. There are so many benefits to breastfeeding that you can't get from formula and the best benefit of all, it is absolutely free (for the most part - minus the breast pump that I will eventually have to get). I guess the average cost of a months worth of formula is $150.00! That's $150.00 that I would be saving every month from using what I already have, ya know...the instructor made us practice with little rigid fake babies and that was so embarassing.

But yeah, I won't go too much into it.

I think tonight, I'm going to go home from work...eat a little bit of food...and then pass out in bed or something. You know, I could say this 20 times and never go home and fall asleep. I have an issue with going to bed early...I can't do it.

Anyway, I've not posted a picture of anything for a little while, so I figured I'd post one. This is a picture of a piercing that I thought was really cool and I wanted to get at one point (I probably will never get it now)...it's not the whole part with the earlobe stretching thing, it's the industrial type piercing that runs through the rook and all that. I thought it'd be cool.



Me, personally, I just have my rook pierced and here's a picture of my ear:



To be honest, I think that was the least painful piercing I ever got. In fact, I don't recall it hurting one bit when they did it. It pinched for a little bit (of course, as a big chunk of my ear was stabbed through), but it was mostly just nasty sounding. It was super crunchy! Then the guy doing it was like "Oh look, your ear is filling up with blood." It was interesting to say the least. I got two piercings at that time (in strange spots on my ear)...I got my anti-helix pierced at the same time the rook was (but on the opposite ear)...OMG...bad idea! I couldn't sleep on either ear. My mom was pissed about it...lol...the shitty thing about my anti-helix piercing though is that my body decided it didn't like it and it eventually migrated out of my ear.

ANYWAY...yeah...I'm going to go enjoy the rest of my lunch.

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