So I was home watching dvds from my dance shows I was in during my high school years. It wasn't as fun as I thought it would be. I mean....it wasn't a bad time. But I watched a dvd that reminded me that I'm not that good at dancing at all and I was SO much skinnier than I am now! =( and it made me miss my long hair, too. and it made me miss dancing. But it also brought back good memories. ^_^
And I'm surprised I still know some of the dances. Its been years!

I think I would go mad if I were never able to dance again. even if my skills are lacking. I think all things considered, most of what I know is from just putting myself in dances and junk. Like..I've rarely ever been in a studio....but I wish I did. I'd be so much better, I think.

Oh well.
Anyway....after watching the videos, I've set my mind and I really AM going to start eating healthier and going back to the gym. I'm sick of double digit pants sizes. haha.

I have no idea what I'm going to do tonight. Aside from going to the gym right after work I probably wont be doing much else.
But....I get to go on my lunch break now so I'm going home to find something healthier than fast food for lunch.

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I need to figure out a way to make my body work and function to the best of its abilities and NOT fuck up my plans and make me spend money on stupid shit and NOT have to go see Doctors that wont help and NOT make me want to have an out of body experience just so I can toss this piece of shit body off a cliff....or do this...

Ugh.

I'm not afraid of doctors or anything...if they can fix the problem.
What I really hate is when you spend hundreds of dollars on medicine and appointments and other junk and not have the problem fixed.
In fact, only making it worse.


I'm not in the mood for this shit.

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I'm particularly bummed out right now....
What's the deal with that?!?!
I was fine a few hours ago....and now I feel like....just....not good.
I feel sad...again....What's the deal??

I'm not really looking forward to Valentines day. I don't know what I'll be doing. I want to be swepted off my feet or something....but considering the circumstances...that's not happening. Which isn't a big deal. Its never been a huge holiday to me before...haha. I think I'm just being moody. I'll bounce back in a few hours or something.


Annnnyyywayyss....Work is being a pain in the ass. Some D is looking for Glass filled something or another and the amount of glass he wants filled into the Teflon is next to near impossible to make. I bust my ballsto try to find it but come to find out "well, it MIGHT be 25% glass filled and not the 45% glass filled like I mentioned"
...Thanks. Thanks for telling me that NOW douche bag. I Just wasted over an hour of my time looking for this crap.

Ugh.
At least it's making my work day go by,
righto...well, I guess I better go look for the RIGHT material, now. =/

gotta make more phone calls.

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Being snowed in since almost last friday has got me thinking....that the NEXT time I get stuck somewhere...it shall NOT be at home. I mean don't get me wrong....it hasn't been complete hell all week with my parents....but its been lonely. =(

I have to start shoveling again soon.

anyway....aside from that....Life has been getting better. ^_^
Its still weird to talk to my ex and realize that *wow...he's not my boyfriend anymore*
Its just mind blowing! I'm very happy with the fact that me and him can talk and have it NOT be uncomfortable aside from the occasional joking that we both do that's always followed by a "too soon" or something of the like.

And I got into serious trouble with work for facebooking...but now that I'm really trying to do my job, I'm feeling more confident and getting my work done much more efficiently and a lot sooner too. So that's another good thing I have going for me.

There are a few other things I could list but I feel like I'm boring you with my growing happiness.

Okay, well I'm gonna get going. Shoveling awaits! =(

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Another foot of snow? are you freaking kidding me?!?!
I am going nuts! I cannot wait for the summer! =(
Pretty soon the snow with be well over my head. I'm only 5'1"...we got nearly 3' last weekend overtop of the 2-3" we had originally plus the 10-20" we'll be getting today.
I should make a maze out of my front yard. That would be fun. Though my father is a freak and hates when you walk on his pretty snow! The other day, I was helping him shovel and we had to put the salty slushy snow at the bottom of the pile and then cover it with white powdery snow so that it would "look nice"...
My father is NUTS!!!! D=

I have no idea what a good baby shower gift is to get people. I got a thing or two yesterday and when I showed my parentals what I got they basically discredited everything.
I'm sorry I got Diapers for 27lb babies. I figured they'd need them eventually!!!
and The Pj's I got for 4 year old toddlers were too good to pass up because they had AWESOME dinosaurs on them. I wish I could find a set in MY size. haha.
the kid will eventually wear that too.
I don't know. I Thought it was a great gift.

I was EXTREMELY tempted to get this singing potty training toilet. haha. It looked pretty flippin' sweet! I can only imagine that its so effective because it scares the children shitless. haha.


John Travolta was quite kick ass in From Paris With Love. Though I can't say the movie was GREAT. Its a typical action movie. He certainly made the movie worth seeing, though. I saw the movie last night. probably the best time I'll have all week. =/

Stupid snow.

Anyway...I have to get back to work. Today is DRAGGING!!!!!!

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My goal is to gather all three cats...and get them to sleep in my bed tonight
Our heater picked the best time to stop working. When we get three feet of snow. =/
Stupid. So my plan is to get my cats to sleep in my bed for body warmth...
Though I can't really complain. Some people don't even have electric power right now
:/I feel like a douche if I'm going to complain about being a little cold when I still have the power to watch TV and cook and take a hot shower and things....not that I watch a lot of TV at home. Normally I never watch TV at home
I read and draw and things

--ahhh. One cat jumped into bed willingly. Now how do I lure the other two in?
I'd say snacks but both cat's are on diets for being too overweight

Erlack! now I have to shovel ALL day tomorrow.
Better get some shut eye, I guess.

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