So what will I do with the rest of my life?


I honestly don't really know. Things planned don't always go the right way, so I never have high hopes. I really only want to focus on "now" and try to get through it because maybe it will lead me to actually figuring out what I want to do.


Transferring to other schools is a big decision and a lot of money. I don't want to move out of my house just to move out and be away. Although that would be great, it's not practical. I want to make sure I do it at the "right time" and that I go in the "right direction." I want to make sure I'm going to the right college, even if that means not being with my friends. Hey, you can't always have it your way right?!


I would like to say I'm a practical, organized person when it comes to decisions on my future. I mean you have to be right? So there's no point in rushing things, I think.


I just really don't need other pressures, I've got enough of my own.

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I hate the fact that I have to resort to sneaking out, just so I can hang out with friends. Come on, I'm 19! I'm allowed to be out right?! Ha. It's not like I go out so I can do drugs. I just go to hang.. nothing bad. I swear.


You're probably like, "Why don't you just ask?"


The thing is, is that my parents are both very different. I can ask my dad and not have to worry about him getting mad at me. He let's me go out most of the time, but my mom never really does. My dad will do the whole, "it's okay for me, go and ask your mom" thing sometimes and most of the time my mom's answer is a no. Not only that, but when I ask her.. she get's all moody all of a sudden and gets mad that I want to go out. So I get in trouble just for asking to go out. See my problem?!


It's not like I sneak out all the time. I do it once in a while. Usually when friends are back in Oxnard, but that's it. It'd just be nice not to have to do it behind my parent's backs, that's all.


It totally does give you a rush though.

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