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Name: JD or call me Ash Yip

Age:Turning 18 this year

School: TP Interactive media informatic(IMI)

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Jealousy is so ugly! =p
Tuesday. 4.21.09 11:03 am
Been doing fine and finally, got over things. Sprained my wrist few days ago and it was the part where my hand was operated on =( , pain pain,booo!. Have alot to update but forgot almost everything.

Only remembered i bought some clothes for my poly life.

Speaking of poly,the friends there is really different, the seh also different =x. Made some friends here and there,still talk very less as usual,shy quiet.


Yerp, the camp ended like last week. It was fun and tiring at the same time and guess what,i lost my bag on the last day. Supposed to go off at 1pm but drag till around 8 pm plus. What happened was i told my group leader that i have to go off after mass dance so i brought my bag along, i left it in the sports hall together with some people from business group. After the performance of the mass dance, my bag is gone and some OL offered help so they ask me go to the bedok reservoir first =p. After everything was done,went back to school and realized that they couldn't find it. We then went to sports hall to find it but couldn't find it so went back to LT. Started crying and some other people offered help to find with me and so we went back the the sports hall and thanks to one very smart guy and self proclaimed "cute" guy ask the security officer(i think so) whether he got see any black bagpack and yea, he did have it,some body return it and i guess this is also why the OL they has been finding it couldn't find it. Yerp, everything was intact except for the money =). And that lady and guy helped me again, lend me money to take cab home =D


Guess what, we became good friends =) I have faith in it.

Started to mingle with the girls and the boys asked me why i never follow them during breaks. =x. Wanted to start a topic regarding this but let's just leave this as it is for now.

I realised that i have learn some stuff from this course myself last few years so it would actually put my in advantage so maybe i shan't give up =). I must get into university.


Next, my singing class will be starting very very soon =)



My condition been getting a whole lot worsen. Been feeling weak this few days and wanting to faint. Poly timetable is also quite messy and not fixed. The timing, breaks and start and end of lesson is quite messy as well. Everything is so big in chunks.


Photoshop picture of the day!



On top is after edit
Below is before edit




Love ya all, ciaos

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Poly life
Monday. 4.20.09 12:05 pm
First day, above medicore (hmm)

Pretty much that this course is a IT+Design course together and everything is related to what i know. What i meant was that i already learnt all this by myself through trial and error since secondary 1. Stuff like HTML/CSS, editing pictures through photoshop and stuff but what i learnt is something quite basic so i need to expand my knowledge further. =)


Poly need to have alot printer ink too =)

i'm bored here so show ya some before and after pictures i edited like a year ago





1st one is before,2nd one is after =)

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Thursday. 4.9.09 2:26 pm
I thought about it.It was all my fault like duh!. Best friends does not need to miss each other everyday or text each other everyday.Why escape from reality?It makes me felt worse.Why don't look on the positive side.! Hell yeah, Love is better than fucking hatred .


Still,liang and xue'er love ya =).Making myself love both of ya is better man!. Need to maintain this. I will not forget K8 incident, everything you said to me to make me wake up and feel better.

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Sg idol
Monday. 4.6.09 7:07 am
Saw the commercial just now. Most likely i be joining it =)


Chill out =0

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Life
Wednesday. 4.1.09 1:30 pm
Love
Trust
Friendship
Enemies


Money??



Lead to

DEATH.

Though i have overcome the 5 words above =).

Screw it.

Suckers

PunkerZ Ass.Screw ya up. Topsy Turvy.LovE songS reminisCe.Last sec of life moment??WHY????Hate it


Bruises all over.Reality is ugly bUt accepteD them.? a wh0|e neW gamE?I'mmma on for it.the Faith Burns all it doWn?Strangers still?Why?high on druGss. No waAy.. immA kick youR asS.LosEr. Total DisatErz.Superficial is harMful but why?RemniscE??Years of LiFE?.WhY.

F.U.C.K


Hope it wOrks out right. HopE boTh of you and the oTheRs underStanD it oNe dAy

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Friendship
Monday. 3.30.09 6:23 am
http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=1932003&highlight=sunshine

Because of this,it put our friendship at stake. Seriously, putting almost ten years of friendship on the line because of MLM. i don't want to say much about MLM, the link above shows everything. It's really hard for me to maintain friendship with good or even best friends if the other party don't put in the effort! Unlike others, anybody can easily become my friend but i will not easily treat one as best friends such has having a lot of best friends and becoming one easily after some talking and stuff. Fake friendship, it's just so fake to me. The only ray of hope for me which i am able to see is this few months the new best friends i met and the top fews. At least they did something to maintain it better than nothing. Second on the list or shall i say tied between is my clique,i guess you all know who you are. I am in a dilemma right now.



A couple months ago I sat seemingly paralyzed on my couch at home in space that once felt so peaceful and warm. My smile was drained from my face and my body flowed with cooled blood... only warmed by the unexplainable tears that rolled down my face. Numbed past the point of fighting... "My stillness will move me"... were the only words I was able to conjure in a moment so distant from all that once felt so good.Even though I am a total workaholic, my personal life always comes first. The result of how you are living inadvertently always effects what you do. The result of how I have been living, with my history of codependency, had completely sucked me dry. This depth of water that I slowly sank into was effecting what I do so much so, that my precious drive and passion floated high above my head and the weight of history hanging from my feet was so heavy, it kept them out of reach.I was drowning in water that appeared to be the surroundings of what life had done to me and my will to reach this place high above it. Land I will deserve once I get there. I have had it in my head for years that once I achieve the difference and purpose I feel is so necessary out of my life, then I can really enjoy it, but until then I will wade as hard as I can.As I started to examine some of these thoughts and statements that repeat like a broken record in my head, I could feel the strength of their damage cutting me. Drenched to a salt water scar, seen through keloid eyes, that felt like life. I don't deserve to be happy now? I don't deserve someone who treats me well because Im strong enough to help them through all they need? I will love something completely self absorbed enough and cant truly love me back because Im not worth it anyways?Once the burden on my own weights jerked my attention awake, I first and foremost knew that change needed my full awareness on this cognitive process and anything that was part of the problem in my immediate life, needed to cease. Goodbye.So what are we always hiding from with personal perception and separation from each other and truth. I decided to focus on the broken record created by history, turned with fingers for the future. I allowed this "thought" of who I am, what has happened, what I do/done or what I want to be completely unattached to the me that just is.

I spent the next couple weeks divulged in this idea of being aware of everything going on inside my head. Listening to every thought that passed judgment on life in general and watching the separation it inherently causes between people. I found that through this quiet there were two distinct voices in my head. The first one being all the thought process that thinks and interperpates every person, situation, feeling and myself based on my life's experiences. The second one being the awareness behind all the judgment. The awareness that sits very collective in the reality that just is.n my little experiment I found that as I made myself extremely aware of my thoughts turned reactions, they were undeniably conditioned by the past and driven by the future, in turn falling into the identify that begs to ask "who are you". The "who are you" that is separation and judgement caused by an ego completely unidentified to the true awareness of who we are.


As the shore rises to kiss my toes, I brush my hands over the top of its glistening white diamond like tide. The sea water twirls around my fingers as we dance through the surge and my feet push through the ever shifting sand. As they are submerged in weightless water, they play in oxygen that breathes without thought and I have such ease with what I feel... Land never truly escaped from under me. I just simply chose to hover over my ocean floor beginning, suspended in emotional weight from the bottom and want for the top.When all we really have to do is awaken to the beauty of presence that can be every moment. All hardships and past experiences can be accepted because the reality is they are if they are there, its just us that feel its necessary to give them time or label them to who we are. Stress and worry can be eliminated because they are for tomorrow and take you away from accepting this moment your in and giving it the quality of your presence. The reality is we can change our position into living right now and not anywhere that land wont welcome the grace of attention our feet choose to give the footprints we make... as we make them.We by nature make it so much harder on ourselves, so I am curious... if you took just a couple days off from the noise to be still and view your own thoughts, what do you think you would hear?

Nothing is gone but the moment I see is blinding.
My thoughts had moved on but the moment I knew was binding.
With stillness in time, the rush in a moment wont find me.
As I free my mind, loose thought and time...
My stillness will move me.
















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