listening to: everything - the juliana theory
mood: sleepy... kinda

i really am such a loser. i felt all good about myself when i got out of class tonight, and i was planning on coming back here and getting to work on my homework. i was feeling all good and productive like.. and then i went and started looking at quizzes and that was just a bad idea! i ended up spending most of my time tonight taking stupid quizzes and posing them over at my livejournal. so i didn't get too much done tonight.. i kinda read my stats.. i read as much as it's going to be read. the book is just stupid. my professor never actually said to read, its just in the syllabus and the book is so dumb it wasn't helping me at all.. so.. whatever. and i did all but one of my finance problems, i'll do the last one tomorrow. the last one will involve brains and i just don't wanna use that right now.

i don't have econ tomorrow! yay! so after i get out of accounting around 3:30, i'm getting kim and we're heading out to buy Schizophrenic!! yay for JC!! It's gonna be an awesome CD. :-D I wanna see him in concert again... I wish I had a video tape of every show i've seen.. that would be sooo awesome. ya know, i honestly don't think i could come up with the complete list of all concerts i've been to without help from nina. there's just too many... i think we should try though :)

i finally got the album Love by The Juliana Theory. I meant to do that. oh.. ages ago! I think it came out.. November of my freshman year... talk about sucking out and forgetting! Shame shame on me! It's a good album too (duh!). I need to update my album plugs page on my subprofile, i was going to do that, but i didn't remember to until after i'd finished my update and i'm too lazy to log back in and do it. lots of good albums that i've been rocking out to lately. i can't wait to get the jc one :) i don't have enough $$ to pick up Fefe Dobson too though.. since i got the Hanson tickets and all. EEEEEEE! HANSON!!!! *giggles* i'll never totally grow out of my teeny phase.

duuuuude... i was taking lots of quizzes on *nsync in the last couple days.. and a good number were slashy... i so need to go read some slash. it's been a while since i've done that. i <3 slash. I looked up the story Scoop not too long ago.. that so hasn't been updated since like August of several years ago or something.. totally mid story.. it made me sad :( that was a good one. Gabriella had some new stuff up though last time i checked... maybe I should check out those ones.. she was always a good writer. I was always envious of her layouts though... nina is so going to be the only one who knows what i'm talking about.

talk about being nostalgic... remember when i started ljl? back when *nsync slash was just starting up? it's been a long long time...

i know.. it's so my turn again, isn't it? maybe it'd be easier if swsd wasn't a mary sue ;)

i should put to be pretty back up since i've got the server for a couple more months.. but hell.. no one is gonna go there.. how would people even find out it was there?? *shrugs* whatever. i wouldn't wanna torture anyone anyway. nina's the only one who can stand reading mta. and i don't understand how...

so i got a 97% on my law midterm. that made me happy happy. thats all As i've gotten on my exams, go me! there were 2 As in the class and mine was one of them, along with a 94.. so I got the highest grade in the class *beams*

okay so i've been working on this sucky post and doing just about nothing else for like 35 minutes.. i just need to go to bed.. it's late. nighty nights for me cuz i can sleep till 1 if i want but i shouldn't.. yeah.. we'll see how i do on that waking up thing :)

i took a nap today that was fabulous. i just konked right out and it felt like i'd been asleep forever when i woke up and it was only a half hour later. it was rather enjoyable. and after that half hour i got to sleep for another 15. go me! go sleep! woohoo! but.. uh.. yeah. nighty nights for me.

darren hayes is coming out with a new album! eventually! soooo excited about that! spin is awesome! i dunno when it'll ever come out, especially in the US.. and i'm sure i'll forget about it.. but it's still a real good thing! yay!

sean biggerstaff has a livejournal. i was looking at it earlier today. there's only 15 posts. it's awful cute that he does though. he's a weird kid. i heart him. he's cute and scottish, what more could you want?

i was going to bed wasn't i? damnit.

we ordered the giant inflatable monkey today. and they were out of the damn sunblock so we found some place that sold them and we paid like $48 for 150 of them instead of $12 for 144. And we have no idea what theyre going to look like.. we're afraid since theyre from some fire safety website that has like firefighter supplies and shit.. no clue!! hehe, but it's fun!

i'm hoping the PEN meeting won't make me all bitter and shit when i go.. but i'm not anymore.. really it only lasted for like a day.. i'm fine now.. but we'll see... *shrugs* whatever. i'll do things for people and organizations i'm wanted in. you don't want me? then fuck you, it's your loss. seriously. that goes to anyone and anything. i've always enjoyed thinking that way. you don't want to be my friend? then fuck you, it's your loss. cuz i'm cool as shit damnit and if you don't take the chance to get to know me then that's your own problem and i don't give a shit, i probably wouldn't have liked you anyway. see i start with one thing and just go onto another... whatever.

i need to rinse out my giant 44oz cup that i got fruit punch in at the movies. i wonder if the fruit works fruit punch that you can buy tastes as good as the stuff they have... probably not.

i wanna post the lyrics to this song that i'm listening to (everything - the juliana theory), but i'm not gonna since i already have *grin* it's just a real good song.

*blinks* i need to go to bed.
but i have so many other things i could be dooooing!
*sigh* i'm pathetic.

one story and then i'm done... i swear...
*crosses fingers behind back*

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listening to: lost cause - oleander
mood: like a big ol slacker

i regret not taking any AP courses in highschool... i should have taken AP Chem & AP Stats at least. cuz I'm sure I would have done well enough in both of those. but i'm a big old lazy slacker who doesn't like to challenge herself and i didn't. i mean, i probably could have gotten away with taking AP Calc too.. i'd say AP English, but we all know that english isn't my strong subject. knowing the math that we have here at wnec, it's okay that i didn't take calc, cuz it would have just confused me if i'd gone into 112, cuz lord knows i can't retain shit. but just yeah.. i'm sitting here learning more statistics from a chapter in my finance book than i've learned in my stats class and that got me thinking about highschool and just yeah... i should have taken some ap courses instead of 12 semesters of hanging out in the happy place and an extra accounting course that's nothing like grown up accounting.

i guess all i can learn from that is maybe i should make sure i don't do it again. granted i don't know how i could.. it's not like i can really choose to take harder stuff or whatever.. i take what i gotta take.. and then there's my soc minor and yeah.. i dunno, whatever. i'll be chillin here for a while. it seems like there's so many credits i still need. next year is gonna suck so bad. i'm going to have java and chem in the fall... that's just all kinds of bad.. i should have considered that when i was picking classes for this semester, lol. java + chem = mental breakdown. totally. but hell, i'd take those over english classes any day!

okay, back to the homework!

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Staring out, depressed about
What words I have to plead
So torn apart

Shattered by impressions of
Confessions in defeat
My broken heart

Crying, desperate, fighting
Questions scared to let go

We used to be so beautiful
But the days go by and
Things get better

I'm weary from the war
I'm losing half my soul
But the days go by and

Past the point of reasons
I just want you to believe
That it's not your fault

Cry your eyes to sleep
It's like a thousand rainy nights
Oh, drowning lows

Photographs, the close up, what we had
Come undone

Where did it all go wrong?
The days go by and
Things get better

You hardened like a stone
To face the world alone
But the days go by and
Things get better

Exhausted of apologies
In search of something comforting
But the days go by and
Things get better

Brought out the best and worst in me
You gave your all unselfishly
But the days go by and

Oh, I could never replace
All the tenderest moments
They will always live right here
Inside me

My love will forever hold a place
For you
That's why I'm so confused, yeah

Girl, we used to be so beautiful
But the days go by and
Things get better

I'm losing half my soul
To face the world alone
But the days go by and
Things get better

We're not the type to just give up
But I know that it's what's best for us
The days go by and
Things get better

We'll pass some crossing roads
Surviving on our own
But the days go by and...

Dear Goodbye - JC Chasez

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I'M GOING TO SEE HANSON!!!

Wednesday 3/10/04
Webster Theater
Hartford, CT

THANKS TO THE WONDERFUL NINA!!!

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