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This logic promptly deposits me at the position that pre-marital sex isn't in itself evil, so long as both parties know what they're getting themselves into. Using a girl and leaving her: wrong. Meeting someone at a bar and taking her back to your place when you both know it is gonna be a one night stand: fine.

--you

Just in case i forget. all i have ever been to you was just another girl you used.


it hurts to think that i treasured your memory for so long, when at the same time i was never in your heart and i left your mind as soon as i left your embrace.

maybe i knew this before and just didn't want to believe. but i hear you now.

that is my reality. no more pretending.

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you did this. i wasn't always a pessimist.

i want love and romance and happily ever after. but you seem so intent on making me angry at the world like you are.


i don't want to let you see the most tender part of me anymore. i don't want to let you in. because you won't let me in.

i want a companion not a pen pal. i want conversation, not riddles. i want someone who will love me back.

i want some one who will confide in me. i want some one who will give me hugs and kisses. i want someone who will be home for dinner. i want some one to wake up to. and some one that will wipe my tears away, not create them.

i don't know why our paths crossed. i don't know why you use it against me. i would accept you and i would trust you, so why can't you do that for me?

if you are afraid that i will not accept you when we meet, then why do you stick around?

why don't you bother some one else if i am not what you want? if you won't be with me, then why don't you leave me alone so i can look elsewhere?

at this point, why do i care about anything that has to do with you? all i know of you are riddles and blinking lights. i am starting to believe that it is all you will ever be to me.

that is fine, i just want to hear from you that you don't want me so i can move on.but i guess that's the problem. i never hear anything from you.

why don't i get to decide how i feel about you? Why do you get to decide everything about us? why do you have all of the control?

love isn't about control. it's about the willingness to surrender it.

i thought by letting you invade my privacy, you would see that i don't want to hide from you. i was willing to share so you could see that i want you to find me.

i thought by letting you invade my privacy you would find what ever it was you were looking for that would show you i am trustworthy.

by doing nothing, it has shown me that you are not to be trusted with anything i value, like my secrets. by not giving me any part of you, i know that you cannot be trusted with my affection.


by doing nothing, you are giving me no reason to wait for you. your neglect only shows me that i am right.

one day some one will find me that will love me back. he will hold me when we sleep and call just to say hi.

i don't ask you for the world, just the chance. and since you won't give me one, i have no choice, but to deny you.

i can't do this. i am at work and angry now and the girls don't deserve that.

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