it has been such a long time since i last post my entry. man! i am just not a hardworking blogger.

year 2007 is going to end soon in 3 months time, and i believe that some of the people are getting more and more busy as the year is reaching its end.

students having end of year exams, teachers finding ways to improve students' results and also to mark their test papers. accountants have to pass up their accounting reports of the year to their boss and business people summing up the profit and expenses of the year.

there are also some companies that set up a end of year party to thank their employees and to encourage them to work harder next year.

ok, i might be just a student but gosh, those end of year are just difficult to cope with especially when i am always studying at the last minute.

i need to pass this year, if not i will have to take another year of foundation in here, and NO, i don't want that. i will miss my friends and i will suffer with all those subjects again and again. repeating a year is a very miserable thing for me, so i don't want that and that means i have to really really really really work hard for it.

so, haha, all the best to me!!!

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sometimes, i really like listening to songs. there are always some really nice songs that can sing out that unbearable frustrations that i can never express out. songs are sometimes a really good way of conveying some message to some person,(provided correct song is chosen). love, sorrow, guilty, regrets... and everything. songs can really be a short drama with a whole loads of emotions, rather than those dramas on television that build up those emotions step by step.

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王子

张栋梁

灰色的天空落下了悲伤
伪装了兵荒马乱遍地伤
沉默的月光惆怅着过往
泛黄了江山红窗泪激昂
一步一步踏着腐败
一口一口吸进尘埃
独自一人孤军奋战模糊的未来
我是孤傲的王子做我的故事
用泪稀释的往事渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式尽情放肆
☆歌词提供:张保湖
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我独自一步一步一步
一步地踏着腐败
一口一口一口
一口地吸进尘埃
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待
独自一步一步一步
一步地踏着失败
一口一口一口
一口地拒绝伤害
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待

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i am feeling rather down today because of some problems. i don't know what to do and i really wish i could tell someone about it. but in the end, i just keep convincing myself that i was at fault for everything and i have no right to cry at all. i know that no matter how well i can describe or how understanding a person can be, he or she will never know how i really truly felt in this position of the situation. so i gave up telling people what happened and just pretend nothing happened. maybe, at times, hiding in the mask is much more better than i thought. at least under my mask, i find the 'comfort' in me, rather than the insecureness without my mask.

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Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to take over the whole bed. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations. If you don't get enough sleep, you are: In a very bad mood It's hard to sleep next to you because: You hog the covers.

What Your Pizza Reveals

Your appetite is pretty average. You don't go overboard - but you don't deprive yourself either. You are a very picky pizza eater. Not any pizza will do. You fit in best in the Northeast part of the US. You like food that's traditional and well crafted. You aren't impressed with "gourmet" foods. You are dependable, loyal, and conservative with your choices. You are cultured and intellectual. You should consider traveling to Vienna. The stereotype that best fits you is upper class preppy. You don't anything too ordinary or vulgar.

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind. You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life. Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling. And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

You Are 4% Hypochondriac

While your physical health isn't always perfect, you don't freak out about it. You know there's only so much you can do, and worrying doesn't change anything.

You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

You Are An Orange Girl

You live in the fast lane. You love action, risk, and competition. You're spontaneous, enthusiastic, and persuasive. But you're also easily bored - and love to rebel against structures. You resent rules ... as well as people's attempts to control you!

can these tests really show who a person really is??
are they telling facts?or just nonsenses??
why are there so many tests nowadays??
to let people be aware of themselves??
to kill the boredom in them?
or their existences are just evidence
that people are not aware of themselves well enough??

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i suddenly have the urge to write a sad sad love story. so here goes:

he falls in love with a girl
but he never tried to woo her
his friends knew he liked her
so they helped him
they do whatever they can
to push them towards each other
and they finally succeed

they fell in love
but then
days later
he left her
without leaving a word

she keep searching for him
but there was no where he can be found
she searched for days and days
then months and months
then years and years
till her youth was totally wasted
he was still missing

then one day
someone came knocking on her door
and told her he found him
she was so happy
she just stop whatever she was doing
and follow that someone

they walked and walked and walked
she was getting more and more confused
for the road they walked
was getting more and more lonelier
till they reached the place

that someone brought her to a graveyard
and pointed to her a tombstone
and then he left

she cried
she was shocked
but she should have known
those gentle breeze when she was lonely
and those leaves that once danced around her

she should have known
that he has been around
the person she was looking for
was with her all the time

then she stopped crying
and leaned her face towards the stone
as though she was listening to something
even though it was total silence
she stayed there
till she felt that it was time to go

ever since that day
she never went to visit his grave again



the end

ok...i don't think it's a sad story anymore
maybe just a very normal story
anyway...
enjoy.

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