Argh.. woke up today at 230pm.. suppose to be meeting mou at 12 pm for gym.. wahaha apparently he couldnt wake up also.. LOL! Well AmenZ chan called me and ask me abt gym, he was suppose to go gym too at Bt Gombak.. he chance upon reading my last entry and decided to call me i guess.. Finally got my lazy ass outta bed and met chan and mou.. Had lunch at Lot 1.. Nth special happen there.. ZzZZ.. Took a 5 min cab ride from lot 1 to the cck stadium..

Did the usual work outs and ended up i am sufferring the effects of the strain right now.. Grrr... Well nvm.. After which i took a bus and drop off at the cckcc for a few games of bball.. woah lan.. so man NS recruit there.. argh.. but WOOters.. found out their from BCT.. Basic Commando Training.. hahah tt explains their packs and build.. some quite small size but their packs.. mouth watering delicious.. hahah ok.. this is side tracking.. FISH! After playing bball.. i realised i split my pants.. small hole but its still a split.. wtf.. HOHO.. faster cover up and go home liaoz..

Ate something different today for dinner.. Dry noodles with liver, chicken wing/drumstick, prawns... Unfamiliar soup i drank.. now suffering from a slight tummy ache.. teh teh lahz..

Just a fruit for tot, ever wondered how truthful is the friend beside u being... hm... u may think he/her is being truthful, but hold that tot.. they may either be hiding something or telling a different story.. hahah.. some ppl call it hypocrisy.. others may say its protecting u from the painful truth.. so wad do we actually want? to know the pain truth or hope that u nv discover the deceit.. Cheers to Teh Teh-ness... wahahaha.. gd nitez..

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Hm... met alvin at 830pm to play pool, but he suggested watching a movie.. ok.. cool.. went to catch the Incredibles after playing a few games of pool for around 15mins.. Be4 the show.. jac called to sorta like complain abt the instructor thingy..Jac if ur reading this, here goes "dun bother so much with the instructor ba ? better for u... there are other grasses for u out there to get.. yups.."..The show's not bad.. cartoon.. but not bad.. rather comical and funnie.. I think there is a moral to the story.. haha.. something like u can accomplish great things with ur family.. lol.. dunno lah.. cant think straight now.. but at the last part.. WAHAHA... the baby of the family got this special power... he turned into a living flame, den into a some heavy metal thingy.. lastly turned into a child devil and pluck the bad guy's hair.. wahaha... tmd hao xiao..

Here comes the fuck part of the day...I made my way to 7-11 to get something... when i opened my wallet to pay.. i noticed something i MISSING... freak.. i found out the new ten dollar note wp gave me was missing.. instantly i rmb wad my mother told me when i went out at 820pm... "Boy i took your 10 dollars".. "Ok" i replied... fish lah!!!! my mother used THAT particular note... I felt a sharp pain man. right smack at the chest... shaking my head all the way to the car man...1stly tt note was given to me by a special person.. 2ndly it had a certain sentimental value... i was like thinking, "of all notes it must be that one... "... sigh.. i called my mother to verify the whole thing...
"Did u use the new note in my wallet"
"Yah.. why? i could always get u a new note mah"
silent......."haiz.. tt note is wp give one.. how u gg to get it huh?"
"oh sorry lah.. nvm lah.."
"of cos nvm, wp not ur gf.." "ah nvm forget it.. bye bye"
ARgh!!!!!!!! even thu i only had tots of all the vulgarities, it was not meant to scold my mum with.. it was scolding myself and the situation i am in... In the end.. she is my mother, i wun wanna be doing silly things... I have to respect her no matter wad... sigh.. all i can do was to shake my head and make my way to Checkers Cafe for supper...

When i was at Checkers.. saw a familiar waiter's face.. basically all of their faces are familiar.. i've become a so called regular there... sat down... and start kao bei-ing why must it be tt note.. den i said something "i feel so fark tup cos its something which is gone and would nv come back.. it held value in my heart" Guess its like a metaphor to say that that love wun come back again.. i was sad.. sad for that the note will cease to exist physically anymore.. oh well.. i orderd a Patty Melt and a ice coffee... my standard drink there.. alvin got a .. dunnoe wad sandwich and chocolate shake.. Wah piang.. today's coffee so bitter.. kns.. spoilt day liao still gib me spoilt drink.. grrr... added sugar syrup, didnt really help much... just drinking sugar water liaoz.. Alvin started talking about whether do i feel a sense of... emptiness when i see other ppl with siblings being happy tgt.. guess i am used to it liao.. 19yrs being an only child.. when he asked that question, i feel that alvin's missing his sister and the times they had... i suddenly feel kinda sad for him... he talked abt the past.. alot of personal stuff.. At least i was there to lend a listening ear...Dude if ur reading this.. I'll always be there for ya.. depress? come find me talk cock sing song ya.. Well its been another talking session with alvin.. abt love, abt money, abt ns.. the usual stuff i enjoy talking abt.. haha..We came to this topic that money is a very sensitive issue in a relationship... Its like.. early in a r/s u dun think of money as an issue.. but when u wanan werk things out.. couples tend to talk abt their financial status next time.. Guys shld have a stable career with a good income.. if not.. that particular r/s is over.. we aint saying that couples who would go thru thick and thin tgt doesnt exist.. but its quite rare now.. guys still need to have a stable income to make a r/s work.. well to be fair, gals wanna feel secure being with a guy.. one factor which will definitely arise is money.. gosh... hahaha having a r/s now becomes all so real.. gone were the days that only courtship and kisses were in the picture.. the real world would set in very quickly.. haha the marvels of the world... Growing up is a road long and hard.. everyone has to go thru it.. i will succeed in walking thru it, i must... = )

Its late.. better slp early.. meeting AmenZ Mou for a gym cum swimming session later in the noon.. nitez everyone... ciao~

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Saturday
Went to ah chan's hse to catch the match.. wahahah..Glory to the richest club in the world.. MAN UTD!!!! it was a convincing 2 nil victory to the red devils... Finally something for the fans.. a feast on how man utd could play.. i was pretty impressed with their passes. at least without ronaldo.. the whole tema played like a team.. short passes, unselfish plays.. oh ok.. perhaps there were some selfish solo plays ard but its all gd.. man u won.. and that's the bottomline ! Wanted to leave after the match, in the end, we stayed back for a while more watching some car mod mtv thingy, kinda teh teh.. Ah... Ah chan's mother cooked fries and .. erhz.. egg with cheese with ham thingy.. taste gd.. woah full.. time to get home and slp.. freaking ce huang stay so far.. bt panjang.. tmd.. got to send him home.. argh.. get ur license lah.. den drive ur dad's mpv... Oh talking abt ce huang.. HIS ATTACHED!!! woah ha... some more i think tt gal is the hot topic of chemical process course at SP... haha shan't say the name, later he kao bei.. yawn.. slp time... (4am)

Sunday
Woah refreshing day.. had a very gd rest man.. slp alot alot.. Nothing much been going on.. no tots of the day nor any special feelings.. hahah basically played LOD and waste my time away..

Luckily alvin smsed me to ask me out for pool.. otherwise it would be another LOD campaign the whole day... got to rush to meet him at 8pm. Shucks.. mother ald orderd pizza to be delivered at 8.. hahah sorry alvin if i am gg to be late.. not me fault right ? hahaha...oh i just rmb tt alvin go lobang for cigs. one pack 6 bucks one carton 55.. hahaha i choose not to be tempted by this offer.. but anyone wants enjoy such lobangs.. i cld help u ask... HOWEVER i must tell ur i aint liable for anything ah..

Ow its 7.. they are showing the charity show.. i saw this guy on the wheel chair.. skinny boy who threw the frisby, i rmb him!! his the boy that came to kss last time.. i forget what is it abt but i rmb even talking to him.. at least now i noe he still is doing well...

OooOh... jac's gg to fly tonight.. wahaha i am demanding presents again.. anyone reading this... faster sms her or something and ask for presents!! she will get for ur one.. she bery gd one.. whahaha must "pour" her so can get those presents right ?

hahaha adios !

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Finally i had a gd rest after the chalet.. slpt from 4am all the way to today 2pm.. quite shiok.. Woke up watch some tv and played LOD.. been a pretty boring day, but that is what i needed.. a good rest..

I decided to write this entry cos i start to ponder on life.. to be more specific.. relationships and its problems.. I recollected what jac had told me earlier on, how her instructor's bro got dumped by this gal even after marriage with a child to take care of. if i rmb correctly, it was becos of another guy... naturally what came to my mind was "wad the.. tt bitch...", but thinking furhter into it, i felt a sense of pity for the child. The child had a complete family to be in but because of personal selfishness and lack of commitment, the child would be in a totally different situation now. Either he lives with his biological mother or father, there would be a slim chance he would get to live with both of them. Its quite sad thinking about it. Let's all be optimistic and pray that it will turn out well for the child. Be it having a good foster parent or the biological parents work things out. In society now, there had been many such cases as mentioned just now. If one leaves for the sake of certain reasons being there is no more love or the love has changed to another person, it is quite alright to do so. But when one person leaves causes another person to be affected he/she's whole life.. it becomes a selfish act. The victims are usually the children.. This leads me to another point, love is just so fragile.. A child would be tot as a gift from god to strengthen relationship ties between lovers.. but it seems that even this special gift have outgrown its uniqueness.. people just dont care anymore.. upon hearing what jac said to me b4... i accumulated what i've heard from others and what i've personally experienced, i came to a personal conclusion, i am afraid to love again..

I am seriously afraid to venture into love anymore..For the pass few weeks, i had total no interest into getting myself involved again. So i still do look at pretty gals. But which guy dont? Its only natural... But the feeling inside me is very different now.. i am NOT turning gay, but i just don't have interest in girls anymore... except for a few close female friends, i hardly talk to girls now.. maybe i have tt "fan gan" now. My mp3 just played "Numb" by Linkin Park.. that's exactly how i feel.. But to be honest, i have been thinking about the so called "sweet memories" with a special someone... i've been doing that practically everyday since that faithful occasion, but it still do affect me in one way or another...haha things are even worse when my frenz still suan me with "GV" lah, "Shrek2" lah, "Spiderman2" lah, some kinda frenz i have ah.... hahaha.. nvm,, its all good. Alvin once told me during," why do i get the feeling that u wan to hate her", or something similar.. at the back of my mind i had no ans, but my heart says i do not hate her. Argh, the dilema of what my brain thinks and what my heart feels.. haha i am quite sure many ppl have been in such a sitaution. I believe time will tell the truth, even if the road is hard to take, trust time... I yearn to love again, devote a part of my life to make another one happy. To shower my care and concern to her, to be her pillar of support when the situation calls for it... I just wan to be her very best friend and someone she can count on... just that the status is changed to being a boyfriend. Who will this "her" be? i do not know the ans.. i have yet to get thru the mental barrier which slammed upon me... its so hard to climb out of it.. sheesh... till then, maybe i would just lead a simple life.. being the wilson of old.. = )

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I AM BACK!! and rdy for ACTION!! ahhh...*refreshing* just woke up from my nap of 6 hours ? lolz.. hm... chalet was good overall... had some luffters had some really good bbq food! let me take this thu from the very 1st day..

Wednesday... took the train from cck all the way to the eastern point of Singapore.. @#*)&$^@*#&$^ *sharp thrust into heart* hahaha went pass a familiar place.. took a peek at it.. ohhh nvm.. reached Pasir Ris at ard 3+ a lil to meet up and nich and gab to buy drinks, met werner "unluckily" on the train.. haha no offense wernie.. Bought stuff, waited for the rest to come.. waited for the otah to come! then headed to the chalet.. ARgh.. the chalet floor was kinda wet.. argh.. the cleaners must have just finish up cleaning the place.. darn.. the chalet was kinda the same one i went to on 2 occasions, one was crashing alvin's chalet, the other i aint so sure.. there wasnt very much things to do so we watched some tv and cahnce upon the Japan and Singapore match.. hahaha Japan won Singapore 1 nil... and i won one dollar.. *phew* When japan socred the 1st goal i shouted "i release odds of Singapore 1:50 for them to win" and gabby took up the bet.. wahaha!! i won $1 !! wahaha.. ok i am being a nut case.. had dinner at BK and bought a Johnnie Walker for like $50 bucks.. shared among the 4 of us.. ida laiman and yeow tuck went back to the chalet 1st becos they wanna catch the "real" ending of The Champion... i tried running back but unfortunately it gone ! well.. tt qi yu wu guy chose ou xuan.. kinda.. sad lah.. hahah either choice would be sad.. Sheesh i think i had amnesia or something, i only rmb playing mahjong from 12 all the way to 5 or 6 ? oh.. i think tt's the only thing i've done during tt time. haha! Went to get some shut eye be4 gg for lunch at food court the next day

Thursday... Had char siew shao rou fan at the food court.. cant say its some gourmet food but when ur hungry anything taste nice.. All of us headed back to the chalet and some decided to go Wild Wild Wet while i stayed back at the chalet with the remaining few.. Played some chinese chess, watched some tv there and of cos i had a few here and there.. kinda bored so did some push ups.. NOW my arms are ACHING! damn i feel old.. went to white sands to met jac.. talked a bit about what's been gg on in her life the pass couple of days.. she had her hair curled or something and she was quite apprehensive about it at 1st.. now she misses her curls ! wahaha!! She wasnt feeling that well so she couldnt turn up for the chalet.. When i got back, the wild wild wet ppl had just got back.. their wet! Made some "eye contact" with nicholas and kinda told him wynn seems to have some probs with his r/s again. we exchanged info. to give ourselves a clearer picture of the whole thing... but wad else could we have donE except just to make it clearer to ourselves ? sheesh... wynn better find a solution to his probs fast.. well.. BBQ TIME ! i laid to so called foundation of the charcoal while nich helped me with liting the starters.. i must say, its the most successful bbq start-up i've done.. think i owe it to gd friends and great weather..they gals looked like they love to bbq the food so i had the easier time of eating.. wahaha! at least i refilled the pit once! which was the last time.. hahaha.. the whole bunch of us caught Sg Idol on tv.. OMG!!! Sly SUX to the core !! he spoilt some nice songs... argh.. yet he got in.. wtF??? do idols only need to have the looks to get in ? what about their singing ability which is suppose to be the emphasis of a SINGING artiste.. ok.. so sly looks more marketable.. but with a voice he presents like this.. will he go far? So many examples are evident.. no voice = not far.. but of cos lah.. some artiste or groups could still stay in the entertainment industry cos they have some hard core fans supporting them.. hahaha.. ok i am side tracking.. I did enjoy a song by taufik thu.. forget the title le.. grrrr... after sg idol, the some gals left and went home, some went to buy drinks, while me wernie and nich went to play some bball.. played till 10 when the lites gone off. then came a bunch of small bengs and a lian to look for their frenz playing bball.. hahah small bengs act big.. grrr.. so.. farnie.. went back and watch tv again... argh.. nich looked mabo..!! think his just plain tired ba.. hahaha.. had the rest of the johnnie walker after bathing.. body became red hot after some time... went up to the room and laid on the floor.. a few of us started to talk about whose beautiful .. moving on to ghost stories.. moving on to.. WERNER !!!! hahaha.. was on the topic that werner if changed to a better person all ard.. would attract gals to give him their numbers automatically.. quite true lah.. werner looks gd.. but just tt his attitude hides his niceness.. cos we just seen too much attitude hovering ard u liao! wahaha.. den shawn damn g y... jen was saying brid fren said werner was shuai.. shawn was like "huh.. brid fren.. ohh peilin ah" wah piangZ!! peng man. so g y.. hahaha.. well the nite ended quite early, too freaking tired to move or play.. and i dozed off on the floor..woke up in the middle of the nite, floor's pretty cold man.. wahahah..oh wad the hack... ZzZzZzZ

Friday... ZzZzZz..woke up at 9.. booked out at 930.. ZZzZzz slpy.... had the Katong Laksa at down town east.. nth special lor.. ZZzZz... took the freaking train back to cck.. effortlessly i took at peek at... hahaha .. snoozzee.. i am amazed by yt and tf's interest in lan gaming.. they actually alighted at bugis to play!! wa lan siao one.. so tired liao.. they hardly slpt during the chalet lor.. ahahaha.. ZzZZzz... reached home pretty early.. 12 i guess. had prata for lunch and i started my LOD campaign.. ZzZzZ.. 3++ become really lethargic liaoz.. SLP! Now its ald 11pm.. time to start my campaign again.. hahaha chiong ah!!!!!!

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Ah.. refreshing... damn slpt at 5am ytd but i still could wake up and write this entry... Sunny day as always.. definitely RAIN in the late noon later.. sianz... Wasnt a very interesting day for me ytd... just slack around, played LOD like mad.. oh.. met up with jackie to play Serious Sam! Finally completed! ahh... after like 10s and 1000s of time we played..

Yet again i went to meet Alvin for supper, finally got to eat prata but was at the toh guan kopitiam.. lucky thing was i got to catch the last episode of The Champion on tv there.. but holey hell, the ending was pretty lame. i guess mediacorp wanted some audience action or participation into the show.. they wanted audience to vote who should Qi Yu Wu pick, the long hair slim chio bu! or the petite sweet looking Ou Xuan... damn i am kinda into Ou Xuan now.. argh! hahaha... had not more den 4 sticks, den made my way home.. zz.. to cont. my LOD onslaught!

gtg play a lil bit of LOD now.. otherwise chalet time i am gg to miss it.. adios!

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