I'm sleepy.

See, my dad and I went to Lacordaire (hey look, it has a wiki page) and it was really nice and all. When we left, my dad and I were talking about it and agreed that it was a good school, but there was something missing from it for me. I didn't mention that last part, though. My dad kept telling me to "weigh it all out" because I'm still torn between MSDA and QP as well. The silence made me wonder if he was asking for an answer then and there, but of course I wasn't ready to give him my decision.
This morning, right before I got out of the car for school, he said, "I want you to go to Lacordaire." Which made me totally furious, because I still had that little pit in my stomach telling me something wasn't right about it. All things considered, I was very mad upon coming out of my car and didn't talk to my friends much, but rather fidgeted and pulled on the long sleeves of my fleece. Fortunately this didn't seem like suspicious behavior on a freezing cold day so they didn't question me about it. But that kind of headache on top of the one created by wearing my glasses all day (as opposed to the contacts that I've been wearing)? I was ready to explode.
Because honestly, I think that pit in my stomach is from having to spend another four years with a friend. I hate to say that I wish Ciara and I weren't as close as we are now, but in my heart I think that's what I feel. Sometimes she just gets so annoying, from her mannerisms to just... her, that I can't stand it. I really hate to say it, though.
And I don't want to say that I don't want to go there because of Ciara, because that's one of the primary reasons that they want me to go there. Because it's easy. What, so now my opinion is overshadowed by how to make things more simple? Well, I guess it's always been that way. I'll say that I'm selfless, but that's kind of conceited. It's just that, I'm choosing a high school. Don't I have some kind of say in where I want to go?
On this same night as well, my dad has the nerve to say that QP's reputation "isn't that good", according to someone's he's heard it from. See, I don't understand how people can be so gullible, believing things that they hear. It's probably because that opinion matches his own, though I see no grounds for it.

God, my dad is so annoying. My brother just woke up, right?
"Damn, stop acting like you're all tired. It's bullshit."
I'm sorry that we all can't roll out of bed, wash our face, tussle our hair, throw on a pair of jeans, and be out the door in five minutes like you.

As a side note, wow there are a lot of new faces here. XP

Life moves on.... friends change... don't hang on to them if it doesn't feel right.
» randomjunk on 2006-11-03 09:59:34

You and your brother can't, but I can. XD Yes, there have been many new ones since you left. Come back more! ^-^
» Silver-dot- on 2006-11-03 10:29:09

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