listening to: as the world falls down - davie bowie [labyrinth]
mood: sleepy

so the crazyness seems to have settled down for the moment.. note that I said the moment :) i dont count on it ever being normal :-p that is just too much to ask :) im sleepy, i finally finished my crazy mad finance homework and im gonna head to bed asap. fun fun. no.. not really :) i think there's some crud on my monitor.. it should be cleaned all nice like.. that wouuld be good. hmmm i think im too tired and worn out to say anything interesting. i need to browse around and see if i can find anything good for us to do for next weeks gsa meeting... blah. *snores* oooh good song.. nuh nites.. i wanna watch the mooovie.. hmmmmm....

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listening to: just until sundown - further seems forever
mood: sucky

i'm so confused these days. i don't know what to do with myself. i don't know what i want or who i want or anything. i just don't know which way is up. and i don't know how to make anything better. i don't know how to fix it. and i don't know how to be happy without hurting anyone. and if i hurt someone i care about, that makes me unhappy.. so what do i do with that? can i ever be happy? can i ever stop screwing stuff up? or at least stop fearing that i will?

maybe i just need a fuck buddy and forget everything else.

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i just kinda feel pissed of at everything right now.

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listening to: dear goodbye - jc
mood: frustrated and AWAKE

maybe i'll just stay awake forever and never get any sleep.
my mind is running too much! i tried but my brain just would not shut off! ugh! stupid brain!!
its gonna suck cuz i have to get up in 6.5 hours and have no time to nap and i gotta drive to weston tomorrow afternoon. blah. stupid sleep. i slept fine last night for a change, but nooo that couldn't last. fuckers.

i love schizophrenic... did i say that?

i hate how such good cds will not sell as much as they deserve.. like nick's cd.. that's such a good album, and he got nothin. *shrugs* i'm just happy i have them to enjoy though.

i keep forgetting to give teresa the magnetic poetry i picked up for her.

i like minty lifesavers... theyre good at 3:30 in the morning.

i've been listening to schizophrenic all day every day since tuesday.. maybe my brain is confused when i shut it off.. maybe i need to leave it on all night and try to sleep that way... i think i'll have to try it... its worth a try.

im so pissed that the new foamy cartoon isn't working, i've been waiting for 2 weeks for a new one and its up but it wont play! grrr! i need my foamy fix!!!

i love how there's never anything to do online when you have nothing to do and youre bored, but it you should be studying or sleeping or something, there's always plenty of things to do.

so thos whole gay marriage thing.. i was just reading an article on mtv.com about it, not like i dont know a lot about it and havent read a lot about it.. i think that its really exciting to be this age and in the place i am at this time in history. being bisexual, being active and aware, trying to help the cause, help educate people, i think its really exciting. and i think it's just a matter of time before gay marriage is legalized. sooner or later its just going to pass, the fact that you cannot have a second class group of citizens in america is going to to come through. there will be plenty of speed bumps along the way, but i have faith that things will work out in the end. i'm sure things will be more progessive once bush is out of office as well. i gotta remember to print out the voter registration form request that i downloaded the other day.. i gotta bring it somewhere that has adobe and print it and send it in. i gotta get myself registered to vote!! weeee!

ooooh exciting! bsb is working on a new album. there's always a possibility that they can have a comeback, that they can make it.. i wont get my hopes up.. it says to expect the album in late summer, so i'm thinking a year from now or so ;) but yeah.. its awesome if they do well when they get an album out, but i wont be surprised if they don't.. but again, i'm selfish.. if it just does ok, at least i will have it to enjoy it and if they tour, i still need to see them, it's all good. i really hope stuff goes well for them, but there really isnt anything i can do about it. so its not like i should worry about it, ya know? thats just silly. lets just hope they actually get promotion, unlike some other albums we've seen put out by jive... :-p

Metal matriarch Sharon Osbourne will play a lesbian bartender in an episode of NBC's Will & Grace, set to air March 25. that's cool!!

hmmmm its 4am.. i should try to get some more sleep... stupid stupid sleep...

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i'm going to see nina this weekend. it should be interesting. wish me luck.

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GRRRRR AT SLEEP!
i dunno WHAT i did wrong but apparently sleep is pissed and me and doesn't want to be my friend anymore. i am very saddened by this!!

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