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sigh. Monday. 2.9.04 9:25 pm this is depressing. so many people have abused my trust. I hear stories from multiple people that are never the same. I don't know what I'm saying really, just i don't know who or what to believe anymore. i don't know who are my friends, or who i want to be my friends. i'm so lost, i want out of this terror. life is no fun anymore. sadly enough, i'm being as optimistic as I can. I'm just waiting. i want out so bad. Comment! (1) | Recommend! I'm home! Sunday. 2.8.04 9:51 am Well. Home from San Franciso. It was a lot of fun. Those are just the picture I took, there are more pics on my mom's cam, and my dad's... so those will be added soon... I saw a lot of people there. No one I knew, but a lot of people. Old people, young people, couples, teens. Kids lost, folks eating in the streets, bums sleeping on the bare ground. It was a pretty sad sight in Chinatown. It makes one think what is really valuable in life. Anyway. I'll write more tomorrow. I'm tired. Comment! (0) | Recommend! X^P Wednesday. 2.4.04 6:00 pm Haven't done much really since my new banner... But I added two new poems to my reading section for French. Not really "all that", but it got the assignment done, and I'm proud of it for the fact it's in all French. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Zachary O'Harrow is a man of wise words. Tuesday. 2.3.04 9:05 am [Zach's Xanga]- I know these two girls. And, from as much as I can tell they used to be friends. But something happened(I'm not sure what) and now they are constantly jabbing at each other over everything. Now, I don't know why they are so mad, but I have seen a picture or two of them together and they look like good buds...what is so bad to break up a friendship and leave with bitter, angry feelings? I bet it's not worth staying pissed over. :) "My cat scratches look like red pickup sticks I don't appreciate all this cat's tricks" ----------------------------------------------------- Don't drift apart over trivial things. Words can hurt, but losing a friend over shit that neither of you will remember hurts worse. People who are tolerable are hard to find, and real friends are damn near impossible to find and hold on to. I think it takes knowledge from the outside world to really realize how ridiculous people can get over minor details. Lillian and I are at a mutual level right now, we're just mere accquaintances. So this just means there will no more bitching over a certain colored jellybean or whatever suits your fancy. But who knows how this will turn out? Happy 19th birthday tomorrow Zach! Comment! (0) | Recommend! I wrote a poem that doesn't rhyme! Monday. 2.2.04 7:36 am I originally started to write this as a long, detailed, depressing post; but it sounded better as a poem... I am the innocent prisoner. Robbed of my spirit; No longer is there light and happiness, But a shade of gray and ignorance. Raped of my trust; Taken unfair advantage of, Lost, and will never be returned. Trapped in this boundless mind; Everything set and payed for, With no way to finish. The faces on the other side of these invisible walls laugh, yell, talk and gossip as normal; Not realizing what they're doing, Not realizing who they've hurt, or by any means, how. However, they and I connect, in a very personal matter; they pour their nasty comments, lies, pokes of fun and higher achievements into a single bottle, The bottle of which I live in. I am an innocent prisoner; I will be mocked, emotionally beaten, and disturbed until the day of my freedom, The day of my freedom is the day I gain scars. Ok, English time now. What is the feeling of this poem? What do you think of it? List any hidden meanings you might find that fit this. Embrace me with a comment, I'd like to hear other people's reactions. (non-members can comment also) Comment! (0) | Recommend! Daphne's Xanga Just a bitchin' i miss my life word up. i want my body and my friends from like a year ago. fuck this life shit. Posted 1/29/2004 at 12:40 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul what do you miss Posted 1/29/2004 at 12:44 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul some things have happened that i wish didn't, and i miss being close to people Posted 1/29/2004 at 1:19 AM by assshole lol why be close to people u probably wont even be in this town in 3 years...most people wont even remember us....thats why suicide attempts are pointless..now if people acutally cared we woulda been remembered...i guess we all want to be remembered as a legend of some sort maybe? something like written in a book of greatness...i dunno i dont care either...ill live with waht ive got and i guess thats all ill need to be happy with? oh well who cares about being happy anyways its a matter of time before something goes the way u dont want it to...i dunno being close to people is nice until they turn ur back on u....i dunno if its even worth it anymore...i dunno im out Posted 1/29/2004 at 3:54 PM by GroundBeaver this reminds me of the Breakfast Club. I agree with spencer for the most part, but I think it's worth it. Working with what you have is a sure sign of a strong person. Things will turn around for the good in no time. Posted 1/29/2004 at 7:04 PM by aznjme there were no asians in breakfast club. get out. Posted 1/29/2004 at 8:59 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul you cant live without being close to people w/o being emotionally destroyed... especailly people you love and even though it may not last a long time, its good while it lasts and someday ull find the one who will never turn their back on you or maybe you have?? oh well its all pointless in the end.... but it's not the end yet so i guess its not pointless? so it is worth it? does that make sense? i dunno you tell me spencer afterall ur one of the great philosophers of our time = ) Posted 1/29/2004 at 9:42 PM by assshole im andrea Posted 1/29/2004 at 10:04 PM by SkittleFreek Breakfast club didn't have skanky whores either. Posted 1/29/2004 at 10:07 PM by aznjme sorry daph, i'm done. Posted 1/29/2004 at 10:08 PM by aznjme people i guess are always saying prepare for the things that are going to happen later in life...i really dont understand why people have to say be prepared for what comes in life...i dont mean to reiterate myself but just live things as it goes maybe it will make sense some day? Posted 1/29/2004 at 10:38 PM by GroundBeaver "Alone is all we are, even when we feel this close its just a lie we believe" hmmmm i dont think that helps im not sure. And there WERE skanky ho's in Breakfast Club, so Andrea can stay. Posted 1/30/2004 at 4:37 PM by SoCal_1134 fuck you asshole, I wasn't talking about andrea, and she's not a skanky hoe. second of all, there WERE NO hoes in breakfast club; the character Claire pretended to be for the sake of her image. and if you payed any attention to the movie, you would've known Allison was a "compulsive liar", not a nymphomaniac. Posted 1/30/2004 at 10:38 PM by aznjme lol ur so meen J-Dizzle!!! i hate youuuuuuu Posted 1/30/2004 at 11:57 PM by SkittleFreek My fault i thought you meant Andrea, FYI i never saw the movie i was just joking... Posted 1/30/2004 at 11:59 PM by SoCal_1134 *sigh* u kids and ur drama Posted 1/31/2004 at 1:53 AM by GroundBeaver hell yeah andrea! you tell em! (skanky hoe? youre sure one to talk!!!) and i dont think life will ever make sense spencer... i dont think its about finding the right one... i think there are a lot of people in our world who could be "the one" and it just depends on if youre in the right place in the right time... it all comes down to the decisions you make Posted 1/31/2004 at 2:01 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul im not trying to have life make a sense...i want a feeling or an emotion to come of it...i guess thast what im looking for maybe? Posted 1/31/2004 at 2:03 AM by GroundBeaver how can you have emotion and feeling while being alone??? Posted 1/31/2004 at 4:27 AM by assshole emotions i feel when alone: angry, left out, pissed, sad, melodramatic sometimes too many emotions i think what spencer is looking for is LOOOOVe Posted 1/31/2004 at 12:13 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul or gratification maybe? Posted 1/31/2004 at 12:15 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul or just some pleasurable sex that doesnt include humping teddy bears?! Posted 1/31/2004 at 12:18 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul poor teddy Posted 1/31/2004 at 3:12 PM by assshole poor bears. damned animal cruelty that is spencer Posted 1/31/2004 at 9:06 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul HEY U WERENT SUPPSOED TO SAY ANYTHING!!! Posted 1/31/2004 at 9:06 PM by GroundBeaver *sigh* at least i dont like those poodles...how can anyone stand those things???? Posted 1/31/2004 at 9:13 PM by GroundBeaver (skanky hoe? youre sure one to talk!!!) what the fuck is that? At least I'm not going for the little brother. Posted 1/31/2004 at 9:40 PM by aznjme i didnt say anything! i merely hinted! you gave away your own secret!!! SO WE WANT TO HEAR SOME MORE PHILOSOPHISIZING from Spencer and Dappy... Serve it up. Posted 1/31/2004 at 11:12 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul meaning... not you Posted 1/31/2004 at 11:36 PM by aznjme For the record: 1. that wasnt a ja rule song 2. spencer DOES NOT fuck teddy bears..... *giggle* 3. DAPHNES HOT 4. Her name means laurel, and my name means lilly and that means we're cool because we're both flowers so hazzaa to you can you tell im crazyildsyda sodngoasned Posted 2/1/2004 at 11:17 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul oh, and jamies a dumb bitch Posted 2/1/2004 at 11:18 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul oh and jamie, i started this commenting here so you can find somewhere else to post your crap that makes no sense Posted 2/1/2004 at 11:19 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul oh and andreas the best soccer player/ tumbling artist I have ever seen =) Posted 2/1/2004 at 11:19 AM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul *angry face* being alone means u cant get hurt so thats why Posted 2/1/2004 at 12:48 PM by GroundBeaver There is no such thing as sex w/o strings attatched. Posted 2/1/2004 at 1:08 PM by TheSpitefulCrow I think it was little less than a week ago, that someone I know told me "Jamie, as my dad tells me, by hating someone, you are hurting no one but youself; I do not hate you, I merely defend myself, you are the only one suffering." mhmm. If only she could realize that she, indeed, was the one who started the bickering in this particular comment area. I wrote nothing(at first) that showed any hate whatsoever towards her. this reminds me of the Breakfast Club. I agree with spencer for the most part, but I think it's worth it. Working with what you have is a sure sign of a strong person. Things will turn around for the good in no time. Posted 1/29/2004 at 7:04 PM by aznjme there were no asians in breakfast club. get out. Posted 1/29/2004 at 8:59 PM by friedchickenisgoodforthesoul Nowhere do I see anything that I wrote that could've provoked anyone. But apparently, I'm too dumb, jaded or ignorant to realize my big mistake. I'm done here. I'm bored of this child's game. Posted 2/1/2004 at 6:54 PM by aznjme alirghty i guess i can dish up some up philosphical busness...i dunno?? lets see how it goes Findind meaning in a life will take ones way to find it on their own sentence....things u ffind to come to pass..to fill u with joy, misery, hatred,happyness...to see what reason there is to find a reason to be...to live to perish to perish to be perished? i see no reason fit enough to want to try for soemthing while everything fallls apart around u..u cant keep soemthing together if u dont have enough strength in everything..its amazing to me that people still get married and dont get divorced....but hey divorce rates increase exponentially every year so yah...whatevver im done Posted 2/1/2004 at 8:46 PM by GroundBeaver omg that was the biggest jumble of nonsense i have ever heard in my life gb! how philisophical! ;) i agree with the "to live to perish to perish to be perished..." it sounds like a grammar lesson i had last week the second part made more sense. Zaq- Can't you have sex with a prostitute with no strings attached? Not that I have experience with prostitutes... heh. Posted 2/1/2004 at 11:46 PM by levraililly Comment! (0) | Recommend! Page: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25