TEN random things about me:
1. auburn hair
2. i'm pregnant
3.i'm engaged
4. my mom's dead
5. my dad's getting remarried
6. i have a best friend named jackie
7. i have a dog named baby
8. i am extremely attached to my pillows...my mother in law threw them in the garbage tonight...i had to wash them and make them all better...she thought they were just ratty old ones....nope..they were MINE!!!
9. i love carebears
10. i am totally romantically in love with candles (just kidding about the romantic part..i'm in a funny mood tonight)

NINE ways to win my heart:
1. love me for who i am
2. kit kats always work nicely
3. red roses do too
4. be there for me when i need you the most
5. kiss me whenever you think i'm not paying attention to you
6. come up behind me when i'm busy and rub my back or scratch it...oohh i love it when you do that at work...it's a nice suprise...
7. kiss my tummy before bed...(this only applies to jim though...)
8. suprise me once in awhile...be spontaneous...
9. respect me

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
1. give birth and have a family...
2. get hitched
3. go to florida
4. get my ears pierced again
5. own all disney movies on dvd...
6. go to las vegas and win it big on the slots or craps table...
7. become a photographer or something nice
8. own my own home

SEVEN things I wish:
1. my mamma was still alive
2. that this baby is a girl...and that i give birth to a healthy baby...even if it's a boy
3. i could see my friends a lot more than i do
4. i wasn't so lazy at times...
5. jim wasn't working late tonight
6. it was my birthday...(it's the 4th..my bday's the 6th...it's almost here :) )
7. i could be rich and we could move out of this house

SIX things that annoy me:
1. body odor
2. icky smells in general
3. feet
4. smoking...specially 2nd hand...specially now since i'm pregnant...
5. ignorant people..
6. my hamster rummaging around her cage when i'm trying to sleep...specially when she drinks from her water bottle at like 2 am....i hate it..

FIVE things I'm afraid of:
1. dying too young
2. losing my baby
3. jim and i not working out and me being a whore with a baby
4.my dad dying...
5. food....since i can't eat right now...

FOUR of my favorite items in my room:
1. the computer
2. my hamster
3. my clothing
4. my pictures, including my senior project which is more like a scrap book now ...

THREE things I need to do right now:
1. get up b/c my butt's asleep
2. eat something
3. sneeze (and pee too)

TWO things I do everyday:
1. sleep
2. pee ( a lot)

ONE person I want to see right now:
1. my madre... (mom)



now an update...i was off again today...woohoo :) i played monopoly disney edition all day...well, after jim left for work around 1:30....i won both times :) keirstin and i just stopped playing about a half hour ago...and we got 2 games in during that whole 9 hours....i helped jim shampoo his carpet today with the carpet cleaner...i love shampooing carpets..it's fun...we're getting new beds tomorrow.....i love the guest room bed thou :( shame jim gets it now...oh well..i still get it a lot too...since i'm in here all the time..haha...but i just wanted to do a quick update..i'm going to the ER tomorrow to get blood work taken so they can prove i'm pregnant that way i can see a real doctor..i hope they can give me an ultrasound tomorrow and i can hear the heartbeat...i wanted to give jim something special for our anniversary thursday...i got him this photo frame that records messages, and i wanted to record the baby's heartbeat and put a pic of the ultrasound in it...i figured he might like that...i just hope they'll give me an ultrasound if i ask...it's more money for them, so why not?? right??

i'm out thou....i'm exhausted and jim will be home soon..i hope....

i love you baby :-*

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sorry i've been slacking..i've been so tired lately and i've been working and when i get home from work all i want to do is sleep...the nausea hasn't gotten any better...neither has the vomiting..but i'll spare the nasty details...i just got out of the shower and im not feeling too bad i guess, probably because i got sick as soon as i put the water on....you can tell this baby doesn't like water...haha...i was so mad this morning....i was sleeping late, since it's my day off, and Donna comes in and scares the shit out of me around 8:15....she told me that work was on the phone....so i went to the kitchen and answered the phone and they wanted to know if i wanted to come in for 8 1/2 hours because some stupid kid called off..i was like, no i'm sorry, i don't think so today, and they were fine with it and we hung up...so i lay back down and about 45 minutes later as i'm just falling back to sleep, jim's phone rings...i couldn't find it and by the time i realized it was across the room on his desk, it stopped ringing...but i knew it was jim and he'd call back, which he did as soon as i brought the phone over to the bed...so i answer, and he starts yelling at me because i didn't go into work..i was like, what the fuck...is it so wrong to actually want your days off? no, i didn't think so...but he insists on yelling at me and then has the balls to say i love you ....and i was like, what the fuck ever, you can call me and yell at me and not even say anything nice and then you expect me to say i love you? and he hangs up on me, so i called back and left him a nasty voicemail....that shit is not gonna fly with me right now...i know, i shouldn't be lazy, i should have jumped at the chance to earn an extra $65ish today, but i didn't, because they brought pizza and wings home last night, and it would have looked REALLY fishy if i didn't eat any, so i did, and i'm paying for it today...and i HATE working weekends....and for some reason, they gave me tuesday and wednesday off this weeking saying i ''requested off'' ....and i didn't....and i'm working saturday...i hate saturdays...at least it's only for 6 hours...8-2....i'm working on my birthday from 9-4:30 i think...i can't find my schedule so i gotta get a new one...another thing i hate about this pregnancy thing is i sneeze so much anymore...at least once a day, and if you know me and have been around me, you know i never only sneeze once in a row...it's always 2-6 times ....my friends think i'm weird...i do too...but i can't help it...but usually it's once a day at a 4 sneeze interval..but i just sneezed 6 times in a row as i'm typing this...that's probably what made me think of it...and i keep sneezing now...for some reason....oh well...it could be from a dusty candle i lit, but that was over an hour ago...so idk....but i bought a really good smelling candle with my birthday gift certificate friday...i got a$10 gift certificate for working at bills and it being my birthday..i felt so special..haha...so i bought some fabric softner, a candle, some breakfast bars, fruit, and cider...and i only owed like 1.18 or somethin like that....but the candle is apple cinnamon, and it smells so good..jim's room smells awesome now...because i've had it lit since friday night, well...i blow it out before i go to bed, but still..i had it lit all day yesterday and today...so his room and this end of the house smells great! on the other hand though, i can't believe we've been together almost a year...and also my birthday's that day too...october 6th is gonna be busy..we both have to work, but then we're going out after wards to celebrate our anniversary and my birthday...not like i'm really gonna eat much...and nothing even sounds remotly appetizing right now...but we'll find something...but i should wind this down because he's gonna be calling me on his lunch soon, and we'll end up fighting because i'm still mad at him for calling me and yelling at me, and i gotta get my hair done really quick because it's gonna start drying soon..and i don't want that...so..i'm out...and i'll try to update more this week!!!

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haha...not really..i just wanted a catchy title...my weekend home rocked so hard....i went to the football game friday night and chilled with some people...got to see my buddy steven..i was so happy....jackie spent the night...then saturday...we really didn't do anything but go yardsale-ing and talk to debi...man i missed her :( then we went to get pizza hut...much to my stomach's dismay...watched cinderella....went to walmart in sayre with jackie's mom and her sis...came home..made dinner....jackie spent the night again...went to church sunday morning...got to see a few people...came home...bummed around all day...then i made some ziti for dinner...and at the end of dinner...jim was packing stuff in the car and i was sitting at the kitchen table with dad...and i was trying to figure out how to tell him i'm having a baby...and jim came and sat down again...and i finally got the guts, and was like....dad, do you remember when i had that miscarriage when i was 16? were you mad at me? and he's like, god no!! and i was gonna say something else, but i just blurted out "dad i'm pregnant" and started crying....he was so happy...i was like, you're not mad at me? and he's like, no, why would i be?? i just have to start looking for baby stuff for you including your apartment stuff (cuz he's been getting me stuff for our place, so now he's gonna start looking for baby stuff too) ....so we talked about it for awhile, he gave me some advice...on the sickness, use mints...well, i already tried that, and they make me sick dammit!! but anyway....so his fiancee calls and she had gotten me a student guitar...i'm so flippin happy cuz i really missed my big one that the asshole stole from me :( so she brought it up, and jim and i were outside putting stuff in the car when she pulled in, so my dad comes out and he's like, we just got some exciting news...wanna tell her? and i'm like, we're having a baby...and dad has the biggest smile on his face and he said..i'm gonna be a granddaddy!!!!!!! so i'm really happy that he's happy..i thought he'd be mad at me...but i'm so glad he's not.....jim's parents will be the EXACT opposite...they're gonna lecture us....but they can go to hell..it's nice to have the house to ourselves while they're in cape cod for the week....but anyway....i guess it's an everyday thing now for my meeting with the porcelin queen..the only day i didn't throw up was saturday...that was an actual good day...then sunday before church, was like...god shoot me...yesterday, i got up to take jim into work and thank god i have a few plastic bags in the car for special occasions...then after my shower, i had to pee again, so i did, and as i went to flush, blah....comes out again.....and this morning...i made it through taking jim into work....but as SOON (and i'm not kidding.)...i mean the MINUTE my head hit the pillow again i had to get sick, so i'm glad i have a bag beside the bed too....and then today at work, i tried to but i couldn't :( i can't keep much down anymore...well, i can keep it down, but it makes me sick to eat, makes me sick to breathe, makes me sick to shower, i mean, i'm ready to die once i step into that shower and the water hits me....i just hope this goes away soon.....i asked to get out of work early...they let me go a half hour early....oooooooh boy....oh well..i don't really give a shit..i was just feeling so shitty i actually started bawling on my last break....jim sat with me and i was like, i think i'm gonna go home early cuz i feel like dying...and he's like, well..you're gonna get cut pay, and i'm like..i don't really give a shit...and he moved over to sit with me and said i love you , and i started crying b/c i'm so sick of being sick...joys of pregnancy my ass...pains of pregnancy....maybe once i hit 4 months thou it'll go away...i just wish i could have at least one week where i feel like going out and doing something, instead of crawling in bed and sleeping all day....it's gonna kill me when we go to chincoteague in january...well, maybe not, because i'll be a little farther along....but all 4 of us, dad, darene, jim and i are gonna split the cost of going to see my aunt vesta on chincoteague island, va....i love that place...it's gorgeous....i have a few pictures of me and momma on the beach ....it's one of my prized posessions...and i have a few pictures of the sunset that night...it was so pretty...but anyway..i'm kinda hungry so i'm gonna go attempt to eat some french onion soup.........

until next time ......


women, get your men neutered.......man i'm retarded!

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woohoo!! i can't wait to go home tomorrow..i'm so super excited!!! i can't wait to see everyone and go to the game tomorrow night...thank god i'm still early in my pregnancy and i'm not showing....i don't think....i'm bloated...that's about it...at least the baby was nice to me today....it didn't have me throwing up during work...just after work as soon as i got in the car...thank god i had a target bag in there for that special occasion i knew was gonna happen...i was getting ready to head up to rite aid across the street to see if they had sea bands cheaper than at bill's...but....first i had to park again and ralph..it sucked balls....so i checked rite aid...cleaned my mouth out first in the bathroom there....they didn't have them at all so i went BACK to billls to get it..it's this acupressure thinggie that's supposed to supress nausea caused by motion and/or pregnancy....idk..it's alright so far i guess.....but i'm out..i'm exhausted and i just wanna go to bed and have tomorrow get here so i can go HOMEEEEEE :)

i love you baby

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i got sick again twice today...tomorrows payday...friday i go home...woohoo :) blah blah...i feel a bit better right now for some reason...maybe cuz im relaxed..but im so sleepy...i gotta get my nails done tomorrow...they really need to be filled....all i smell is pee...everywhere i go i can smell it...prolly cuz of my heightened sense of smell.....i think im gonna head home now...we're at kevins house...and i gotta be at work at 8 tomorrow...i get to train someone thou :) they trust me already :) haha..well im out....keep it reallllll

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that song is stuck in my head...the oldies song 'breaking up is hard to do" but i haven't been doing that lately...just...blowing chunks....well..not really..i only threw up once this morning...well...around 4 times, but in one session...guess i'm not lucky...i never made my mom throw up....maybe this one's a boy..who knows? anyway...i was at work today and this adorable baby went through nicole's line next to me with his momma....and i was playing with him...i started to tickle his tiny little feet and he just started laughing and twitching and wrinkling his little nose..i was in heaven...he was absolutely adorable.....and then when i was close to the end of my shift, this man went through my line and started BITCHING at me because he had to wait 20 minutes in the deli line, and i guess i was ''taking too long'' ringing up his groceries....excuse me, i was taking my normal amount of time, which is about 1 second or less per item...and i set his bag of apples down and he started swearing at me saying ''if you bruise my fucking apples then i'm gonna return them and blame it on you so you better watch how you handle my apples'' i was like, excuse me..all snottily...and i asked him paper or plastic, and he's like i don't fucking care...and i told him the total and he threw the money at me, so i threw his change back at him..and he went out the door....fucking bastard, i tell ya...people are so fricken rude it's pathetic...usually this wouldn't bother me, but today it made me want to curl into a ball and cry...fricken hormones....i get to go home friday..i'm so excited...i can't wait to see everyone again...i tried to eat dinner tonight...donna made chicken tenders and mashed potatoes and broccoli and corn...all i could eat was a few forkfulls of potatoes and a few spoonfulls of the broccoli and corn...i'm so sick of being sick...i want the sickness to end..but i don't want to lose the baby, so i guess i gotta deal with it....i felt fine this morning, until i got in the shower..i didn't think i'd make it through my shower without throwing up, but i did..then i sat down in the room for a bit and got dressed...and i was getting my towel and crap to do my hair, and the worst sensation came over me, so i went to the bathroom just in case, and...figures..i fricken had to make the toilet my friend again...with nothing in my stomach..this is getting ridiculous...but then i felt a ton better...and was able to go through most of work without getting sick until around my first break...then i started getting sick again...so i guess the puking is temporary relief...but it's so disgusting to get the relief...and it doesn't last as long as i'd like...that's gonna be a nice way to tell my dad.....oh dad, nothing's wrong...don't mind me while i'm puking and not eating....except that i'm pregnant....hah..i'im so scared to tell him...but...oh well..we'll save that for another time...i wanna make pumpkin cookies tonight..so i'm waiting for a few minutes after dinner so the smell of the chicken shit can clear the air...cuz she marinated it and ...god ewww...i could smell it in the room at the other end of the house, and it was making me sick..and then to sit at the table with it RIGHT in front of you...donna thought i was tired...yeah, let's just go with that...i AM tired, but that's not the half of it...if she asks why i have no appitite...i'll tell her there must be a stomach virus going around, and that's why i'm sick....thank god nobody was home except for keirstin when i barfed this morning..that would be a hard one to explain...but she'll be home tomorrow..so i hope i can hold it in until i get to work at least... if i have to throw up..i threw up 4 days ago...so maybe it's an every 4 days cycle? idk...but anyhoo..i think i'm gonna go rest a bit....my tummy's settled a bit now so i think i can safely lay down...without meeting the toilet for another conference this evening.....sooooooooooooo...


until next time........

please get your pets spayed or nutered and help decrease the pet population...blah blah blah blah blah......

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