Well he finally did it. Due to being overwhelmingly depressed to really write in here...a depression caused primarily by Chad's actions (or inactions as the case proves to be)...I haven't kept anyone updated on what it is he was doing and not doing which was screwing this entire household over.

But tonight...was the final fucking straw. Because of his inability to behave like an adult..and rarely in human...our drummer and bassist are uncomfortable being in a band with him. We are booked to play an important show next Saturday. And unless something changes dramatically with Chad..it will be the last time they ever play with us. Or..more importantly..with me. I've come to feel that they are my brothers. Better friends than my supposed best friends had been in my past. But they cannot and will not feel that kinship with chad. I don't blame them for leaving. It just sucks how I am stuck in the middle of this.

I am beginning the surgical procedure to remove my "parasitic siamese twin". I am going to have an important discussion with my mom tomorrow which i hope will give me a place to go in May when our lease is up here. All other options are dried up and have blown away like dust. I can't go on trying to better my situation if he is involved. I will do everything I possibly can to better my situation. And whether Chad straightens up and can join us or not..I hope to be in a band with Vinnie and Brian again.

Prepare the scalpel lord. Your Chad is coming home.

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So it's Christmas Eve officially...here anyway...and NuTang is back up! I created this layout weeks ago but couldn't put it because, obviously, NuTang was down. I didn't get the chance to tweak it to make it look better for this site but it'll do. I'll have to make a post-holiday season layout but this'll stick around for a bit.

I have to work today and on Christmas. But my mom is taking a bus from Lansdale to the bus station a little before I get there by way of bus after work. We'll take the next train together and we'll get to my apartment by 11:15pm or so. The livingroom is decorated. I cleaned my room again today and wanted to put up lights but I don't have enough outlets nor anything to hang lights with. but my mom is bringing a mini tree that we'll decorate for my room.

As per tradition i will put on my DVD of A Christmas Story and put it on repeat. I guess we'll relax while watching it until we fall asleep. She is getting some breakfast stuff from McDonalds for us to heat up in the morning. I wanted to buy stuff to cook a nice Christmas breakfast but with Chad not paying any money for rent, I didn't have the money for such items. There will be A LOT more about this topic but I want to keep this entry primarily to the brighter side of the holiday.

I wasn't able to get my mom much of anything (for the same reason just mentioned) and she told me not to get her anything. It's been an incredibly tough year for her and she's locked out of the house where most of her stuff is so there's a lot that I wanted to get her. She told me not to get her anything because I need money so badly but I told her that if someone had been helping to pay rent then i would have had NEEDED the money. But I got her what I could. I'd like to pick up one or two things at Rite Aid by the bus station since I have to wait about an hour after I get off my train til my bus leaves. I'll just have to wrap them in the livingroom while she's in here...if I can get her anything else. There's also a couple of things that I want to get Jenn...nothing huge but get her something but that may have to wait til January which she said would be fine with her. But I know that the store has one thing that I want to get her that I haven't found anywhere else so we'll see if I can manage to afford it today.

My mom and I will try to wake up relatively early and open presents. I gave her a list of some books, dvd's and a couple other items that would be useful that I'd enjoy getting. After opening presents we will heat up our breakfast, drink egg nog and watch a movie she gets me, if indeed she does. But I am pretty sure that she will.

Then i will get my shower and get ready for work when I need to. We'll catch the same train to the bus station and I will hop right onto my bus and her bus to Lansdale should leave about the same time. I think that one of my Uncle's will be picking her up when she gets home to go to our family's get together. Unfortunately I haven't seen them since last Christmas because I had to work during their get togethers during the summer and I worked on Thanksgiving. And now I'll miss them again. But I hope that she has a great day. And hopefully work won't suck too much. I'll make some extra money due to holiday pay but the extra money is just going in to pay rent because someone made us far behind (I know, I'm probably beating that point to death by now). But here's praying that work is okay.

But I am thankful for whatever time I get to spend with my mom.

I hope that all of you have a great Christmas and I look forward to reading about your day when entries are posted.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, friends!

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