I went out for a nice stroll tonite. I love the cool calm night breeze. I love the obscurity of the night. I always find myself staring at the sky and wondering if true happiness is really as impossible to reach and infinatly far away as the stars.

I should go to sleep now. I need to go jogging agian 2morrow morning. Sleep is so awesome. I sooo wish i could get more of it...

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I'm so jealous of my 2 other roomates. All they do is sleep, eat, and watch Friends and Sex in the City. Well, i take that back...i'm not jealous because i don't want act like a bum. I guess i just wish i had easy, stress-free classes like them.

Sunday brunch was really good. Either it was because i was starving from not eating for 2 days, or it was just really good. Probably both...

I felt like i needed to do something crazy with my hands last night...(hey...not that u perv)...anyways, i decided to releive my stress by trying to use up all the ink in my pen(i only use uni ball vision elite pens...wow, i just made myself sound so anal). I ended up annoying the crap out of everyone with pen scratching noises, but i felt better afterwards: Click here if ya want to see it. Check out my other pics too if ya have time...i added a couple tonite....just click on "mae" on the top left corner.

Ahhh...i need to study cuz i've got a chem exam 2morrow! And then i have to do a Nut lab, where we'll be burning nuts in the lab, i really want to say that i'm allergic to nuts and can't attend.

Me and Reb. went to beadworks near starbucks, where they millions of beads and such to create your own jewelry. We were in there for over an hour, so many people...i felt really dizzy...but i made some green earings. I'm not crafty at all, it took way way too much effort. Oh well, at least i can say i that i made it myself....or should i? It doesn't look that great, lol. I just read this entry...and its so incoherent at, oh well, this is intended for my own.

Oh..and one other thing...Starbucks has their new Frappacino Light...only 110 calories...just don't get the mocha frapps, hehe

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Its really sad when something you say turns out to be taken completly differently from what you meant...seems like my day hasn't ceased to become more miserable...tears up*

I'm so homesick...i want to be able to drive my car with the moonroof down with the wind on my face when i can't sleep at nights, I miss the feeling of adrenaline i get driving, i miss my friends, i miss the smell of the ocean and being constantly kissed by warm rays of the sun, i miss going to Flaming Amy's to get Burritos, i miss the comfort of knowing that i'll always belong and be welcomed there, i miss all that there is to miss...

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God! I feel horrible, like i'm stuck in slow motion while the world around me is going warp speed leaving me in its dust, everything good seems to leave me eventually, i can never hold on. Its like one of those plastic water filled toys with a hole in the middle....where more tightly you hold on, the faster it slips away from your hands.

Each time the world passes me by, it takes a part of me with it, each time its more painful, i become more empty....why is half of of my world always missing? I hate living like this, i feel like a ghost...a shadow. What have i done to deserve such cruelty?!!! I'm in such infinite pain right now that i can't even begin to describe or materialize in words, much less cease to. I would rather be stabbed my a thousand knives, at least then, the pain...everything...would eventually end.

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Serendipidy, such an inredible word.... too bad it was ruined by the bad movie Serendipity with John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale.

Professor Davis was talking about the word. Serendipity is not just a lucky accident as it is popularily defined. It actually means when you're looking for something, but come across something so much better. And thats how science is like almost all of the time. The best discoveries are made when you're not looking for them.

The word comes from the the Persian fairy tale The Three Princes of Serendip(persia or modern day Sri Lanka) who made incredible and unexpected discoveries by accident. Ahh...i'm so distracted, i can't even finish writing this....i'm gonna go take a shower.

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HAHA....i just got back from the bathroom...theres a guy proctor on the 5th floor that always walks to the bathroom around 7ish in tiny boxers and he's got a nice ass. haha..anyways

Chem is really starting to drive me craaazy. Last night, i had a dream where every situation involved formulas and math and of course i coudn't solve any of them, so none of the situations ever had an outcome. ahh!!! It was horrible and just so wierd...like those dreams where u end up falling into like...this black hole and you wake with a weightless jolt going...WTF? i'm never doing chem right before i sleep ever agian!

OMG...the funniest thing just happened! I was walking form the mailroom and i met the really cute guy that saved my life the first day i got here by helping carry my luggage. We didn't say anything, but he was glancing back and thats how I regcognzed him. And then he turned around and walk back the other way and it startled me soo much that i kinda jumped. The look on my face was probably soooo funny!

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