I went to the orthepedic surgeon today. He took a look at my x-rays and it was not good news. I have a large pertruding disc in my lower back that is pressing on the nerves. Normal to average disc problems are a slipped disc, herinated disc or ruptured disc. My problem is a large disc that is protruding into the nerve.

So what is the end result? SURGERY.

I called a family meeting tonight. Being a single mother I need to talk to my children about taking care of the home while I am in the hospital. My oldest son needs to be in charge and everyone has to do their part. I am really sad right now because I think I am more affraid than anything. I have NEVER had surgery before so I dont know what to expect. I am young and I am sure that I will make it through the procedure. I just worry about my children and my home while I am gone.

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I went out tonight and had a great time. Now it was time to eat!! Other than dessert, dinner is the best time of the night. I know! Get a life! So anyway... My bff and my daughter and I go to Lucky Strike. It is a nice restaurant with some bowling lanes and good food. We walk up and the guy says that after 7pm you need to be 21 to get in. I got rejected and turned out!

So we now decide to go downstairs to PF Changs. They have good chinese-american food; nice ambiance and linen. So we all order tea and get our own teapot. It was really nice. We order our food then this loud siren goes off and lights are flashing. No, we did NOT win a prize. That was the fire alarm. We thought that maybe someone didnt want to pay their bill so that pulled the alarm.
Shortly after that, the manager comes over and tells us that there was a fire in the kitchen and they cannot cook anything else for the rest of the night. So sorry for us... we will have to leave. WHAT?? We are getting kicked out again!? This is the second time in the same night. Now where are we going to eat? Maybe someone was trying to tell us something!? We were lucky enough to get 10 each to come back on another night and we did not have to pay for the tea.

I have been rejected before but not twice in the same night! ha ha! That was just too much. We ended up at a Yakitori place and we had nice meal. Everything turned out just fine!

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A TRUE STORY...

She had a rough childhood

She survived starvation, neglect and lack of affection.

These things made her resilient to rejection.

Her fears became her strengths.

As she aged, lonliness set in. However she was never fearful of it.

Living each day as if it were her last, never fearing death.

Times passes on and she is feeling abandonned once again.

Told by someone who is suppose to love her, "No knight in shinning armor is going to come and save you!"

She waited and waited until she believed the previous statement to be true.

Then like a character in a story she sees him. He is strong, brave, kind and caring.

Could he be the knight she was searching for?

He falls for her, as they do in fairy tales...

As years pass by... I finally get to tell him,
"I thought I was going to die, never finding you."

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I live in an apartment building that has an alley which separates us from another apartment building. Both buildings are separate and owned by two different owners. Every night for the past 4 nights someone has been blastin their radio and playing loud cumbia music. It is always from 11pm - beyond midnight. If I didnt have my muscle relaxers to make me drowsey that music would really be bothering me. I dont know why the people in THAT building dont complain to the apt manager to have them turn that shit off! It is really loud!

Tonight my older son came into my room and stood in my doorway. I was like, "what?" He said I was just wondering if you could hear the music. I was like, "yeah. It is loud enough". So I finally call the police. I just so happen to have the local police number in my cell phone. Ha ha. So I give the guy my name and he says, "Are you hawaiian?" I was like yeah. I never got his name but I gave him two names of people at his department and he knew both of them! So instead of just one police car showing up, there were two. ha ha.

The music is finally off and now it is quiet. I mean it is common sense. It is after 11pm why cant they just figure it out on their own. No consideration!

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If you have been following my blog you will know that I have been experiencing alot of pain in my back and knee. I have been seeing an accupuncturist and a chiropractor. I dont mention the chiro much because I have been mainly seeing the acupuncturist. Those bills are adding up. The chiro is 20 bucks each visit which is cool but now my son is going 3 times a week. The acupuncturist is 100 bucks per week (2 visits per week).

I went to see a specialist because it does not seem like the numbness in my shin is going away. This specialist is so busy that you have to wait 2 - 3 weeks just to get an appointment. I got really lucky and got to see him within 24 hours.

I did not get far in the examination because I was in so much pain. The doctor began to bend my knee and I felt this sharp pain. . I screamed, "ouch! stop stop stop!" I hit him everytime I said stop. Yes, that means I hit him 3 times. I was in so much pain. I had my eyes closed and tears were coming down.

He ordered xrays right away and then asked the nurse to set up an MRI appointment for me. Everything seems to be moving along fast. This is good because I have had this pain for about 6 months. I cant wait to find out what is wrong so that they can fix it. The doctors says that I have a pinched nerve but he thinks something else is going on too.

I got me some drugs finally! I got Vicadin extra strength and some muscle relaxers. They warned me not to have any alcohol while taking the medication. Uh, duh! ha ha.

I really hope the specialist can get to the root of the problem and take care of it. Honestly, this is my last hope.

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HEY MALAYSIAN NUTANGERS... Nuffnang sounds a lot like Nutang but it isnt! It is a site where you can go to get your blog listed. Anyone can sign up. I think but it was originally designed for residents of Malaysia.

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My last day of class was last night. My teacher gave me an extention on the paper so I can turn it in next week. I want to turn it in tomorrow because the information is still fresh in my mind.

I am hoping to get something higher than a B because right now my GPA is 3.9!

Got to go back to writing. Blog more later.


LATER...

I feel sometimes as if going to school is a punishment for me. Why? Well because:

1. I am going to school to defer my student loans ( cant afford to pay them back right now)
2. I am using my student loan checks to pay the rent since the EX does NOT pay child support.
3. I am getting tired of writing reports and reading.
4. I am not sure if I will be able to get a job with higher pay even when I am done with school.

I am not sure if I am doing the right thing. I need a new job to come my way with greater pay.

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SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP




HOW DO I GET THIS LADY TO COME TO MY PRESENTATIONS??

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