seems like im hit w flu bugs too..... shivered although is hot! and having sore throat yesterday... and more while typing i shiver non stop although the air cond is off @@''

renaye said fever in progress .... die lo.... everytime i shiver only 1 day... and the next day i will feel ok... but today.... i still shiver..... die or not! i hate getting sick because i dont get off although im sick... which frustrate me even more......

damn annoying to get sick... go away sick bug... !

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Today morning was horrible, I dont get a good sleep because of my head was creating problem to me, imagine, my head was so painful until i wake up from my sleep. The pain was so intense and so hard for me to cope, i twisted around my bed to rest my head so it wont get so painful, at least i think i can try to catch another hour of sleep, but it was not helping.

The pain was as if someone pinched you at the most sensitive part (ur cell) and twisted it over n over again, i covered my head and massaged it but nothing happen, the pain keep coming back and getting worse. until i cant take it anymore and jump off my bed to search for pain killer. Well I managed to get one only, but it is not helping at all.

i tried to knock my dad's room door, to tell him, but im afraid to get yell upon, (well everytime im sick i got all the weird blame) but i know if i dont do so, i will have much worse morning, forced to wake up to work and drive along the road, so i took up my courage and knocked his door,~ yeah i get blame upon the most ridiculous reason but i ignore it.... he bought me painkiller and i have my rest until 12pm. and now sitting infront of the notebook at the office...typing it in...

I been suffering from headache since i could remember, it was just too long ago, the headache follows me everywhere i go, especially when the weather was weird, too hot or hot and sudenly cold and hot again.. im very sensitive to it, often i get one week once or one week twice.... :'(

but since this year, the condition was better, well not often headache but the degree of painfulness were much higher compared to the past @@''

this is the record of the headache for my own reference tho~
10,11 Feb(mild headache) ,6 April & 6 July (lower part) v Painful type

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As a chinese school ex student, we often encounter chinese calligraphy, which was one of the task i hate the most, because i dont write beautiful calligraphy, and often we have to follow exactly the same in order to get full marks, which eventually block our creativity to do so.

There are two type of "mao pi" (the brush), one of the Chinese which u have to deep in the "mo" (ink) which smell very bad, another one of the Japanese which the ink were already in there (just like a pen and the brush is harder,easier to control).

Japanese "Mao Pi" was our favourite choice, but the school teacher banned us from using Japanese "mao pi", which was a headache for us, because to write "Xiao Kai" (smaller version of calligraphy) were often difficult enough, especially the chinese "Mao pi" is soft.

However, remembering the old day~ we were smart enough to use Japanese "mao pi" with the Chinese "mo" so the teacher wont found out. (if used Japanese "mao pi" with the pre loaded ink, the trace at the back of the paper sheet will turned blue, and if you used "mo" the trace will turn black, so the teacher wont found out~).

That was the old day, few days back, an old uncle supplier was looking at my way of holding pen, and stated that the way i hold it will not able to write calligraphy @@'', lol sort of been stepped on the tail... so decided to ask my dad to teach me (yeah he have nice calligraphy writing....) so i try to write my name~... which turned out disaster at 1st haha.... but...

This is the calligraphy that i can write for now... demo Ganbarimasu!

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I still often think of my passed away dog... it seems she does had a huge impact towards me, whenever i think of her... ill ended up with tears or became a red panda...

although 2 years of knowing her might be relatively short to some of u, but to me, itn was something memorable, especially her way of showing happiness, her way enjoying her luxury life eating beef.. and when thunder strike.. she will run upstair n hide inside my room or the toilet... :'(

often standing at the place she died, make my tears burst too, and often ill stand there, asking her r u at the heaven now, how is the place? is it beautiful and such... :'(

i miss her :'(,(and she is my best pal that i speak Japanese to) few days ago, while waiting for customer, i saw a moth at the shop, "Chinese believed that, when someone passed away, they will turned into insect and such to re visit us", when i saw the moth, immediately my brain told me is Lucky, so quickly i grab my camera to snap a few pictures.... and i was standing there looking at it.

Later the customer came, and when they went back, the moth no longer there.... i seriousl believed it was Lucky's soul of paying last visit....

the Moth

Last pic of Lucky taken after she came back from the vet...

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Yesterday onwards, i as obsessed with how our brain function due to the new Jdrama im watching now ~ Mr. Brain, so today i decided to do a brain test... and haha this the result.

Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 37%
Visual : 62%
Left : 44%
Right : 55%

No matter which side of your brain is dominant,
M i n d W a r e
can strengthen your emotional brain power by helping you understand how
you feel about yourself.

Jolene, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.

Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.

You tend to see things in "wholes" without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utitlize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.

In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some "inner dialogue."

All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.

You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning. This is so true, i learned japanese in audio, but i have to write it down lol

It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk "missing out" on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.

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It is not even a week from the day we brought her home from the vet, that we think had overdosed her with steroid which causes her to blind a side. But things changed ever since she came back from the vet, she was so weak, and her barking out of tune, and she was so hungry all the time, eating as if she had not eat for months, and breathing so hard and loud.

Everyday after work, I will walked my dogs, and Lucky no longer walk fast, and often get too tired to walk. I told my dad about it, and today the new vet were supposed to pick her up at 2pm, but she can't make it.

She passed away peacefully at 28.06.2009, as for the time was not sure, dad found her lying unmoved when he reached home, immediately rushes back while my tears can't stop flowing. My hands r still shaking while typing.

Lucky was a lost or abandoned dog by her previous owner, she was at my dad窶冱 shop area, living alone at the nearby staircase, she was so afraid of human, whoever approached her, she will just ran away, and stay far away from human.

Until year 2008 the 6th day of Chinese new year, when I was helping at the shop, and got so bored, started approaching Lucky, she was so afraid of me at a time, whenever I walked near her, you could see her rushed off to another part of the street. Since it was still New Year, so there were no other human around except us.

So I continued approached her, as in she walked left, I walked left, she walked straight I walked straight, I imitated her, and soon she come to accept me as her friend who do not pose a threat to her. Soon, she come to accept my elder brother too who happened to be there.

After CNY, I no longer helped at my parent窶冱 shop but at March, I started working full time for them, and Lucky was overwhelmed by it, every morning once I reached the shop, I窶冤l rushed to the staircase to say 窶廾hayou Gozaimasu, Ogenki desuka窶� 窶� 窶廨ood Morning, How are you窶�, she will come with her 100miles/hour tail swing, and I窶冤l feed her with her breakfast. And it became routine for me to call her down for her food, and later she will go back to her 窶徂ouse窶� to sleep.

Sometimes when I wanted to go to the bank which is just nearby, I窶冤l asked her along, she will follow me until the front, and when she don窶冲 see me (as in I was inside) she will walked back to the shop and keep looking inside the shop to search for me. But soon, after many times of repetition, she will just wait for me outside the bank and we will run back to the shop to see who reaches the shop 1st.

Saturday or Sunday, we often compete running on the road, since it was often empty, or she will be so happy if we walked side by side round the shop lot. She will run so fast to the front and turned her head around to wait for me. Wasn窶冲 she cute?

We were so afraid she might get caught by the local council and death penalty awaits her, so we also applied a dog license for her. Because of this dog license plate, had totally changed her life forever.

At the month of July ( I was in KL ), my dad called, saying Lucky was missing from the shop, when I received the news, I can窶冲 stop crying fears of the local council had sent her to meet the creator. But again, I pray that someone kind enough to allow her to have a proper shelter.

My dad went to SPCA, Local Council and many places to search for Lucky, but no hopes, until the day when me and my uncle went back to Penang, while having dinner with my parents, my mother received a called from a stranger, stating that Lucky was currently at his house, we were shocked and suspect that it might be fraud, but later when he told us Lucky窶冱 license number, I knew immediately it was her.

Next day we went to that guy窶冱 house, and I was happy to see Lucky there, with her tail swing 100miles per hour. We thank the founder, and ever since then, Lucky窶冱 life changed, she was welcomed to our house, (at first when she was at the shop we do not want to bring her home, because my another dog Poppy will be too jealous to harm her) but since it had fated Lucky to be as my house窶冱 dog , Poppy too have to accept her.

She was a happy dog at home, often being very patient towards Poppy obsessive behavior, and will be super happy if she is fully fed with beef and rice. Oh and she loved corns窶ｦ she enjoyed eating corns while Poppy dislike it. And she loves ice cream too.

Unfortunately, 2 days before May 24th, her left eye started acting up, gave her unbearable pain, so on the May24 we sent her to the vet for 3 weeks (San shuukan) and undergo an eye surgery, and overdosed with steroid.

On father窶冱 day we brought her home, she was so happy to see us at the clinic, want to rush out from the clinic窶ｦ and 3 weeks of clinic life finally over, her appetite shocked us, when she swallow all her dinner in a second, and wallop the cakes in seconds too窶ｦ we suspect she were not well fed by the vet, making her so hungry.

One more, her barking was out of tune, and I had already suspected something was wrong with her, and she have no energy to run too when I walked them every evening. (We often run home as part of their exercise)

Yesterday night I told my dad about it, and we decided to send her to the vet today, but why? DOUSHITE!! If only she can wait for another few hours窶ｦ :窶�(

I know it is part of life窶ｦ. At least she didn窶冲 pass away at the clinic but the house she lived for a year plus that sheltered her with love and foods.

R.I.P Lucky may thee reborn in a home with loves

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