Thursday. 5.27.04 8:55 pm
As you can tell I love my girlfirend amber very much. Last night we had a fight. I got very upset, not angry but upset at everything happening in my life at the time. It's hard to explain the ways I was feeling at the time. Anyways I hung up on her, needless to say less than a minute later I called her back to apologize to her. I can't stand the fact of me hurting her. She means the fucking world to me. She is not just a girlfriend but my best friend also. I really can't imagine a life without her. She is everything to me. U ever hear the song "Reason for me" by Hoobastank. Yeah right there is the way I feel about her. I hope to someday marry her, have children with her, and grow old with her. I pray to god everynight that she sticks by me and feels the same way about me. Basically I love her with all my heart, and I wake up everyday for her. Amber Dawn I love you. Comment! (1) | Recommend!
Tuesday. 5.25.04 8:35 am
These are some lyrics to one of my favorite songs, these lyrics are deep and I feel this way sometimes.
This day on never will I look back on you,
Those memories are dormant
And every thought of you I'll see you in dreams,
Please don't let me sleep again,
Drop your eyes to the ground,
Stay the fuck away from me.
Those three words none existent forever you condemned,
In my perfect world your pain to me,
Your pain as great as gold.
In my perfect, you were never there,
But your words ran stale and you were never there.
This time I swear!!!!!!!!
There's hope for tomorrow!!!!!!!
You turned your eyes from me!!!!!!
And now I'm stronger without you!!!!!
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Saturday. 5.22.04 2:52 pm
Today I realized how good the old days were. The days were I didn't have a worry in the world. All I did was play in my band and party all the time. I remember getting fucked up everyday. I'll be honest I miss alot. I realize now though that it was just a phase. I mean I loved the feeling, but it was a false heaven. I used to go get fucked up and hang with friends...which was awsome except for the puking thing. I miss it alot and all my friends still do it...and it's hard not to do it, but I have been staying strong for my family and my girlfriend Amber. Sometimes I wonder how my life would be going if I still did drugs. I would probably be in jail. Haha. I got into trouble before and did not like it all. Me and a few friends got caught smoking pot at Lambs Lookout. I had to go to court and everything which sucked so bad. I thought I was going to jail. I was scared when it happened, but then again I was so high that it did not really matter to me. When I started to come down I cried like a 3 year old. That proves that even tough guys are babies!!!!!! Anyways things change for the better!!! I feel alot better about myself. And I'm making my family and girlfriend proud. And thats all that matters to me. I love you Amber. Comment! (0) | Recommend!
Wednesday. 5.19.04 8:59 pm
Wow, today was interesting. Well I woke up with a pounding at my door. I walk down stairs and theres a gun pointing point blank at my face. I about crapped my pants. It was the police. The started swearing and pushing me around asking were my sisters boyfriend was at. They threatened to arrest me and my family for no real reason at all. I dont really got much to say about it besides I was scared shitless.....and I was affraid to go to jail. So I went to school and had my girl come home with me to chill me out a little bit. She kept me busy until I had to take her back to school. After I took her back to school I watched an old 80's movie which intertained me greatly. Well anyways what a friggen day man. Peace. Comment! (0) | Recommend!
Monday. 5.17.04 6:17 am
Well Prom went good! It was a very stunning night to say the least, my girlfriend Amber looked awsome! She is so pretty. The day after prom was pretty horrible for me though. I had a few hours of sleep and shit was hitting the fan between me and my family. Ever since my father passed away things around my house have been so different. People have moved in my house and theres not much respect floating around either. I basically wish my life to be back normal. But I need to come to grips that thats never ever going to happen. I'm on the edge at all times. Feel like I got no where to go.....and I hate it so much. Comment! (0) | Recommend!
Saturday. 5.15.04 1:48 pm
Today is Prom day and I'm pretty siked! I can't wait to see Amber in her dress it's going to be awsome. At 2:30 we have dinner at Vinnies. Then I have to some how put on my tuxs. That shall be fun as hell! I cant wait to see Archie in a tux either. This is going to be a fun ass day lemme tell you. Anyways after prom we are going to a party at Ambers friends house. That shall be interesting also. Any ways I will let you know how it goes tommorow peace. I love you Amber. Comment! (0) | Recommend!
