you crazy lazy son of a bitch. you keep on movin cause you lost your least the more you fuck up the more you lead... lead yourelf down the path where the crazies go and battle out whos the craziest toe to toe. you crazy sick motherfucker you just keep losing the game you chose to place. when you run out of money crazy no more games. crazy goes crazy and ends up driving himself mad i suggested suicide but he had something on his side. crazy wasnt so crazy. he was faking the whole damn thing. then who was really crzy?

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im wondering if you know me. if you read the book explaining me. funny how it doesnt exist. its funny how you dont have to know me to know. until the factual information you presented is proven wrong. youll keep singing the same song. your jaw drops your hands claspe your brain shuts down just like an ass. if you know me then wheres the book. the book you must have read to have me somewhat shook. it doesnt mind being read but not the lies youve said. im wondering ? im wondering since the book you have describes someone else wheres the book that describes yourself. just like you and me we burned our book for no one to see. writing a new one to change who we.... im wondering? wondering then if thats the case yours must be a hidden face. if like me you hold up gaurd then why must you break down the fourth wall. with anything but truth? im wondering how you do that thing you do i leave you with one last wonder. your wondering why i hide? why my book like theres stays to themsleves. well if you have to wonder do you even know yourself?

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looing foward to being or at least you use to think that way. but just because they say so you turned and wlaked away. you ran, you walked either way just because. you let them win which gives them just cause. to keep you down and in submission. to lead you on even if suspicious. you do this why? not just because you do but because they make you. just because, just because theyre older. just because theyre bigger is not the cause of why you pulled the trigger you have a brian you understand and just because now an innocent is dead. you let them take over you let them take charge but whos the one to blame whos going to get charged. with a crime of murder on the wings of just because youll lose everytime only if just because.

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Saturday, August 14, 2004 how special a day this is , is it not i mean no rain some shine and it felt like i should of had more than boxers on when i went for a run this morning yep thats right i went for a run its a new plan like an awakening more like i was fuckin bored but what are you gonna do........ arent you guys so excited school bell rings right around the corner im so tired of being out of school and theatre its lifeless and meaningless........ i hate friendship anythings like those half broken heart thingys i dont want it but is it so much to want to feel loved to feel wanted does anybody love laron??... anywho i went on sort of an adventure today down to the libary i checked out some musicals and all of the ones i checked out excluding one had some time of german jewish relations going on cabaret for instance which was really good by the way and the fact that ill be doing it come november is exciting but i realized i really dont like liza minelli i like her acting but it urked me to continously watch her..... well well well i see theres not a big crowd out there well anywho my favorite one i got was fiddler on the roof made me want to be jewish i know ive benn saying it but it really touched my heart...... i cant wait for school to start to be in my dorm ehich i have to share with 3 other people count em' three yeah im ready what could be worse nuthing really ........ i have to say everyday im not in hilliard i become whiter and whiter i miss you guys your what keeps me ground and black of course hahahaha!!!!! ... laterhater love laron Public - 3:07 AM - add eprops - add comments - edit it - email it Wednesday, August 11, 2004 hey just saying wasup aint much to say nuthin is up except for the regular family visit from the midwest got some skool supplies yay how excited was i im getting a quiji board my cousin is a laughing dead matter when it comes to that board but i want it....... later lover black man out!!!! Public - 7:34 PM - add eprops - add comments - edit it - email it Friday, August 06, 2004 so first off well where do i want to start off well first i went to american idol with dacee and it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo long im happy and sad to say we made it to the 2nd round just one step away from national television but we got the boot and to be honest i deserved it i was sick and by the end of my song i started cracking but it was all a bunch a bullshit i mean i loved the whole experience but dont have us there and be looking for the worst singers i mean they literally at the first part of the audition were sending people home out of about 500 only 2 made it through and so we were like this is moving too damn fast and so did the peple in front of us so we stopped these people and said sing for us we stopped at least 500 people and about only 3 of them could sang and i say sang because everyone else could sang not just sing but sang.... we kinda knew that there was gonna be the worst to get through but majority to make a show good and make ohio look bad is a little not nice to me i mean to top it all off it was raining and we hadnt ate i was so fuckin hungry let me tell you a nigga was hungry...... but good news is that one of daytons finest made it through me and dacee was so excited he was with the group right next to ours and he sung the song i originally intended on singing he was so happy he fell to the ground i mean yeah but not in the mudd. well im kinda like tired and shit so like um anyway or watever like holla at me dawg lol !!!! but forreal does anybody watch big brother5 holler at me love all yall motha fucka's even if you dont love me im out lovehater04 ps thats my tatoo!!! yay for me!! Public - 1:42 AM - 2 eprops - 1 comment - edit it - email it Tuesday, July 27, 2004 get out forreal i didnt believe it was possible but really it was part of a song and im in love with that songi play it over and over again..... si im ready so ready for school now although its a slow start all my fall classes are theatre isnt that funny i enjoy it even though its not the classes i want per say but itll work good enough to keep me happy for now and there are some fine ass people at wright state please try and stop the hoe from coming out of me...... aww kuss i miss you before you leave you gotta give me your dorm number so i can call you i already lost mine but its all gravy someone knows it right im mad that schools like wright stae and ohio state dont start until september i wanna hurry and start and that previous note goes for you to katie dear or ima have to go black on yo ass nagga!!!!!... any way to those new seniors i can say if your a high achiever dont go to wright state ive seen so may peoples dreams crushed about ap classes...... oh about my placement test the only thing i didnt test out of was math it sucks and i have to take four maths just to graduate its like highschool all over again but at least im not as low as some people it could be worst..... ill chat with you guys later holla at me... laron Public - 11:19 PM - 6 eprops - 4 comments - edit it - email it Monday, July 26, 2004 hey wassup chillin just chillin im excited for alot of reasons but anyway my orientation for wright state is tommorrow and going out of town to canada niagra falls bangin cuz holla at me.... so since me and shaniece broke up and i told her how i felt i feel so much better i mean i didnt think that feeling would change but the fact that i ve been hoe'in around it was either mope around and hoe around you see which one i chose and it worked out really well and to other peoples relationships fumble and slip off the cliff i think that this summer is not for love...... my thought for today: relationships if your in one run at least till your back in school if your trying to get in one dont run even faster later laron

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004 so its 4 in the am and theres no school 2morrow and school was great today im just ready to graduate its been a long hard road and it sometime hurt to get where i am but i have to say im happy and i had a thought.... before i came here and started to try and fit in where i feel like i dont belong i wasnt crazy i really wasnt i was a sane person hut it feels like wherever i go well here i feel like somebody doesnt like me in some cases thats true but not for the people who have been so cool to me it was like a change of season moving here but now i wish i would just settle....... i miss home alot and i miss my girlfriend and family the most ..... so on the way home chelsea and i were talking and i realized some things like how awesome chelsea is and how great it is to talk to a female thats on the same page when it comes to love and life and what differences there are in relationships.... she explained how the difference between enjoying somebody and fucking somebody i mean it made me realize that me and shaniece have the best relationship ever i love her so much...... but then theres like this pressure to have sex or not to have sex that is the question...... you know i really have to say even though theres no lockdown i think chelsea is really doing well for herself i only say that b/c i was sitting there during dolly being black as usual and i know i have a feeling i mean really i know........ also aly your like the coolest person ever i apreciate somebody listening to me even if it didnt matter to know one else but me you know i find it hard to find real people like aly where the hell are they........ you know what weird though theres this girl in my gym class that is so cool and hott and sweet and we like flirt everyday i think shes awesome but i still have a gf but its like i lead a double life sometimes.... shaniece knows and she aint worried shes more tryng to stop me from smoking and i say i will as soon as may comes until then ill cut it down..... so about dolly there are some people in there i really dont apreciate and you know iwas just being funny but brad like bitched me out and im like i was trying to be nice now i really dont think he likes me but for watever reason he can go suck a pipe i mean for what purpose cause you sho aint runnin shit he gon make me hurt him other than that its coming together nicely except for that lift we switched sides and now its hard to do hopefully itll come together and costume done yay im so excited now i see the contrast between dolly and cb in cb i was excited all the time in dolly it took a minute and we were all closer in cb and this time i didnt get to help build the set which kinda sucks but i love performing way more..... this britney spears video is shit really shit on wheat bread...... so my bestfriend and karen are going together its not gross its just weirdand karen has the nerve to try and ditch him only after a week and b/c he didnt call her that nigga is busy and was out of town call him stop being so damn lazy i was pissed i was gonna tell him but shaniece was like no dont and i still was but i went to sleep ...... i had a sandwich and hour ago hahahahaha!!!!...... ok im done ive been on herefor 32 mins and im bout to go back to dream land.... later hater ps i took a poll of the hottest girls in dolly ill keep you posted well when i finish ....... lol later laron Public - 4:34 AM - add eprops - add comments - edit it - email it Thursday, April 15, 2004 so i think while i have time id better write how good my day is right now but last night i was so fucking tired and i couldnt get up this morning i wanted to come to school for acting and go back home and sleep i have to finish some shit so ill holler later...... laron Public - 9:13 AM - 2 eprops - 1 comment - edit it - email it Tuesday, April 13, 2004 so another day another girl to fuck for about 30 minutes hahahaha!!!.... so today was good until the end and i was excited up until the end and then it got better to talk to my gf she always make my day but im sick tired and upset not really upset anymore but i was pissed at some really bitchy boys i aint never seen any more than what was seen these mfs need to calm down so i left early to go to urgent care i really dont feel well but ill pull through its along the lines of a stressful day i still need a white shirt for dolly i hope to get one soon........ also i cant make a joke with out getting in some kind of trouble...... im really excited about our one act play in acting im glad to be working with the people i am although i think some are not happy with me for some reason i hope its just a bad day for some.... dont worry about me let me do what the fuck i wanna do since you dont understand what the fuck is going on leave me alone whore... just chatting so later hater laron Public - 9:44 PM - 2 eprops - 1 comment - edit it - email it Thursday, April 08, 2004 so what is up long and i do mean long week and thank god its overs i dont think i could have ever prayed any harder and i leaerned to keep stuff to myself but when it biulds up where does it go and yeah i saw doll y completely for the first time and it was cool and usually if it aint a movie i already know or made after 1998 i wont watch it probaly..... alots has been up too much to write but i cant wait for dolly tomorrw im excited and i still havent found a jacket for my costume but hopefully ill get to go kick it tonight.... im in like with this girl shes the most sweetest most beautiful thing and i dont know her name but her fathers my teacher but shes the greatest...... hmmm im hungry so hungry... oh nichole hope you feel better....... well im done right now later haters laron Public - 6:40 PM - 2 eprops - 1 comment - edit it - email it Monday, April 05, 2004 so yeah not much a little too much drama where drama oh drama but its 4th the 4th and last quarter of my highschool carrer im so excited soon ill be graduating and going to bowling green how about that no time like crack time later hater....... laron another update of life as we all no it hahahaha!!!! i know its been a minute as you can tell from the dates of entries from the 5th to the 20th well comment and enjoy read from the bottom up... laron

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i still wanna be a pornstar but im sad that i had to go into hiding just to write and understand how i fell and how i dissipate into nuthing for people who dont care a damn about me

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