my car broke down again yesterday but its ok cause i got new clothes today......ha ha all my future husband has to do to cheer me up after a fight is buy me some clothes........ha ha.....oh sorry im having those kind of thoughts again.......i mean.....damn...if you didnt read my last entry you really should and let me know what the hell to think.....i dont know what the hell to think....i keep getting mixed messages from him......OH i found out what his middle name is.......and then i figured out why his sister calls him ben ben........ha ha.....but thats a secret.............anyways........i got new clothes.......i look soooo hot in them......my grandma actually picked out stuff that is my style for once..........wow.......and she didnt send me anything thats like 20 sizes too big for me.......i dont know why before she used to send me super large stuff and im sitting there like thats gonna fall off of me as soon as i put it on.......newayz.....i say that alot...the word anyways......hmmmm.....im gonna try to get that word out of my vocab starting now......so.......ummm.....well i wonder if rover got back yet...he is still at his grandma's and i want to go out tonight and i need him....and jeff to go out with me cause jeff has the car and jeff wont go if rover doesnt go and i wanna kick it with them two anyhow (ha ha i didnt say that word) cause i only got a week left before i leave .......im gonna miss them much.......but i am totally excited to go......well i get to live in another house with 12 other girls.......ugh....they better keep their hands off my clothes...especially my new ones....oh speaking of clothes.......i gotta go do laundry i have to pack a whole years worth of clothes.......

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ok well i havent been here in forever it seems but it has only been like 2 days since i was last on........ummmm maybe three......wellllllll like i said before i went to go kick it with rover monday night........well we left to go to the poolhall (hot shots). there was liz myself rover and my brother......well my brother is like an expert at pool and i am advanced and rover and liz just suck so me and my brother played against eachother all night while the other two just kept switching teams......anyway......after the poolhall we came back to the house......rover had about a total of 3 pitchers of alcohol all to himself so he was really wasted......and he would not shut up..... im not even kidding you he kept talking and he talked in circles it was really funny....well he ended up staying the night cause he passed out while i was giving him a back massage........and i had to sneak him out in the morning cause of my brother....it was awkward......well the next night(it is now tuesday night) we went to the pool hall (me, liz, sister, anna, nicole, regina, james, and two other unimportant people) well by the time we got back i had been extremely pissed at my sister and regina.......so much so that i had droped them off at reginas house and was gonna go back to hot shots with just liz but i had to stop by my house for a sec and i was so pissed at my sis that i threw my keys down and broke the antitheft chip in my key off.........after spending like 2 hours of trying to figure out why my car wouldnt start i finally started to look for the chip and found it like an hour later and rover (who was outside talking with my brother when i got home) suggested that we just not go and stay with him and go get some hard liqour and drink with him cause my brother was about ready to pass out anyway......so we did......we bought two bottles of hard liquor and when we got back to the house rover shared one with my brother and my brother was really drunk and throwing up and shit and finally passed out and me and liz and rover cracked the other one and well got buzzed.......then i ended up giving rover a back massage again for like an hour before i passed out on top of him and i woke up with his arm around me....yes that means he spent two nights in a row at my house in the same bed as me........well......last night he was supposed to take me and liz out when he got back from his grandparents but he still hasnt gotten back yet and its the next day.......so he owes my a three hour back massage......he said he was gonna give me like a two hour one but i added another hour cause he made me wait another day.........well.....i gotta go run some errands hope he is home by the time i get back......oh well in my next entry i have to mention something about the condoms.....remind me to tell you about that......

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ok so im going to play pool with rover and my brother and my sister's best friend.......this should be interesting......edit to come later

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Scotty doesnt know feona and me do it in my van every sunday. she tells him shes at church but she doesnt go and shes on her knees and scotty doesnt know..........ha ha sorry i just watched euro trip for like the seventh time..... my friend is over here right now and she just had a number to call in her hand like five minutes ago and she lost the number somewhere in my clean living room......ha ha she is such a dork......oh wait she found it it was sitting out in the open on the table.........lol she is such a blonde and she doesnt even have blonde hair.........ok well last night was cool i went to the club and then to a party afterward.....had major fun....oh its rovers birthday today and he turned 21.........and i thought he drank before....ha ha whatever......anyway .................i have to go clean my house now before my brother gets home........lol......im in such a funny mood right now ok well *yawn* ok well i think ima go to sleep first and then clean.....i dont know how that is going to work though.......i guess ill just clean in my dream that way i can do both at once

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ok so last night i felt like getting drunk........had my best friend over here, rover and this guy named john.............well i didnt mean to get shit faced drunk.....but i did........really bad......i dont know exactly what i did last night but i really pissed my best friend off...i dont know yet if i pissed rover or john off but im going to apologize to them for last night.......regardless of the downs of last night i do have to say that i had fun........wow im still feeling a little bit tipsy and .......fuck i wanna cry..........i dont know what i said last night....i do know that last night was the first time i ever puked as a result of drinking.........and i dont know if im gonna drink again......my sister said some really fucked up shit to me.........and i dont even give a fuck im sick of my sister trying to make me perfect.......incase you haven't noticed by now.....I DONT WANNA FUCKING BE PERFECT AND I DONT WANT ANYONE TO WANT ME TO BE PERFECT..........i have come to a conclusion though about last night.....it would have been safer for me to just have gotten high cause atleast i wouldnt have ended up half naked and passed out on my kitchen floor with applejuice and vodka everywhere..........

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OMFG......im so pissed evidently rover thinks that i faked being drunk last night cause i was jealous of the guys paying more attention to my friend than they were to me........fuck that shit.......fuck that....and now my best friend is pissed at me you know what if this is how this friendship ends im telling you right now there will be NOTHING between me and rover.....NOTHING......... im so pissed..... and he is avoiding me by not answering his phone or talking to me about this shit.......fuck you ...........if your not gonna talk to me then fuck you..... grrrrr i just wish i could beat the shit outta him right now but im not going to do that. ....oh and then after beign bitched at by my sister and my friend i wrote this really long thing where i just started typing the shit that i was thinking about myself and i have one fucked up self image........ i dont understand....all i know is i might be excommunicating the people that i love to talk to and hang around the most.......

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