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I'm a little teen girl,boiling hot.
Don't tick me off or you'll get shot.
When I get pissed off, you will rot.
This has been a lesson well taught.

This poem/rhyme has been brought to you by the letter "PMS" and the number "3".

Yeah... Don't mess with this PMSer... Cha!!!! Times like these make me want a penis.... and I am sucha bitch. Deal with it.

Aside from my angry moment.. I heart Kasey and she fills me with joy!! I think I shall go snoogle her to death... Well, not death. I'd miss her too much. <3


"My dearest friend, if you don't mind I'd like to sit by your side. Where we can gaze into the stars.. and sit together, now and forever. For it is plain as anyone can see... We're simply meant to be" <3

xxKris

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mood: Stalked
listening to: "Just A Memory" Rufio
He's become obsessed and now I find mehself cringing everytime I think of him. >.> He isn't getting through his, evidentally thick head, that I don't like him. And by him using cheesy pick-up lines and being obsessed isn't gonna win meh over!!!! RAWR! I should take Kasey's advice and tell him I have a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong.. I love that child, but only as a friend.

Love trully is a wonderful thing, but only when it's shared between two people... not when only one person feels the connection. Although, it can be hell at times too... but I can't wait to experience the ever-existing giddyness again. I have a minor case of it right now, but oh twell... You guys don't need to hear me rant about Kasey... Heh. I so heart her though!!! *looks at rainbow ring and twists it around with her finger* -sigh- I just wish I could take away her pain, like she's taken away mine.. It hurts meh to see her all saddened... *emo tear*

"The though of loving you might scare me,
but, my dear, please don't blame me.
Examples of love have flooded my past,
each one glazed with misery."

Sometimes I think I should stop being such an emo poet.. XD

xxKris

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Day three of le anti-kaseyness

I feel so bleh right about now... >.< Someone confessed there love for meh today and I don't even have feelings for them... They tell me that they've never loved a person more in their life and at that moment I want to drop dead. Why must he give meh the guilt trip after me telling him that I don't share those same feelings with him? It's like it's human nature to want to guilt someone into caring for you... Maybe if he makes meh feel bad enough for him, I could go out with him for pity... Even though I'd never do that... I think that's what he wants....

He says he's selfish for telling meh. He thought by telling meh, he could have meh all to himself... Something went wrong in that thought process... I hadn't talked to him in 2 months and all of the sudden he says he loves meh? It all confuses meh muy mucho.

He wrote a song about me... erm... yeah. Wow... bleh. x.x;
"Krista Miller, you're the one
You're the only one I love
You're my number one girl
You are my world
You love acoustics
And emo songs
So is me singing is to you so wrong?
Krista, you're the one
You're so hot like a smoking gun
Krista, you're the one
You're so much fun."

Yeah... I thought it was a joke, but nope... o.o;;;;

Anyhoo, last night was total woahness. I never knew I cared so much for a certain person. I knew I cared, but wow... I didn't know I cared so much to the point that hearing something that didn't favor meh would trigger meh into writing a story and crying??? I guess I was trying to hide the emotion so much that it surprised me, but now I am willing to show it in front of the entire world... erm... or whoever reads this blog. I so heart Kasey.

Not that it wasn't obvious before, but she's amazing. I haven't talked to her today though and that makes meh sad... *tear* I wonder if she's even thinking of meh.... I hope everything turned out okay for her though and I hope that she made the right decision... The one that would make her happy. Mucho luck to her.


"You are calm and repose. It lets your beauty unfold. Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins." <3

xxKris

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There once was a girl... She was different then everyone else and everyone tried to pin her down... put a label on her. She was a kaleidoscope of images.... It was all in the eye of the beholder. To one person she was a freak, to the next she was... dare I say... beautiful.

This girl had no care in the world but to love, and be loved. She didn't care what the fellow world thought of her as long as that one person, her person, could think of her as that beautiful image in which few saw in that scope of choices. She was no fortune teller, nor was she perfect. She never saw that once day her person would change... Their image would mold into something she never dare would let herself see.....

You could imagine that the poor girl would change. She cried her lonely nights to sleep... She was confused and mortified that her one person... or what she thought to be her person would change their shape in that scope... She didn't know whether to move on or to hold onto this hopeless dream she had kept close to her heart for years upon end... She thought her "forever after" was washed away...

To her surprise she'd meet a mirror image of herself, only more beautiful and more exquisite... That image she saw would guide her into a land where she to, could think for herself and be happy without thinking. She could stop thinking about her once lost person and move onto something better... maybe something made for her. She let her heart guide her and didn't think a bit. For all she knew, thinking only drove her into her mental cage.. a trap set by her old dreams.

Seeing the happiness, she became attached to that image and held it close to her heart. She would grip so tight, that maybe she would get too attached... Maybe that image was so close that it was possibly unlocking the once shattered pits of her heart... It became a band-aid and it helped her heal..

Her heart would lie to her though... That one image that she saw could make her happy, less confused, and in complete bliss for a short moment, but would be taken away by one innocent soul... A soul that didn't know that their decision would change the fate of something that could be...

The image would fade like a shadow in the dark.... It would drift slowly, but surely out of her reach and she would have to learn to be happy on her own, but that would take time... Now she is stuck typing this story about her never happy ending watching her fingers slip on the fallen tears.

All she can do is hope... And maybe one day her true person will come. Until then she just prays that, that "image" will not be a mirror image of what she is now. Crying.

xxKris

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mood: Happeh, in a sense
listening to: "If I told you this was killing me, would you stop?" Juliana Theory

Day one of le anti-kaseyness... O.o

Cha... So I went to sleep at 4 last night and had really wierd, oddly twisted dreams. Is it bad to have a dream about a Care Bear turning into Ronald McDonald... and then Ronald molesting you right before you wake up in a cold sweat? I hate that damn clown. *dies*

Your future is like a rainbow.. You want to find the end of it. You have the need to find out what happens. But the more you search, and the more you get closer.... the further it gets. It always moves. You never once know where it will end... And as beautiful as it may seem sometimes, you have to remember it will soon fade after the light stops shining. Being naive sucks.....

I finally got to talk to meh Kaseh!!!!! I had no hope in talking to her. I thought I would drive myself insane. I felt so alone being alone and just sitting there, so I baked brownies and played neopets with Jessica....because yew all know I have such a life. But then I noticed she was on and it was all like yey!!! Meh Kaseh! So I am uber happeh and content right now. I still miss the fact that we didn't talk all day, but it's better than nothing...correct? Yes indeed.

Soon she will be at home, and my thoughts will be at rest. Until then I cannot ignore, the pained heart beating in my chest. <|3

xxKris

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