at this moment, a friend of mine is on her way back home... tears were shed on the previous night and in the airport today... emotions were mixed up... she met someone just recently and now she had to leave... i can't imagine how painful that will be... but these are the lessons we learn as we grow up... be strong, sim yin...

we knew each other from social work divison... she was the vice president and i was just the newbie... i saw her as someone who knows what she wants and does it... kinda admired her.. :P and now in bemidji, few of us hang out together almost everyday... it was fun times... i don't know how different it will be without her in our lives now...

you will be missed dearly and we want u back here soon~~

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my mind is blank...
i do not know what colour to paint in it...
to make the view beautiful...
to wash away the bloodiness of my vision...

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after i left you, i am at lost...
entering a new land, did not make the pain go away...
i have cried in the lonely nights...
thinking of you near to me...

time and distance built a wall between us...
ambiguity of future pushed us apart...
i struggled between holding on and letting go...
being a coward, i chose letting go alas...

you said that i do not lose you as a friend...
but do allow me to ask you...
the limits of friends....

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this is the last weekend in US for a friend of mine... she's going back to Malaysia next thursday... and who knows when we'll meet each other again...

so we went clubbing as a prefarewell party for today's farewell party... i think i drank bit too much... and was high... couldn't get enough of dancing... was still bouncing away even at my friend's place... and disaster stroke~~ I LOST 20USD~~~ i remember putting it in mua pocket and now it's gone~~ and if someone has got it, i should have felt it... damn.... but no use crying over spilled milk... so wat the heck~~~

this is gonna be sad... to see someone u hang out with often leave... and don't know the chances of seeing each other again...

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what is or will be your purpose to work ??

some say it's for the money... some say it's for the interest and some say it's the satisfaction that one gets when achieved something... these are all abstract and subjective...

as for me, work enables me to consume bit more luxuriously... work helps me survive in this world... work teaches me how to interact with other human beings.. work exposes the ugly side of humans sometimes...these are my opinions after working only in the university's cafeteria... i wonder how it will be when i'm really out there...

it's as though life is work, work is life... but how many times have you heard someone says that life isn't just about work! enjoy life while you can... guess we should have our priorities in life before selling our souls to work...

my ideal work life would be ..... working towards a better world.. i always have the thought to change the altruism of society... apart from that, i would also like to have time for myself and family... a balance... i do hope that i mature and achieve this soon...

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Just finished watching "Little Manhattan"... a real love story in New York...

a 10 3/4 years old boy who started to notice his classmate aka karate friend after seeing her try on a flower girl dress... from that day onwards, they had 2 weeks of good time... untill the day when they change sparing partners in karate class.. they spent lesser times and he was in agony to know whether she likes him or not... though things went bit awkward after he kissed her... and unsure whether they'll meet again... he knew that she'll be the gal of his first love...

it was so sweet... the innocence of love... i had my first boyfriend at 16... but i don't think that can be qualified as first love... even though there was rapid heartbeat when we talked (on the phone) and mild electric current flowing through my body when we held hands... i read up on the compatibility of our horoscopes.. i just wanted everything to work out for us... but i was naive and determined that our relationship is doomed coz of low level of compatibility... after the breakup, i actually tried to change his impression of me.. so that i'm still a great girl.. HA~! the stupidity of yester years... well, that's one small episode in my life...

they say first love is always romantic or sweet or bitter or whatever... but is there really such thing as first love?

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