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My boyfriend tells me I'm childish half the time, but that I'm still mature for my age.
One thing he can point out as a point of my childish ways is whenever he tries to talk about something "serious" or "deep" I always relate it to Spongebob or have some kind of Spongebob reference. That or some other Nickelodeon show.

Ok, so maybe I am a little childish and insane.

BUT. In my defense, Spongebob really isn't just a kids show. It has adult satire and humor in it as well. Same with Fairly Odd Parents. :P

I know it's ALWAYS stupid to get caught up in people's statuses on Facebook (spare me) but when my boyfriend posts something about "running in circles is all we can do" (note I don't know if this was referring to me, but I'm 99% sure) it reminded me of an episode of the FOP where Timmy keeps running around in circles, and ends up digging himself into a circular hole.

If we keep circling each other, are we not going to dig ourselves into a hole?

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Hopefully I'm going to come back here and blog a lot more from now on. I miss Nutang, and blogging in general.
I DON'T miss Xanga, though. People always found my site, and it takes too much time to private each entry or to add friends to the protected list.


I'm in school right now on my teacher's computer. Probably not a good idea, seeing as I don't exactly have permission to be on her computer. Yet, I continue.


I can't wait to live the college life. No matter where I go. A part of me wants to go to the west coast, furthest away from the east coast as I can get, for now. I went to my boyfriend's college this past weekend, and I loved it there. Everything about it. Absolutely incredible.

Speaking of which, did I mention I've been in a relationship for almost seven months? SEVEN. Or, it'll be seven on the 20th of September. My longest relationship ever, never thought I could do it until it happened. A few bumps along the way, yet it remains a strong, healthy relationship.

I've never been able to actually talk to someone before. I've also never fully trusted anyone I've been in a relationship before, either. It's a nice change.


Something was pointed out to me the other day in the middle of a conversation. In today's society a lot of sentences and thoughts when speaking in a conversation commonly end in, "Yeah" or "or whatever" or "and stuff like that." No one elaborates anymore on what the "or whatever" or "and stuff like that" actually mean. Ever since I noticed how much I actually say these phrases, and try to elaborate more.


I also tried meditating for the first time this weekend. SO much more difficult than you'd think. Concentration is key, then focusing on your third eye, then each chakra? Gah!


I plan on watching the History channel more, from now on. I watched a segment on these men re-creating the dust bowl the other day, I was in a freaking trance.



Okay, done with my jumbled thoughts. Good day to all!

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I'm kind of sad that I don't use NuTang as much anymore.
Things haven't been too worth wile to write about.
It's all just a big bunch of ranting.


Llast night I had a dream that I was screaming at my mother in the highest pitch my voice could reach. I was screaming, "YOU WON'T LISTEN TO ME. WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN TO ME!?"

This is the kind of screaming I'd been wanting to do to my mother, but never got the guts to do.

I told my mother about this dream, and she asked me if I thought I had this dream because that's how I really felt, and I said yes.


I'm hoping that can be a first step towards an actual compromise.

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I can't believe it.
I haven't logged on to my Xanga or NuTang in so long.

I came back right now to my secret garden, because I found an online page where they have refrigerator magnet words to put in to poetry. The chat window isn't big enough for me to publish my whole...piece of writing, so I wanted to document it here.


I whispered cruel, empty, winter decorated sounds to you.
A song.
I sit; thinking, wondering, questioning, tossing, raging.
Snow storming my mind.

We're touching as an icicle melts glitter on my face.
Night is dawning,
Sun is setting,
I fly high while you fall low in your drunken state.

I whispered again; voice louder,
Less gentle.

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I'm pretty sure I'll have a job during the Summer working at a sort of local amusement park. My goal is to save up money for two shows.

-Coldplay
-Blink-182

I'm already seeing The Fray soon. I'm so stoked. These are the three bands I want to see live in my entire life.

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