Once i start to think im not confused anymore i go and get more confused its a visous circle, but im not goin to lie talkin on this helps me cause i looove to tell people my problems. Well the past few days ive def been happier and more productive, rory is def right we need to chill out and let things happen natuarly, because its been realy tough when we try to make things work i feel this not talkin has help me a lot and im interested to see what happens, who knowss with this situation, if feel so much less stress and im sure she does too and but hey things cant get worse. and im goin to end on a good note track has been goin awsome i cant wait for the season to start and i expect anyone who actualy reads my page to come to a meet this year! i can wait for break who wants to run with me?

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I cant clear my head, i cant concentrate on anything, and it sucks. I dont know why its so tough, i feel the only thing i can do is complain, at least typing here may help a little bit, gets it off me for a litle while, im sure no one reads this anyways, im preety boring lately on this and in general, nothin exciting happens anymore and when something does half way though there is always something to put me in a bad mood, well as much as i want to stop trying why should i? is quitung goin to help noo, so i guess i just wait it out i just hope that there is more to life then waiting, i feel like in the time spent waiting so much more could be done, im sure none of this makes sense but makes me feel better so im off to class now porbably will day dream the whole time but hey its somethin to do while i wait

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Its weird im been so much happier lately. I help so alone and stuff this weekend and was upset about everything but ive been happy the past 3 days esp yesterday, i think its a combination of things. The way things are goin good with rory right now def helps alot. Then theres track which is just awsome this year, like i dont like haveing days off, and i know seriously who likes to run? I do thats for sure. IM not goin to lie though im getting tired of all the school and work thing i watched office space the other day and it made me wnat to do notihn, yes just nothin sit around and watch tv. I cant wait for thanksgiving and winter break, ill finaly get good food and not over pay for it, see my frineds, and most of all do absolutly nothing. Well thats all for now im goin to go do some nothing be lunch

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I am so confused right now. I have no idea what to do, or what to do in the mean time. My mind is not straight, i cant concentate on anything it is always wondering to another place, the worset thing is i know what i need but im afarid i may have lost that and as hard as i try to get it back i just get more confused. I know what i have to do but i just cant do it. This confused feeling makes me feel so alone and i hate it. there is nothin worse than feeling alone. I know i cnat stay feelin like this for ever but when is goin to stop? i hate being confused and worse of all i hate not knowing.

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prompted by rory i have to decided to make an entry, while sitting here bored out of my mind at work, im not goin to lie i work the shittest shifts, sun and monday night 9 till 12. anywys this was a good weekend i went home saw the fam and and got to hangout wiht some cute girl but i forgot her name. for everyone concered i have learned how to eat again. i ate well at home fondo and pumpkin pie, i relay missed eating. then i went to uconn went to teds and played cards, im hopefuly goin to a tourny on nov1. overall the outcome of this weekend was a plus i got to see al my friends and fam and figured a lot of stuff, i feel things are only goin toimprove from here, plus now that track has started i can wait to run tomrrow, honestly though who likes running, oh yea i do. ONly down side to this weekend is rory told me im to sinky, i disagree but i did eat 2 piece of pizza and a grill cheese to fatten up a bit. alright thats a good start for postin lets see if i can keep it up. hopfully illget some comments keep up my moral.

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Hey Im Paul and this is my first entry in here. I go to Stonehill College where I run track.

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