Ok so I got two hours of crappy sleep and then went to my event. There were a few problems but nothing that I couldn't iron out.

The midway went great which was my biggest concern. One of my vendors, the St. Louis Blues came again. I always love when they come. Jason the sales guy that always come by is very nice and very good looking. He brought me two free tickets to a game! Yippee!

Ok so my job really only sucks a couple times a year. Other then those really crappy times I have a great boss, good benefits, and decent pay. The only reason that this year was bad was that my Book Chairman dropped out and that really increased my work load.

Now I am down here in Piedmont with my mom and I have already gotten an extra 4 hours of sleep. I sat down on tthe couch and woke up 4 hours later. So I feel a little better. Plus I got to see my puppy! He is so cute. I love my puppy dog.

Well sleep is on the schedule again so I am going to sign off! Night all!

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My job f***ing sucks. I really do hate it. I just got done with a project 20 minutes ago and now I am trying to decide if caffiene can keep me alert for the next 20 hours. I haven't slept since my lunch break (gotta love sleeping in your car) and that was at noon. I am afraid that if I go to sleep know I won't wake up in time to get up and get ready in the morning for this big event that I am coordinating. If I missed I could probably kiss my job goodbye considering this is my biggest event of the year and some other minor details have gotten screwed up. Mostly not my fault but I get blamed for it anyway.

I have to be at the event from 6:30 until noon and then hop in the car and drive down south to see my mother because it is her 50th birthday.

That is a boring as all get out 2 hour drive where I will spend Saturday, Sunday and part of Monday thinking man am I glad I got the f**k out of this town. I am going to try to look up a couple of friends who still live in the area and maybe spend a couple hours with them.

I got a second job, I start Thursday. Which means I have lost all forms of spare time and have given the next 21 months over to the wonderfully sucky 2 jobs and school routine. Here is my schedule starting next week.

Sunday - 10 AM - 11:30 AM - Mass, 12 noon - 9 PM - Work PT job
Monday - 8:30 AM - 4:30 PM - Work FT job, 7:00 PM - 8:30 PM - RCIA Classes
Tuesday - 9 AM - 5 PM - Work FT job, 5:30 PM - 9 PM - Work PT Job
Wednesday - 8:30 AM - 4:30 PM - Work FT job, 6 PM - 9 PM - Political Science Class
Thursday - 9 AM - 5 PM - Work FT job, 5:30 PM - 9 PM - Work PT job
Friday - 9 AM - 5 PM - Work FT Job, 5:30 PM - 9 PM - Work PT job
Saturday - 12 noon - 9 PM - Work PT job

But the second job is paying me $7/hr so hopefully that will help the debt column disappear soon!

Anyway, I need to pack and load the car up so I will leave you with this thought of the day...
WORK SUCKS!!!!!!!!

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Forgive me for not posting. I really have been trying to spend less time on the computer and more time having a real life for a change.

So anyway here is what is up.

WE WON THE WORLD SERIES!!!!!! Cards won, Cards won! And my FAVORITE player won MVP! Go #22!!!

I have been talking to Mary at the Cathedral about converting to Catholicism and hopefully I will be getting ready for that soon. I look forward to going to mass on Sundays which is nice. I feel more relaxed lately which I can only attribute to church since that is the only really new thing in my life right now. It feels nice to actually want to get out of bed on the weekends. I feel like my life is worth living again.

I stopped taking my medication for the depression cause I lost my new prescription and I have decided to see how I do without it until I see my doctor again.

I have made some major changes in my life lately. Between actually going to mass on Sundays, the 15 pounds that I lost in 7 months, I haven't had a cigarette in 2 hours and I am going to try to quit for good this time. Not to mention I actually went out with a friend last weekend. Dinner and a haunted house! It was a lot of fun and I laughed a lot which felt really great!

I was a 1920's Flapper Girl for Halloween this year and I won best costume at work! It was a lot of fun and I got some interesting looks at work!

Well I have actually been doing good about going to bed on time and making it to work on time lately and this is the latest I have bee up all week so I am gonna hit the hay!

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Cards Won!!! We kicked the tigers butts! AND David Eckstein was the mvp!!!! I LOVE David Eckstein! Go Cards! Go Cards!

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Me as a blonde!

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Ok so the link isn't working but visit my flickr page if you really wanna see.

Flickr account name: stlcardsgal86

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Ok sorry for not posting since Thursday. Please forgive me. Life has been a little shitty.

Work sucks as usual.. I am still busting my ass for very litle pay. To give you a hint... I make about 3 or 4 grand more then poverty level and can't afford to live on my own. I live with my family.

My aunt has her new little boy and that has been very interesting. To be completely honest I don't think she was prepared for being a mom. But then who is with their first. She is just driving me a bit crazy with all of it and all of the sudden she has changed the house rules because she doesn't want any bad influences. For example, no smoking outside anymore. I never smoked inside of her house but I do smoke on the front porch. No more... why you might ask, he might see me doing it and that would be a bad example to set. It isn't like I would even let him be any where near me when I smoked. I once went 12 hours without a cigarette because I was watching my other cousin. I didn't even sneak outside for a smoke when I put her down for a nap. I keep smoking on the front porch becuase that was the deal when I moved in. I don't leave the door open and the blinds are closed. He couldn't see me unless he came outside. I don't leave the ashtray, the cigarettes or the lighter out where he can get them either.

I flirt, I have always and will always be a flirt. It is part of who I am and I like it. I understand the consquences of what could happen but I never flirt with just random guys. I flirt with this one guy at work. He is 23, has a girlfriend and works in a different department. It has always been very casual flirting until Friday and he said something that was a little out of line. I told him that it was a little inapporiate and that I was sorry if he felt that I was leading him in that direction but that I thought he understood that I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend and that I was under the assumption that is was just casual flirting. He appoligized and I accepted and everything was fine. I called Gray to tell him what happened and at first he just said that he thought I had handled it well. Later he called back and said something along the lines of know maybe I would understand the repercussions of just flirting with guys. Excuse me it isn't like he slipped me a roofie and raped me. I don't know do you agree with him or with me? I mean he knew coming into the relationship that I was a flirt. I mean that is how we met.

So, anyway... becuase of this on top of my already present anxiety and depression I spent most of the weekend in bed. Sleeping to much is one of the oh so fun side effects. Now it is Sunday and I have a wasted weekend and no phone call from my boyfriend all weekend. One of my friends called, two of the guys I used to date called me, and my aunt called me. Did my boyfriend call me, nope.

Now I am just lieing on my couch. Have I had a shitty weekend yep! I did lose 6 lbs though. Not eating can do that for you. I am depressed, I am emotional, I am vunerable, and I don't feel like anyone cares. I give up...

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Thats right ladies and gents! The Cards are going to Detroit to whip up on the Tigers!!! We won, we kicked the mets @$$ and we are looking for the Tigers!

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Ok so I was an hour and half late to work today. As a matter of fact I would have been later if my supervisor hadn't called to wake me up. That was an interesting way to start my day... Why was I late to work you ask? Becuase my aunts flight was supposed to land at 7:30 pm and it got cancelled. She was able to get a flight that came in at 11:30 though. Until that is it got delayed until 1:30 AM! I was at the airport until 2 am and then didn't get home until 3. Yeah so... but this was worth it! Jackson is two and from russia. He has blue eyes and blonde hair. He talks a mile a minute mostly in russian, but he mixes a few english words in here and there.

I have an a second interview for a part time job coming up. Hopefully that will help me pay off the debt in time to go back to school. Not to mention give me a little extra holiday money.

I got the settlement offer for my dad's lawsuit. FYI - My dad passed away in Sept 2005 and he was in the middle of sueing his former employer due to a denied workers comp claim. Since he passed I get the money since I am an only child. I signed the offer and gave it back to my lawyer so hopefully I will have the check soon enough so I can pay off his funeral and my loan from mom.

CLARIFICATION FROM THE LAST ENTRY!
My Biological clock is ticking but I am not waking up! I am ignoring it with a passion! I am in no way shape or form ready to be a mom! Also I am currently the best form of birth control...abstinence.

Well is late and I really need to be on time to work tomorrow! Night all!

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