'one fine day when you look back,you will regret not cherishing people around you.'

pretty much,i am tired of friends betraying me.since young,my 'friends' all think that i am stupid and lied to me about many stuffs.

maybe because my mind is stupidly simple,i trust all their words without a doubt.and in the end,they 'surprised' me with a sentence 'its a lie.'

some lies last a minute some last for days.i trusted them wholeheartly and this is what i get.

so when i step into a new environment for a brand new secondary school life,i tell myself:'there is no way i am going to let them fool me again.'

with that,i started a brand new life.but i still don't know if they are telling me the truth,for they still 'surprised' me with that sentence.so i thought:'maybe if i keep them away from me,they can't lie to me anymore.'

and then,i start 'building' an invisible wall around me,keeping people away from me.

everytime i felt that someone has cross the safety zone,i do something to keep them away;sometimes a lie,sometimes a prank and sometimes a fiery look.

soon,they are all in the safety zone.

but i lost friends that i could talk heart to heart with.
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now,i still have two good friends beside me.

and i learnt to appreciate them.

i thank them for their accompany,their support and everything.sometimes telling them they are the best.

i have learnt something:those who lied to me are liars,but the new friends i meet are not liars,so i can't treat them as liars and believe that they would end up hurting me when they are totally innocent.liars and new friends are two different group of people,i can't just think they are both the same group of people all because they are my friends.

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haha...i felt so happy today.

i sold a shirt and a small cooking pot keychain and received a total of $15.

it was nice,my third and forth item sold.

i am so happy today...

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i always hate it when my brother uses the toilet.he always doesn't lock his door when he was using the toilet,sometimes even don't bother to close it.it was so disgusting when i accidentally see him urinating when i want to use the toilet.

yucks!yucks!yucks!

it was always very disgusting when he cannot even urinate properly.everytime he finished using the toilet,there will always be urine around the toiet bowl and on the toilet bowl,making the toilet so smelly.i always ask him to clean it up and sometimes,he can even pretend he hear nothing or see nothing on the toilet bowl.

its so yucky!!!

why cant some people just urinate properly?

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when the sun shines onto the river,you will see my love for you.
for the sparkles of the water represents my love for you.
as long as the river never dries,my love for you never dies.

that was what he told me.he promised me that he would never leaves me no matter what happens.but i should have known,everything from him is a lie.i should not have trusted him.

i used to hate him,for he was never seems to be serious about anything.he was always joking and playing and everything,but never did i once see a serious expression on his face.i dislike his 'play-play' attitude,so i always avoid him when i could.

but one day,he walked towards me with a serious looking face and told me he liked me.i thought it was his joke so i ignored it and walked away.but the next few weeks proved me wrong.

he tried to make friend with me,disurbing my friends in process,which irritates me more.and every monday,he would place a present on my table,something from my 'wish list'. he must have do a lot of homeworks for this prank.

then one day,while everyone is settling down during an assembly,he made use of the chance and ran towards the stage.holding the microphone in hand,he announced that he wanted to pursue me,which made me totally embarrassed.i could not stay any much longer with everyone's eyes staring at me, so i ran to hide in the toilet.and he got detention for a week for playing on stage without permission and creating chaos before assembly.this is going to be the most embarrasing moment of my life.

ever since that day,all my schoolmates start teasing me about that matter.i hate it so much i hide from everyone during breaks and all. but the funniest thing is that he will always be there when i need help, no matter where i am;inside or outside school.though i wondered if he followed me home everyday,i was a little touched by his actions.ok,i admit i was a little more touched. then every monday,he continued to give me a present,which touched me further more for i seldom tell anyone about my wish list,yet he was able to know all the things that i want.it was incredible.

so i decided to give him a chance

everything went on smoothly until that very day when i have to go to the hospital to take my check-up results;(something i have to do yearly to ensure i am healthy). the doctor said that the results show that i might have leukemia,so he wanted to give me another blood test.he also reminded that midwhile,i should try to avoid having any injuries as if i really have leukemia,the bleeding will be difficult to stop.

the result was a shock to me,for a very healthy person is suddenly announced with leukemia,so i hope my next result is leukemia-negative as i don't want to die so fast.

i told him the results.he take it as a joke as first,until i hand him my health report.then he was so shocked he ran away.i thought he was just too shocked and will be fine a few days later.

but he proved me wrong again.

he started to avoid me and stop talking to me anymore, as though i have some contagious disease.i wanted to know why he was doing that, so i confronted him,and his answer was so diappointing.

'because you have leukemia.and i don't want to waste my time on a dying person.'

the doctor only said i MIGHT have,yet he's already confirmed i have.

a week later,i was asked to take my second report.

it was leukemia-negative.

the nurse mixed up my blood with someone else's blood,which means that the first report placed under my name should not belong to me,but another person.

i laughed ironically.mistakes in hospital huh?

but thanks to this 'fake' report,i saw his true colours.

so much about being together forever and all the beautiful promises.i am not going to trust him anymore.

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i felt that my life is boring; always showing the same programme on tv,nothing new on the radio and same old view through that window... ...

at that moment,i came across a show,saying how one can walk towards the end of the earth to find 'the truth'.i was interested in that show,for that is the only interesting thing at that moment of my life.so without much thoughts,i've decided to travel to the end of the Earth to find the truth.

that very night,i dreamt myself looking outside the window,and i spotted a cute little puppy.out of curiosity of why it was outside my house,i walked towards it.i wanted to pet it on its head,and it does not seems to like me.it growls louder as i walked nearer,and when i stretch out my hand to pet it,it bit me.and then i woke up.i could still felt the pain in my hand and the fear in my heart.

i was all sweaty,so i decided to take a bath before i go to sleep again.but at that very moment,i saw a cute little puppy through the window.out of curiosity,i walked towards the puppy.it was so cute that i wanted to pet it on its head.at that moment,it ran away.

without much thoughts,i followed it.the puppy ran and ran and ran until we reach a cliff,then it disappears.there is a small house near the cliff and i was lost,so i knocked on the door to ask where am i.an old old man opened the door and he told me i was at the end of the earth.

i have reached the place where i can find my answer to the question of 'what is the truth?'

and so,i asked him:'what is the truth?'

he stared at me for a moment,then laughed out loud.'everyone came here,knock on my door and ask me the same question.but what makes you so sure the end of the Earth has the answer to your question?'

then he invited me into his house.his house was filled with many people;males and females;young and old;different races;yet all came here with the same motive: to find out about the truth.

then we all sit around the table,chatting and laughing.this is the first time i felt so happy in my entire adult life.we realised how foolish we were to walk all the way here to find out about something that does not exist.and when the sun sets,eveyone left to go home,i was also on my way home.but minutes later,when i turned around to look at the house again,it was gone.the others did not seems to realise it for they were happily heading home.

~what happened to the house?
~~was the house real or was it illusions?
~~~if it's a illusion,does that means everyone is having the same illusion at the same moment?
~~~~what really happened?
~~~~~who can tell me the truth?

with that i head home.back in my bed,i keep pondering about those questions.who can tell me the truth?or where can i find the truth?

with that,i set into my dreamland,finding another way to find out about the truth.

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how caN i nOt haTe hiM fOr breaking Up a HapPy faMiLy?
how can i not hate him for breaking her heart?
how can i not hate him for being not nice?
how can i not hate him for destroying what i used to believe?
how can i not hate him for making me cry everyday for more than a week?
how can i not hate him for making me feel so empty no matter how happy i am?
how can i not hate him for destroying the beautiful image i had in him?
how can i not hate him for not coming home anymore?
how can i not hate him for throwing his tempers here but not somewhere else?
how can i not hate him for destroying the peace when he needs money?
how can i not hate him for breaking his promises times and again?
how can i not hate him for being unreasonable?
how can i not hate him for not practising what he preachs?
how can i not hate him for being so different?

how can i not hate him?
but pretty much,i really don't hate him.
even when my heart feel so pitless,i did not hate him.
for at least,he left me some beautiful memories.
but i am angry with him.
for not cherishing those around him.
but rather go accompany that person.
who could destroy his everything.

how can i hate my father,
a person who earns so hard to raise me up,
a person who spend most of his time on work just because of this family,
a person who sarcifices much for this family,
a person who brings the family out to see the world,
a person who gave me a chance to see this world,
and a person who left beautiful prints in my memory.

how can i hate him?
but,how can i not hate him?

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