you've got to get better,
said, it's all in your head,
we could live through these letters
or forget it altogether,
see the months they dont matter
its the days i can't take
when the hours move to minutes
and i'm seconds away,

just ask the question come untie the knot
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
retrace the steps, as if we forgot,
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
you try to avoid it, but there's not a doubt
and there's one thing i can do nothing about...

-New American Classic,
Taking Back Sunday

That's all I have to say for now.
over and out.

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passwords make me feel protected. not really...

ever so sweet, you baked it in cakes for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i have that song stuck in my head. so many songs! jeeze i'm losing track...once again not really but i like the word track.

i swear my brother is trying to blow out his ear drums. he always has the volume up soooooooooooo damn loud. ergh. brothers. oh yeah ahahahahaha my mom found the condoms in his drawer. FINALLY i swear i found those forever ago. she asked him about it and i could just hear him laughing. it was hilarious.

blah don't know what else to say. i'll write later. and i keep making edits instead of entries.

over and out

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woo hoo! brit and steph our band is going to be awesome. AWESOME and i love the song you wrote brittany!!!! i'm actually coming to like the lyrics i wrote too. which is good cause i can't stand most of them so woo hoo! it's a good day! and brian is going to make our website ahaha brittany didnt even know who he was. sorry bud you got shut down. ahahahaha. we still need a drummer though. i like don't know anybody who plays the drums. anybody have any suggestions?

e-dit

Susan LickMyWang...lol i love my mom shes insane but i love her.

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listening to: New Found Glory

its 5:01 AM...i lost the whole sleeping thing again but i'll get back to it eventually. hopefully before school starts which is September 7th. ay yi yi...high school...i think it's actually gonna be a good year.

oh my just burped. ha i love burping. just thought you all should know.

hmm what to say what to say...oh! i watched mortal kombat yesterday. haven't seen that movie in a long while. that game was pretty awesome though. i love when the scorpion guy(i think thats his name, the yellow ninja dude) says "GET OVER HERE" in that strange evil man voice. it's funny to watch that movie again because it seemed so real when i was little. not like real as in it actually happened but as in the special effects looked real. compared to what they are now that movie is shit.

for some reason i've really wanted a car lately. i want to be able to drive, even though i'll probably hit somebody...i can't even back out of my driveway...saemyi is so lucky! grr she already took drivers ed and i still have to wait a year to take it. terribly sad. i think i want a car so i can just get out of my house and just drive around for the hell of it.

haha megan i loved your comments on the passworded entry and yes when you get back we will get together and figure some stuff out as to what we should do.

i hate that stupid windows media thing that pops up most of the time so i'm sorry about that but i kind of like when the songs start automatically so i guess you all will have to deal with it. at least until im really annoyed with it.

hmmm it's weird how a lot of the songs i've been listening to lately seem to fit right in with the situation i'm in at the moment...hehe all in good fun.

not much else to say at the moment. i don't even know how i just made an entry.

over and out

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I found this somewhere...

Perfect Guy Would Do

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.

3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.

4. Give you the remote control during the game.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hands always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.

10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.

15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.

16. Smile a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just
because he knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.

21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.

22. Sing, even if he can't.

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason.

26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.

^To me that is so not the perfect guy. I don't think there's such a thing but if there was he should just love me for who I am and as I am. He would want to just hang out with me, listen to music, and watch movies. Oh and hug me of course =) I love hugs. The perfect guy would know I don't care about flowers or gifts or some fancy date, he would just want to be with me as I would with him...

ha uhm yeah...that was kind of random I guess but it's how I feel so whatever...I'll write more later.

over and out.

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hehe heard the killers on the end today. yahoo. i'm starting to like them. i heard another band this morning called secret machines. i really like them too. the drummer guy is awesome! anyways howdy.

i stepped on a tack, and the needle part or whatever its called went all the way into the bottom of my heal. and when i pulled it out i guess the tip of the needle was bent so it hurt like the dickens. also this morning i was laying on my bed and i must have miscalculated space because all of a sudden i roll over and i'm on the ground. another start to another great day...

woo hoo! i cleaned my room folks. for me to clean my room is a miracle and i got rid of a lot of stuff too. it feels good to let go! i just can't wait to paint my room and get everything done with it. i'm getting digital cable in my room today. it's kind of cool cause i'll get to watch degrassi but i don't really need it. i'm hardly in my room and i don't watch a lot of t.v. it's weird. i don't watch a lot of t.v. i'm not on the computer all the time (although nutang sometimes says i'm on when i'm not...) and only occasionally i'll sit down and read so i don't know where my time is spent during the day. all of a sudden it's time to go to bed and i just don't get it.

i talked to megan yesterday! yay! i miss her but shes lucky to go to cali so yippee for her.

i'm gonna go for now until i figure out something else to say. but oh yeah taking back sunday is coming october 7 & 8 and Yellowcard and The Starting Line are coming october 20 i think. october looks like a fun month. i'm not sure who's playing with taking back sunday it might be story of the year which would be awesome. ok i said i was gonna go so i am. ta ta.

Wait a tic, i'm sorry if my page takes a little bit to load cause of the damn music changer and that that windows media thing usually pops up. i'm gonna try and find the code that will make it so a song doesn't start automatically but i just have to remember where i found the code i have in the first place...

over and out.

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Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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i saw the village today. i really can't decide if i liked it or not. it was weird. i definitely liked signs better. this movie was good i guess but the end pissed me off to the extreme. i don't want to give away what happened but its expected but unexpected. and adrian brody was hilarious. it's kind of mean for me to say that cause he was playing like a retarded person but his parts made me laugh except when he...well nevermind. all i have to say though is Joaquin Phoenix Is One Fine Piece Of Ass haha i love him! hes hot and hes a good actor. sigh overall though i think i'd say rent this movie. oh yeah and the *ones they don't speak of* were completely stupid completely stupid.

went shopping today. SHOPPING! THANK GOD OH HOW I LOVE TO SHOP. i went to pacsun. my goodness if i had enough money i'd buy one of every girl item at that store. but i don't have enough money so all i got was a hurley sweatshirt and a tilt longsleeve plaid thing. ha i don't know how to describe it but i love it. maybe i'll post a pic later. oh yeah i also got some perfume called lilu. i actually found a perfume that i like which is crazy. i usually don't care about that girly kind of stuff. i mean sometimes i'll get all girlyish but most of the time i'm more into what the guys are doing. which is strange because most of my friends are girls and i only have a few really good guy friends. blah im rambling again.

oh yeah though i put on my plaid shirt thing and my brother goes "your hella gay"...my brother said hella. HELLA. ONE OF THE WORDS I REALLY CAN'T STAND. WHAT THE HELL DOES HELLA MEAN. SERIOUSLY WHO DECIDED TO ADD AN A AT THE END OF HELL AND PUT IN FRONT OF OTHER STUPID WORDS. jeeze had to get that out of my system. oh and he just flipped me off...bastard.

i'll add more later. i'm really tired right now. HAHA IM TIRED YEEHA!

over and out.

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i love music.

i just realized my other entry has 17 comments made by only like 4 people. lol. thats always fun.

Ranting Time

hmmm im really shy when i meet people but i get louder and louder as time moves on. and i can get really bitchy too. if you piss me off i won't back down. i love that though even if i should shut my mouth sometimes its good to stand up for what you believe in. the ring lindsay bought me from pike place keeps falling off...is that good or bad? i need medical attention. i'm sick...in my brain. i can't find my NERD t-shirt. i know where my I Love Nerds t-shirt is but my nerd one has disappeared. i like that one too cause it's green. i'm going to redo my room...again. ha i just painted it green less than a year ago i think. now im gonna paint it a dark grey/blue color and get white bedding and tear up my carpet so i have wood flooring. *sigh* i'll post pics when i get around to doing it. right now my room is very messy. well not very messy but theres a bunch of baskets with dirty clothes stuff to keep and get rid of. all that junk. the silver screen is a good band. i like their kind of music the best i think. i just wish they had more than 2 songs to download. i want an electric guitar. i want to learn how to play my guitar. Brittany's back i think but she hasn't been online. oh well i'll talk to her later. been writing more lyrics lately just not posting it cause i don't feel like it. i wrote something today i really like but it's not finished. i'm thirsty i want some water. i don't know how to clean the filter though. anybody know how to clean the filter of a britta type thing? I'm caught in your stare lost in the sea of blue another good line God these people are good. hehe. as of the moment i don't like anybody but i hate when i do. what a shitty feeling. it's supposed to be good i guess but i don't like it. at all. most of the time you like somebody who likes somebody else and so on. it's like a web of feelings. that was completely fruity but i don't care. i need to watch queer eye. ha i love that show those are some dirty gay men they always have naughty jokes but it's all good. i think it's funny. blah. i have to do laundry now. lucky me. oh and i hope you had fun reading this. probably not though.

over and out.

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IT'S 4:52 IN THE GOD DAMN MORNING. IM SO TIRED OF THIS SLEEPING PROBLEM.

$EDIT$

AHAHAHAHA I AM VICTORIOUS! I SLEPT FROM MIDNIGHT TIL 10 THIS MORNING AHAHAHA VICTORY IS SWEET MY FRIENDS VICTORY IS SWEET.

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