I will never understand anything.
I don't understand my emotions. My feelings.
My head telling me one thing, but my heart telling me another.
I will never fully understand what I say or what others say, unless you're willing to repeat yourself a few times until I understand completely.

And I will never understand why I have such violently shifting mood swings.
Yes, I'm human. Yes, I have hormones. But why?

I don't think I even understand existence. Reality. Fate.
Nothin'.

People's actions, their words; saying one thing, doing another. We're all so different, yet we're exactly the same.

It bothers me that I have so many questions that may never be answered.
It also scares me at the same time.

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I really do love how NuTang is such a tight-knit online blogging community. When you ask for feedback, interested users give it to you.

OHMYGOSH. I have somehow earned 4 unused friend invite codes!
How did this happen? When did this happen? Why am I so excited!?

I don't really know if I want to use them on anyone, actually. Unless I think someone is REALLY deserving of it. Hey, I'll admit, maybe I wasn't exactly FULLY deserving of the friend invite code Stevie gave me, but I blog here sometimes. I would more if I thought about it more. I don't even really use my Xanga THAT much anymore.

Plus, I read this somewhere...I don't remember where, honestly. I think it was on one of Stevie's posts, but if you write something on Xanga you don't want your friends to see, somehow they see it anyway.

Ah. I FINALLY got my copy of Breaking Dawn yesterday. I haven't started it yet, though. I am 9 chapters from finishing Stephenie Meyer's adult book; The Host. It's actually really really good. Better than I expected. I mean, it can't compare to the Twilight series, but it was STILL a good book.

Look at me, talking like I already finished. 9 chapters to go!

Ugh. I am also very upset with IB. Because of my schedule, it prevented me from being able to take Musical Theatre...
You have NO idea how PISSED OFF I am about not receiving that class. Maybe not pissed off...but just really REALLY sad. Dang.

I wrote a lot of random crap in the blog. Oops!
:)

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Do you believe the phrase "Once a cheater, always a cheater" to be true?

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Sorry, I just really love that word :)
It means "butterfly" in Spanish.
I think if I ever have a daughter, that is what I will name her.
Mariposa.


This was a butterfly that got whacked by someone and their tennis racket T.T
I thought it was really pretty, though.

Even if I was afraid of it >.>

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And I finally got what I wanted.

He finally asked me out, and quite frankly, I am happy I waited.
Ahh, yes.

But, anyways. I got back from the mountains yesterday, and I do believe its safe to say that I did indeed enjoy myself. The mountains were gorgeous, as were my friends. Of course, there was a not so wonderful moment where I almost broke Britney's BRAND NEW camera. Like, the third one she's had in 2008 so far. D:

Though, I am very happy to be back. And to be going back to work. I love my job so much, and the people there. Most of the time. It's just so much fun, I feel so happy there, even during a bad day or when people are being douchebags.

Life is good. I love music. I love friends. I love listening and looking and feeling and touching and tasting and just, being. A lot of things are beautiful, we just have to dig and make sure we find the beauty even in a sticky situation.

Now, I could be blinded by happiness or something right now, because I know my last few blogs were most definitely less than happy. But I mean, if you have something to be happy about it, you should express it, right?

I wish more people could be happy all the time. I mean, heck, I wish I myself could be happy ALL the time. But...that wouldn't be life, then. Life is always worth living, no matter how bad the bad times may get.

So corny. Gah. But true!

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Why am I so unhappy right now?

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