I don't exactly know why, but I was suddenly in a very good mood, after my lesson tonight, as I walked from Heilman back to my dorm. I definitely prefer being in a good mood and not being a big, menstruating woman. I wish I had Larry's digital cam here at school. If I did, I would take pictures of my oh-so-exciting room and of my ever-changing appearance. Oh well, whenever I go home for whatever, I'll take the time to take a few shots, and maybe sneak the camera back here to get a couple shots, then send it home and whatnot. I like pictures; they serve more meaningful sometimes (or just when I'm too lazy to write out whatever's in my head). On a relatively unrelated note, I'm excited about seeing the DMB at Hershey on Thursday. Should be good times, most definitely.

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Man, today is such a nice day outside. The weather is splendiforous. I'm definitely feeling better being here and whatnot. I'm sure there's still some adjusting of sorts to do, but I'm feeling happier (which is always a plus). I've got the whole day to get work done, go practice, and just chill. I'm glad I took out my lip ring. I did like it, but it bothered me more than I enjoyed having it. Now that I don't have it in, I realize how much I like it better not having a ring of metal in the middle of my lip. Hey, it was worth the experience anyway. I have the pictures to show that I did have it at one point in time. To be honest, I kinda just went for it for the sake of curiosity. I went into Totem that day and didn't really have a clear decision as to what I was getting done. So, I basically did a mental coin flip between getting my septum pierced or getting my lip pierced. Obviously, I ended up with the lip getting done. I want to go sometime and get my brow redone. The eyebrow was definitely HOTT. Maybe I'll go and get that done this week.

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*Disclaimer* I'm not sad or mopey, so all the writing below isn't meant to come off as such*Disclaimer*

Ok, sorta starting fresh again. I think I'll put the womanhood behind me and stop wallowing in my self-pity. Things are a lot different at school this year, and I'm slowly figuring out how to adapt. I'm not all about the temporary fun of going out and meeting tons of new people, because I know I won't be able to keep up a good friendship with a lot of people, and they'll move on, and it'll be short-lived fun. I don't have anything against it, but I'm not personally looking to meet a bunch of people. A handful couldn't hurt, I'm just not yet motivated to go out in search of them. I don't know where to start to look for what makes me happy. I feel a lot like my mom in the sense that once you stop devoting yourself to the people around you, you're left clueless as to what to do with yourself. Making other people happy, making my close friends, best friend(s) happy is what makes me happy. So, I'm left dumbfounded when I try to stop and think: "Ok, my friends are doing their own thing, now it's my turn...uhm, what do I do?". I have no idea, I like making my friends happy. That's more than enough for me, I don't need anything else. So, if that's not exactly there like it was before, what now? College is a one time experience, but to me, I don't feel as though I'm setting myself up for any regrets of lost time. I'm here to further my musical education, and find other academic interests in the process (I'm really interesting in some religion classes and getting into philosophy/psychology stuff too), and of course I'm here to encounter many people, experience new things, and the whole gamut. However, for the time being, at least, I would like to focus most on my academics, since I wasn't too on top of that last year, last semester, in particular. I have met a bunch of new people, and, of course, I truly consider one of them as my best friend here, but for now I'd really like to spend time with them since I haven't seem them for four months. I'll have plenty of time to meet new people later, so I'd like to take the time now to catch up and spend some time with the friends I already have. I am a bit sad that I'm not rooming with my former roommate, Dwight. Heh, he was an amusing guy, and we never had any problems with each other, which was a definitely plus. Not that there's, per se, anything wrong with my current roommate. He seems like a decent guy. We don't exactly talk much because I'm not here often, and when I am he's not in here very often either. Heh, we still haven't figured out why exactly he's back in this dorm, in the same exact room he had last year. It makes us wonder...

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So, here I am; finally making an entry in my NuTang journal that I've had since before I became a LJ-whore. I'm sure Dave (Flanger001) is basking in the glory of his success in luring me back to where it all should have began.

Hmm...what to say...

Well, I'm finally done with work. It wasn't bad working at the Radisson Hotel, but a lot of internal hypocrisy and double-standards really jaded me and, ultimately, made me not want to be there any longer. For the most part, the people that work there are really awesome. However, there are people that just pissed me off. For example, one of the most irritating people that works there is my manager. Now, she is excellent when it comes to decorating and taking care of the food/beverage aspects of functions, but she is terrible when it comes to scheduling and most other managerial duties. For instance, two weeks before I took off, due to heading back to college, I lost count of how many times Tom (my awesome co-worker) and I looked through the schedule and our packets, found mistakes our manager made, and revised the schedule and came in on our days off, just to cover her ass. And, even worse yet, we both know she screwed us out of gratuity pay and hours. That truly pissed me off. Another point of contention on Tom's and my part was the fact that we always got a raft of shit from our manager for things we were either not responsible for and/or for not following our teamwork guidelines. What the fuck ever, the teamwork in our department stopped when it got to Tom and me. We always picked up the pieces after the banquet servers and our manager, but the rare, few times Tom or I would ask one of them to take care of something for us, good God would we hear them bitch about it. So, it got to the point where work served only to piss me off; so much so that I started calling Tom to switch days/fill in for me and started calling off, before finally saying I wanted this week off before I head back to college. I'm supposed to return over my winter break, but I really don't know that I want to go back. I'm definitely not going back if Tom is not still working there.

Speaking of school, I'm definitely ready to go back. I love being at school: it affords the freedom to be on your own, which I really like. I don't exactly know why, but I'm growing weary of being at home. I've returned to my usual hermit-like solitude, hardly ever leaving my room. The part that I don't like is that I get so easily annoyed by anything and everything, including my mom. I don't like getting annoying by my mom, or being mad at her. Anyone who knows me knows I love my mom dearly. So, I don't like that I'm getting this way around her. For that fact, I want to be back at school, so that attitude will go away. Granted, my mom gives me a ton of freedom, but you don't exactly feel very on your own when you're living at home (and without a car/license, but that's another story). 5 more days...I can't wait.

Well, I'm sure I could ramble on even more, but I feel this is good enough for a 1st entry.

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