I like the bubbles. They're not the same as the ones I used to have on my other two names, but I like them. I could have made it so that the bubbles were going through the words too, but I figured it'd be easier to read what's written if the background on the words was a solid color. Anywho, I had a weird, but nice, dream the other night about this guy who I knew in high school, and one of my ex-boyfriends was in it too. And since then I haven't been able to get the image of him out of my head. The dream was about this guy Nelson, who was cute and really sweet and cool to everyone. He was one of those guys that I only really hung out with in class and nowhere else. But he was still a friend. The dream was about him living out here and finding out that I lived out here too so we decided we were gonna get together. So one morning he called me up and asked if I was gonna be home and since it happened to be one of my days off I said sure; that I wasn't going anywhere. Now the part where my exboyfriend was in the dream was that he and his girlfriend lived a few apts down from me. And that I knew he lived there and who he was, but he couldn't recognize me. I don't really know why he didn't but it was my dream and I guess I chose for him to not recognize me. Anywho, as I was waiting outside for Nelson to get to my place, Mike {the ex} was standing outside trying to play it off that he wasn't concentrating on figuring out who I was, but I knew. So I went back inside for a few minutes and then came back out and he was still there. So finally he said that I looked familiar to him but he couldn't figure out who I was. Since I knew who he was, I decided to fuck with his head. I'd play it off that if he didn't know me from work then he must not know me at all. And this went on for a few minutes, till Nelson showed up. So I said goodbye to Mike and then explained to Nelson who that was and why I was laughing. Just as me and Nelson were getting 'comfortable' Erin called and woke me up. So don't know how the dream would have gone. And since that night every time I lay down and close my eyes I see Nelson. But whatever. I know that I'm not going to see him ever. I mean I probably won't even ever find him to talk to him. I already looked on Myspace to see if he was on there and he's not. At least if he is then its not that easy to find him. That's why I have a lot of doubt about seeing or talking to him. So today was payday. I didn't really get that much, but its enough to pay the rent and get food for the next two weeks. I went to Blockbuster too. I got the first two dics of Entourage Season Two. They don't have Season One there so I might have to look into doing the online thing with them. I'm not sure. I also got my KFMA Fall Ball ticket for this year. I went last year, for my b-day cuz it was like 4 days before my b-day and I wanted to go. This year its at the end of September and I'm gonna hafta put in my day off that I want. This way I can go. This year I shouldn't have a problem with having to leave early cuz Katie can stay out longer. Other than that I don't think anything else too exciting happened today. At least not important enough to write about. Thomas is still out on the ocean; I think he'll be back this weekend sometime. I'm working Sunday night closing, which I haven't done in a while cuz I hate it. But this time is only once and it shouldn't be too bad cuz of who I'm working with. Alright I think I'm gonna go play some games and if I have more to write I'll be back on later.

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Its quarter after three in the morning right now and I'm not really tired. I've been up since 8 in the morning and I worked most of the day. I don't have to work tomorrow otherwise I would have been long since asleep. But the fact that I'm not tired is what's getting me. Anywho, I asked Gary if he could get me some beer and bring it by after he got off work and he did. He didn't show up till like 12:30 but that's fine I was still awake. We each had one. So I have 4 more bottles of Nimbus left in my fridge. This way when I do want a beer I have it. When I have like a really shitty day I can come home and have one. He stayed for a while and we watched the last hour of The Incredibles. LoL. It was the only thing on and it was already 45 min it when he got here. So he just sat and watched the rest of it with me. I was talking to Thomas again today. I killed my phone again just simply from txting him ... for a couple hours straight. Oh well. I wish I lived closer to him. Or that he was stationed out closer to me, but being in the navy, he's not gonna be stationed near a desert. That would be weird. He said he was gonna try and come out for my 21st. This way we can run wild thru Vegas and not have to worry about age. I can't emphasize enough how much I'm looking forward to that day. But I think I said enough about it in another entry so I'm not gonna go on forever about it. Grr... sure now I start yawning. Alright I think I'm gonna actually lay down and try and get some sleep. I'll write again later.

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Even though I still have just over a year before I'm 21 I can't wait. I'm looking so unbelievably forward to my 21st b-day its unreal. I'm hoping maybe Thomas will be able to come out to Vegas for that weekend at least so that we can see eachother and so that we can drink together. He knows a little more about drinks than I do so he could help me with which one's are the best and which ones to stay away from. I hate that I have to wait. But I've always been an impatient person so this isn't any different. I know that I like Thomas, but its not that much. I can go without talking to him and it won't affect me in any way. Shit I went years without talking to him and it didn't affect me in any way, shape or form. I only found him through myspace cuz I was curious. I wasn't sure if he would even be on myspace. But he was and I found him. So I'm not sure how much this counts towards liking someone, but I don't count it as anything. He's on the other side of the country and I don't even know if I'm going to see him ever. So I guess he's just someone I talk to online and through texting. I don't call him. I called him once to explain something that would have taken too much time to explain in a text. I'm bored with this place. I'm not really bored with work anymore cuz I think its official now. I'm a manager. So that brings on a whole new list of bullshit I have to deal with. But I'm bored with my life. I need some new shit. I would like to buy new stuff for my apt and rearrange stuff. Its been the same since I've been in here. Sure my TV has gotten bigger and I have a comp, but other than that it's all been in the same place. I don't really know what I want to do, but I know that I want to do something. Alright I have no clue what else to say. I'll write later.

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I know that I said I was completely done with Joey, and I originally wasn't going to write anything about it, but I kinda have to. I did it again. I gave in to what I wanted. And this time he didn't really tempt me. I just kinda wanted it. I was thinking and it just sorta happened. But this time, if the rumors start again, I'm ready for them. I know the shit I'm going to say. But hopefully I won't have to resort to the comebacks. Anywho, its ten after 2 in the morning right now, I have to work tomorrow and I'm not going to bed for another hour. I'm watching Dave Attell's Insomniac Tour. Its on Comedy Central's Secret Stash so its uncut and uncensored. I've been wanting to watch it uncut and uncensored for a while cuz I love Dane Cook. But since I've been working all the damn time I've always been just so tired that I fall asleep before I get to Dane's part. But tonight I will triumph!! I won't be falling asleep until after its over. I'll be staying on the comp until its over. This way I know I'll be up till the end. My vision is starting to get blurry and my eyes are getting dry {even with my glasses on} so I know I'm tired, but I'm not letting it get to me. I still seem to be able to type ok, which is a good sign. LoL, but now that I've said that I'm going to be messing up. Oh great now the yawning is starting. Man I only have 45 minutes left to go. I will make it!! Alright I'm starting to not make sense and I'm repeating my self and Dane's bit is coming on right now anyway. I'll write again later on.

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Fuck this town. Fuck this state. I'm so damn sick of this place. I'm so ready to get out of here its unreal. But unfortunately I'm stuck here for at least another year cuz I just renewed my lease. But whatever. This is kinda good cuz it'll give me the time to save up money and the time to go out to Vegas and look into getting an apt and a job. This way I'll have something to go out to once my lease is up. I won't have to search. When I go out there in December I'm gonna be making my first step into moving and that's getting my license and looking at cars. I'm sick of living here. I'm sick of almost everyone here that I know. Almost. There are a few cool people, but other than that no one is worth staying here. I'm not seeing anyone and even though part of me wants to, fuck it. If I'm moving then there's no point right? Alright I know that my bitching wasn't very long, but I guess that's a good thing. And I got it straight to the point so there's really no reason to keep repeating myself. I'll write again later and hopefully I'll have better shit to say.

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I've been having these really weird dreams lately. I don't remember all of them, I just remember that they're weird. Like last night. I fell asleep thinking about Richard, but it ened up in something weird with people that I didn't even know and in a place that I've never been to. I mean I knew them and the place in my dream, but in reality I have no clue. And most of the time once I actually wake up I don't remember anything in the dream. I dunno. I know that I'm not the only one who has weird dreams that I can't remember. I kinda want to remember some of them so that I can write about it, but it always works out in the way that I remember the ones I don't want to remember. Like the one I had the other night. I was out shopping with my manager for his little nephew's b-day gift. I don't know why. It was weird as hell. I knew the person in that dream. When I do have dreams with people that I know its usually in a place that I seem sto know, but there's no way in hell the other people would be there. Like I had a dream once with a few of my coworkers, but we were all hanging out in Florida somewhere. I don't remember where exactly, but I know that we were in Florida. Its highly unlikely for all of us to be coincidentally all in the same place somewhere else in the country. The odds of running into someone from Mojave in Vegas are higher than me and some of my coworkers hanging out in another state. Oh well. I don't really know what else to say so I'll write later when I do.

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